Dead Flies

So I've been clean for 19 days but my apartment still looks like a junkies den. Clothes are scattered all over, there is dust, dirt and trash strewn about and then... there are those fucking flies.

When my dog died on 07/18/10 I was hardcore in my addiction. After his passing, I entered a fog of 'nothingness' and began using even harder than previously. I neglected everything but the get high.

A horrible stench pervaded the air at my place a couple of days after his death.

Then came the flies... HUNDREDS (maybe even a thousand) of them. They gravitated to the lights and windows and I did nothing but accept them and the stench who's source is still undetermined.

After a few days more, I could no longer take those fucking flies and grabbed a bottle of Raid Flying Insect killer. I sprayed and sprayed.

I can still hear the buzzing of the multitudes caught in their death throes. It was loud and was exponentially louder due to the quantity of flies dying at once.

There were so fucking many dead flies on my windowsills, floor, nightstand and kitchen floor. After a few days I vacuumed most of them up.

Many still remain.

Why am I choosing to live in filth when I am clean?

Where is the motivation?

I AM lazy but past experience has shown that when I am clean from drugs, my living environment is VERY fucking organized, sterile and clean.

Besides the flies I cannot bring myself to pick up my dog's toys. Its painful. He LOVED toys and they are strewn on the floor randomly. There is one place under the dining room table where he would place them and I just can not bring myself to disturb them.

I'm not proud of my unnecessarily disgusting living environment and I know people will judge me as a scum bag. I know better though. There is something beyond laziness that is preventing me from cleaning this mess.

Yes, the vast majority of those flies are gone but some still remain.

Judge me as you will. I need to remember this disgusting shit so I can figure out my patterns in the future if I choose to embrace the junkie lifestyle again.

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That sounds like how I was living for a while when I was single. I completely neglected my apartment. The flies, the smell, the dirty laundry, empty beer bottles... I would go nearly 1 year without doing laundry. Just throw the dirty clothes in a pile, first in the closet, and when there were so many clothes taht I couldn't push the door shut anymore, I began piling them in an extra room and keeping it closed off. Let me tell you, 1 year of dirty laundry stinks. Then, the flies were really bad for a while. It was like the fly scene from the Amyty Ville Horror movie. A little later, after the flies had run out of gas and died, I found a dead mouse in there and could tell from the maggot cocoons that that's where most of the flies came from.

And not only that, I stank. I was living off ramen noodles, cheese, cans of tuna, microwave burritos , and 40s of beer. The cashier at the mini-mart was worried about me contracting scurvy for some reason, that she convinced me that I should eat more veggies, and I'd heard that ages ago, sailors would eat cabbage for this purpose. And I added cabbage do my daily diet. This diet made me very gassy. Anyway, I was living in such squalor that I couldn't bear to have anyone over.

 

sounds like we are very familiar, socko. I won't allow anyone in my place (with the exception of other junkies who understand).

There is no reason for my place to be like this now that I don't get high in any way, shape or form.

I'm gonna pick away at stuff today and get back to spotless quickly

 

Dude it's fly season in the USA! Get some fly tape rather than nasty chemicals. I am sorry about your dog

 

yeah, the fly thing was MUCH more than being the season. It was due to filthy living conditions. There were SO many of them that the chemical was an absolute must.

I started cleaning yesterday. Kitchen is SPOTLESS! I'm keeping it moving today and am hitting the living room and bathroom

 

Fly season is right! I just spent a couplle of nights in a cabin that had 1000s of them. But while I was there, I found an interesting way to get rid of them. It involves kittens....

 

Were they fruit flies or the other smaller, types?

 

They looked just like the ones in your picture. They were big black flies that might have been "wood flies" or just house flies. Definitley not fruit flies.

 

you gotta PM me your 'kitten' solution!