Ethumine (Made me drowsy, I can read books 1000p+ in one go, i'd forget what I was reading amidst sentences on this medication and my orgasms felt weak)
Depakine (valproic acid, wonderful, worked very well and looking at the pharmacological profile which is said to upregulate GABA it's no surprise... up untill the point my blood contained high levels of toxicitiy)
Dormonoct (loprazolam, hypnotic, didn't work)
Tranxene (chlorazepate/chlorazepam ^combining these two worked for both going to sleep, falling asleep, staying asleep and not having nightmares)
Risperidone (made me look like a zombie, didn't even want to have sex)
Quapedine (seroquel, slept all day)
Zolpidem (still takes 3hours before I fall asleep)
Bétablockers alike Propranolol. (tried for anxiety, it does nothing for anxiety, it does make one feel slightly serene)
Trazodon. (had brain zaps)
When I compare each pharmacological profile (with my limited knowledge) it's clear to me what works and what not.
I'm starting to feel doctors do not want to help me and i'm this close to deciding alcohol is the only viable remnant. (I don't drink)
And yes I have tried breathing techniques, quitting caffeine, meditation, heavy sporting, psychologists/psychiatrists, reading before sleep (i'd read untill 6am)
I simply cannot fall asleep and it makes me anxious throughout the whole day because I constantly hold in my breath... Just can't be healthy at all.
I'm sad my condition is attributed to mania and schizophrenia looking at the medications prescribed. I have a sleep condition but I guess it's all but a pathology.
I'm not looking to be on medication all the time but I do need something on hand when I have another attack or simply cannot fall asleep.