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ColtDan said:
if i ever pop my clogs, dont forget me. ive never made much of an impact around here with my random posts, but life is fragile

of course youve made an impact you dafty youve made 14,000 posts and been here for 4 years. Everyone knows your face. You dont make a big drama out of anything, and thats a good thing. Theres far too many dramas going on here sometimes. You help balance things out just by being one of the more sane and less extreme members of EADD.

Nah, I disagree. ColtDan is almost as run of the mill as Albion.

UNTIL he made that hilarious comment in the picture thread. I was seriously pissing myself for days. Funny coz it's so unexpected.

Out of 14,000 posts I'll forget 13,999 of them, but with that single post you've redeemed yourself as one of my favourite posters <3
 
The post I'm talking about said 'Next Bluelighter to die' and the answer was my name, given by OTW.
Would you have felt better if I had named pontifex? (I think he was awarded a silver, is this good or bad?) Don't come on here, bare your soul and not expect people to be concerned. Do you think I would be disappointed if you throw it back in my face and pull through to live a long and prosperous life? Of course not.

If no one else in your life is going to say it, I will. Stop doing drugs and hanging around with the wrong crowd. They are not doing you any favours. If you are hurt by my comments go tell your family my opinion, I would be surprised if they would disagree with anything I have said.

The new me is around, and will be around forever!
Good, my job here is done then.

Anyway where the fuck is OTW?

I have been spear fishing up the coast, aka cheating death. Warning bells should have sounded when they said they needed me to man the sea kayak so they could head out further. Fast forward to me floating 1000m off shore with just a cowboy hat for protection while two mates dived down to 15m with spear guns hunting for lunch, while a strong NE wind whipped up the swell and visibility was less than 3m. I tried to remain calm but if truth be known I started to get scared when I saw birds attacking a large school of fish 400m away. Thoughts of fucking big sharks were hard to shift from my mind. We were so far out that cotb lost sight of us in the swell. My only thoughts that kept me going were the touching RIP thread that you guys would have posted if I din't make it back.

TL:DR? They didn't catch lunch, I had a surf and we had scallops washed down with a beer for lunch.



Enough of the dying talk ? - PLUR ?
It wouldn't be such a problem if talking was all that happened around here. Plur is a long lost concept when this place was a cool site for etards to hang out from Monday to Thursday, filling in time at work until they hit the dance floor on Friday. The most support anyone needed was surviving Suicide Tuesday. At some point it turned into a place that was less about having fun and more about justifying poly drug use of untested research chemicals. Thinking everything will be fixed by wearing a Frankie says Relax tshirt and reaching for the lasers is naive.

Seeing as this thread was started just to have a cry about me how about an honest intervention around here? Why are so many people dying? Or more to the point, why is this place attracting so many people who run the risk of dying? What is different about this place than the rest of BL? Is there a pattern or is it just bad luck?
 
^ I've said it before, and I'll say it again - your time is wasted here.
If you don't like the way "this place" is heading, and you're not committed to offering support to those who need it now, then you're wasting what is obviously your valuable time.
My impression is that you'd rather gloat about how you live, and savour being disliked for it, than to offer any sort of positive contribution or empathy to the bluelight community at large.
AusDD won't have a bar of you, so you move over to EADD (a top group of people from what I can see) and lay down your value judgements about the sort of substances people are using.
That's not "an intervention" with any sort of good intentions, no matter how you try to justify it.

It wouldn't be such a problem if talking was all that happened around here. Plur is a long lost concept when this place was a cool site for etards to hang out from Monday to Thursday, filling in time at work until they hit the dance floor on Friday. The most support anyone needed was surviving Suicide Tuesday. At some point it turned into a place that was less about having fun and more about justifying poly drug use of untested research chemicals. Thinking everything will be fixed by wearing a Frankie says Relax tshirt and reaching for the lasers is naive.

Seeing as this thread was started just to have a cry about me how about an honest intervention around here? Why are so many people dying? Or more to the point, why is this place attracting so many people who run the risk of dying? What is different about this place than the rest of BL? Is there a pattern or is it just bad luck?
You are living proof that being well educated and having a career that makes you seem intelligent does not make for a person with an iota of emotional intelligence.
You flaunt your hokey macho ideas - and your personal life - like nobody else on this board. No, it doesn't help anyone or advance the cause of harm reduction, despite your defensiveness when called out on being an insensitive asshole.

If things were better in "the old days" when drugs were simpler, drug users were less complicated and 'the most support anyone needed was surviving Suicide Tuesday' then you're making a pretty clear case for your actual role here.
Looking down your nose at a new generation of drug using people - and the drug culture/market they find themselves in helps no one, no matter how much you protest the enormous amount of (valid, rational) criticism levelled at you.

You're arrogant enough to always claim to say what others are thinking; sorry, but we're not all sociopaths.
I don't think like you.
And you're pigheaded and immature enough not to know when to call it a day.
You may revel in being bluelight's curmudgeonly conservative - and carry some kind of delusion that you have the credentials to make up for what you lack in meaningful, helpful, intelligent posts- but I find your contributions here (there, and everywhere across bluelight) to be childish, incredibly narrow-minded and completely out of step with the rest of the board.

Again, why weren't you banned?

There must be some reason, because your disregard for the BLUA and repeated instances of being an obnoxious, cold, and generally rude cunt hardly make you seem like the prime candidate for a long holiday (let's call it "retirement") from the site.
There is no dignity in being a fuck head and saying "this place used to be better".
You share a lot of yourself with strangers on here - then have the gall to question "why is this place attracting so many people who run the risk of dying?"
Gee, I dunno man. Have a think about it, you might be able to work it out.

If not, how about getting back to your OMG amazing life and domestic-overshare, ignorant bliss and leave the giving-a-shit to people who actually do.
Because piss and moan all you like, you're not fooling anyone with your "I am the real voice of HR" poppycock.
It's a fucking front for your teeny weeny dicksizing.
Everybody knows your game, and it's really pathetic man. Go find a real hobby if you can't be grown-up enough to come on like everyone's paedo Christian uncle who went to a few fucking raves so he thinks he's cool. He's not.
 
OTW.

It is not the fact that people are concerned that I took issue with. That's what BL is here for. It is the distasteful way you jumped up to mention my name, when it had already been said that the original thread that did not mention my name was distasteful in the first place.

I do not hang around with a bad crowd, I don't SEE my friends anymore actually. I kicked any one who was BAD for me to the kurb 2 years ago. I now only spend time with myself.....and my boyfriend. I am working on my problem, i'm NOT taking as many risks as I did a couple of years ago. My family, my mother is dead, and my father is well aware of what goes on in my life. I'm IN a drugs programme, I AM on a heroin substitute programme (Which the Government has just changed, drastically, changes that were implemented on the 1st of November) I was NOT on any programme when I was at my worst and most flat out. So, actually, you ARE too late in predicting my death!!

If you are concerned, there are much less distasteful ways to go about showing that concern. People do, they PM me, and I keep in touch with them. Not ONCE have I ever read you express your concern for me, infact I barely know who you are. So, I found it even stranger that you chose to pull up my name for the RIP thread. You only mentioned your concern in defense to something other posters took issue with.

That is all I'm going to say on this topic. I've got a happier-ish life than a couple of years, and a few months ago. I've got a long way to go yet, but I'm sure I'll do it.

Could this thread be closed please, I feel it has served it's purpose. Thank you.
 
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Cherry, this is why I wanted to talk via email. Didnt get round to talking in the end because of having a coupla days driving and no sleep, so couldnt put proper thought and attention into what I wanted to write.

Will remedy that soon if it's still okay to still contact you?
 
That's fine. I didn't even notice the whole thing had taken place until by accident yesterday!

My reply may either be instant or delayed depending on my state of mind, which at the moment is a bit weak, but there will be a reply. That I can promise.
 
And you're pigheaded and immature enough not to know when to call it a day.
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I'm just curious if you know why there was a mass exodus from AUSDD a year or so ago? I guess it had nothing to do with the fact that an admin was busted in a major drug trafficking sting and had his computers seized by the Feds. I'm flattered that you like to ride my dick like a white knight every five minutes but at least do me the common curtesy to avoid the wall of text I so often have to skim over and ignore.

CCF I'm glad you are alive. I make no apologies for calling you out on a slippery slope. If you want to use this place as a blog then get used to people being concerned when all you write about is heroin binges, abscesses and beatings. The fact that so many people have died here means the touchy-feely PC crap is not working. If it makes it any better it was a tough choice between you and at least 5 others. Some of them wouldn't have taken it the same way and rather than want to stay alive to spite me would no doubt have order another mystery mix online to experiment with. I look forward to seeing you post more positive stories from now on in.
 
Thinking everything will be fixed by wearing a Frankie says Relax tshirt and reaching for the lasers is naive.

For you the idea of PLUR is wearing a tea shirt, and reaching for the lasers. Then it is long lost on you. You wanted to invoke a 'cry' at your post though -that was the intention? The act of your intervention was never in question but its the way you say it - you know this, people have mentioned it to you before [many times]. This section the posters are open and honest - you mod the lounge where drug talk is banned, do you think that the people posting in there are not taking risks? Read trip reports, read OD, the dark side - full of people taking risks.

There have been too many deaths in this section recently.
 
I'm just curious if you know why there was a mass exodus from AUSDD a year or so ago? I guess it had nothing to do with the fact that an admin was busted in a major drug trafficking sting and had his computers seized by the Feds. I'm flattered that you like to ride my dick like a white knight every five minutes but at least do me the common curtesy to avoid the wall of text I so often have to skim over and ignore.
"Wall of text"?
I use paragraphs, dickhead. Do you have attention issues?
Pissweak cop out.

I'll ask you again (4th time); why weren't you banned or even demodded for using an alt? None of my business but I'm fucking intrigued.
It's the only chance you'll get to be enlightening, so why not give it a whirl?

As for your first question, it was before my time on staff and I know nothing of it.
Do you have a point to make, or are you slinging mud by-association? You should know better than to gossip about other staff members' private affairs; especially if you are leaking things that only staff are privy to.
I can enquire about that though? Anything for you, mate.

Once more - pissweak effort busty.
I get stuck into you because you are an embarrassment and are clearly oblivious to what a flouncing jerk-off you are.
 
I would report you for straying off topic but I'm not that sort of whiney bitch like some. Why aren't I banned? Perhaps because having a difference of opinion isn't against the rules. You don't need to sign up for a junky creed of participation to be a member here. The sooner you realise that the better your experience on bl will be.
 
Could this thread be closed please, I feel it has served it's purpose. Thank you.

*cough* The lady made a request

Could I ask tho that this doesn't get deleted and only locked Mods, if you do shut it down?

Would like to reference it in future comms for stuff, ta <3
 
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