Xorkoth
Bluelight Crew
I experienced a lot of loss in 2019 and 2020... I lost my father after a 7 year long, horrific battle with ALS. And then right after I came back from a month long detox in a cabin in the woods, when I got off opiates again and was feeling really good and stable, my cat died expectedly, the ver7 day I got back. I relapsed that day. So I have a huge amount of grief and also guilt/self disgust. I tend to subconsciously and automatically create an emotional wall when I feel grief, and I had been unable to really properly process it. One time, on the trip back from a festival in 2021, I ate 75mg of delta-8, and I had the most profoundly cathartic experience. I listened to music and talked to my friend for the whole 7 hour journey. I spent about 4 hours of it intermittently crying, sometimes sobbing uncontrollably, and laughing, and remembering, and thinking, and processing. By the end of the trip, I felt such a heavy burden lift from me. Obviously the grief was not gone, but a lot of the toxic emotion was released and it helped me immeasurably. Then another time, after that, I ate the same dose, at the end of the first time I had covid and was isolated in my room by myself for a week, with my other, remaining cat. He is immeasurably important and dear to me, and he's 17 years old, so very old for a cat, though he is in good health and doesn't seem old. I am petrified of when I lose him, it is inconceivable to me, he has been the most consistent person in my adult life and is the best companion animal I will ever have. I spent that experience confronting his morality, and mine. Again, I cried a lot. I spent time really living in the moment and fully appreciating the time I have left with him. He spent the whole trip snuggled on my chest and we started into each other' eyes for hours. I can't know what he was thinking, obviously, but it felt like he was right there with me and we were mutually appreciating the relationship we have and the love we have for each other. That experience really helped me to gain some strength for the inevitable and prepare myself for the eventual need to accept that he is gone and not fall apart.
Oral delta 8 is a very special thing. Smoked delta-8 is nice, but it is very different from when you eat it.
Oral delta 8 is a very special thing. Smoked delta-8 is nice, but it is very different from when you eat it.