Dealing with shit

So today, is a fucked up day..

At the place I work at we have this thing called 'community' where all of the 'peer mentors' sit in a circle, and we go around in the circle, and each person has things we call 'issues' that they claim, for example: hey i am drew, and I have 4 issues, 1 late for a meeting, 2 file issues, and 1 room issue, and the next person does something like so 'jenna, 2 issues, late for work, and file issue. and when you have 5 issues, then you get 'hit on the boards' we call it, where 3 people inside the circle 'take numbers' which is like this:
1_Do nothing
2_Suspended w/contract

now the 3 people take numbers,
3_I want you to be early to all functions, Property restrictions, call sponsor, 9+3 meeting count, anger journel, fear journel, god box, share at meetings,etc.etc.
4_etc..
5_etc...

So everyone in the circle has to stand up and vote for one of the suggestions.

I say today is a fucked up day because today it was ME that was hit on the board, and for total bullshit.
Someone in the circle 'held a concern' on me, which dude was like:
dude:drew, i was told in the grapevine that your brother passed away, and i am concerned that you dont pull up on your brothers here and talk with them.

me:yeah my brother did pass away, and i do speak with my brothers here, i just choose not to speak with you.-end

So 3 people in the 'communtiy' picked numbers, and the number I got was something like this:
15mins in detox 3x a week, 3x extracurclucar activites a week with peer mentor,chair homegroup meeting, tell story @ meeting, river walk(walk along the river),honesty feeling letter to mom, and goodbye letter to brother, and 1,500 words on a topic they picked. 2week contract.

Its not the contract I don't mind, Its the fact that the dude did not pull up on me before 'community' to speak with me. Hell I don't even fuck with this guy, and for the simple fact that I dont go around and talk about my brother passing away gave him a right to 'concern' me in community.

Yeah i am pretty upset about it, and really upset that the individual that concerned me doesn't even talk to me. The guy is a moms boy, and has never touched 'hard drugs' besides weed.
To be 100% with yal, I think he is just upset because I got a supervisor position at work, and he did not. the dude even told me that he was mad that I was became supervisor. which in reality I really didn't want the job, because my time was coming up 'in the office' that I was working on getting a job outside of the treatment center.

So, just trying to deal with this shit, and on top of my brother passing away, i feel a resentment brewing. I really need to take a look at it becuase I don't want to get high over this shit.

 

Thats too weird man. I suggest you call him on it next meeting and explain what he has done to set you back and explain that the job is the job ie being late etc but who you want to talk to us not his call.

That is just weird.

 

just make it up if you don't want to tell the truth... how the hell will they know... they want a story... great have fun with f-ing with them. I would quit my job if I had that and that's coming from someone who did 4 yrs of bible college with all it's petty rules.

One time a friend had corrective surgery on both legs and huge casts. People kept bugging her asking " what happened"... she was finally said, " if you must know it was a skydiving accident." In reality she was born with CP like me and they were loosening tendons. However she said if everyone insists on hearing a story it may as well be a best selling novel

 

just make it up if you don't want to tell the truth... how the hell will they know... they want a story... great have fun with f-ing with them. I would quit my job if I had that and that's coming from someone who did 4 yrs of bible college with all it's petty rules.

One time a friend had corrective surgery on both legs and huge casts. People kept bugging her asking " what happened"... she was finally said, " if you must know it was a skydiving accident." In reality she was born with CP like me and they were loosening tendons. However she said if everyone insists on hearing a story it may as well be a best selling novel

I love that "best selling novel" concept. I'd go a step farther and tell each person a different story like the way that old movie Clue had multiple endings when it first hit theaters.

I feel like D's was super disrespected; forcing someone to talk about an "issue" is just a big NO in my space. A bridge gets crossed when (and IF) you ready. Making someone is dragging a cat on a leash.