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December Getting/Staying Sober Thread v. Reflections.

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^ we will addy we will get through it!

To think of 2013 it was a long ass recovery struggle but I've realized that I stayed strong even if there were small bumps on the road so I'm extremely happy foe my actions. I'd eelcome 2014 with open arms and a stronger will!
 
Captain.Heroin said:
Day 14 no bupe

I am here.

I wish I had more positive news.
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Cant think of anything that would qualify for more positive news.. <3=D

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I'm doing well. I'm sober despite living where I can easily buy alcohol in a convenience store or supermarket. One of my roommates who does drink at rare times said to me, "Maybe you can drink like a normal person?" I don't want to risk trying, finding out I can't, and relapsing though. I have drank like that before though but then very quickly I get into drinking a lot on weekends. I also have had random strangers offer me drugs like some random guy I saw while walking home through a park who was smoking pot and had alcohol, and this creepy guy who asked me if I needed a ride when I was walking home who was smoking a meth pipe.

Merry Christmas and have a safe and happy new year.
 
^ GOODLUCK straightrazor it will be tough but worth it I guarantee you.
 
straightrazor said:
2nd day no opiates, I ate the last of my benzos today rather than another week of tapering. Tomorrow will be day one with nothing at all.
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Best of luck to you SR. Lots of support on this forum. Start your own post in the Recovery section and several of us will visit you on a daily / weekly basis. I have found this forum to be crucial in my recovery thus far.

You can do this. There are people here who can and want to help. Glad you found your way to us, and I hope I can help you in some way shape or form.

With love and support, TTGB<3
 
I have 100mg of diaz to get me through tomorrow, it looks like the payment for the 10 boxes I ordered hasn't come out of my account so I expect on the 27th there will be no delivery and I will be seriously in the shit. For like the 10th time in two years ffs.
 
Nothing to report since my last post. Had a bad craving today, but got through it. Distracted with holiday things.
 
omen_owen mk2 said:
Getting ready for cold turkey from a 100mg a day diaz habit tomorrow.

I'm scared.
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If you're taking a benzo or 100mg of diazepam/valium and want to stop don't do it cold turkey. That's a very high dose and cold turkey can make people go into seizures or cause death. At least go to a rehab/detox center where you'll be around medical professionals who can help if something goes wrong. Be safe.
 
PriestTheyCalledHim said:
If you're taking a benzo or 100mg of diazepam/valium and want to stop don't do it cold turkey. That's a very high dose and cold turkey can make people go into seizures or cause death. At least go to a rehab/detox center where you'll be around medical professionals who can help if something goes wrong. Be safe.
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+1 .
 
neversickanymore said:
straightrazor you can do this<3. your not jumping off a huge benzo habit CT are you?
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Thanks, it's the early afternoon so far and I'm just dealing with achy joints and cravings. I'm not jumping off a huge habit but big enough. I'm coming of a 15 month habit that was relatively high dose (50-100mg/day) for the first 10 months. Over the past 5 months there hasn't been a day I took over 30mg, and I've been at 10mg a day for the past month. While jumping off at 10mg isn't what most people would recommend I worry if I buy more pills and attempt to taper further I will just start updosing again. A decade of drug abuse has ruined any bit of self control I used to have and even getting down to 10mg a day was an extremely difficult feat. Since I am coming off multiple substances at once I would rather deal with a single painful CT than have to start a brand new benzo withdrawal when I am in PAWS from opiates.

This isn't the first time I have tried to come off pills but I think this will be the time that I succeed. I did the math the other day and I've spent 43.3% of my life addicted to one substance or another. Between seeing that number and some other things going on in my life right now I believe I actually have the strength to make it through this time.
 
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