I feel a little better today.
Sleep was really restless, though. I tossed and turned all night. I went to bed around 9pm, but I didn't even sleep until around 1am or so. I bought a packet of NyQuil gelcaps to try and help myself sleep. I ended up taking four at once and I'm not even sure if it did anything. I almost contemplated anesthetizing myself with a bunch of DXM, but I have no idea how that will affect me, nor am I willing to really pump myself full of DXM, or any drug for that matter, at this point.
Ah what am I saying--what I wouldn't give for some Xanax, Valium, or even a Soma.
That said, I do feel a little better today. I keep telling myself that every successive night, I will sleep better and better. Not perfect for a while, I'm sure, but it'll get better.
There's a family vacation at the end of this month. I can't wait to be sitting on a boat in tranquil water, comfortable, pleasant, and sober. I'm looking forward to that so much.
Sleep was really restless, though. I tossed and turned all night. I went to bed around 9pm, but I didn't even sleep until around 1am or so. I bought a packet of NyQuil gelcaps to try and help myself sleep. I ended up taking four at once and I'm not even sure if it did anything. I almost contemplated anesthetizing myself with a bunch of DXM, but I have no idea how that will affect me, nor am I willing to really pump myself full of DXM, or any drug for that matter, at this point.
Ah what am I saying--what I wouldn't give for some Xanax, Valium, or even a Soma.
That said, I do feel a little better today. I keep telling myself that every successive night, I will sleep better and better. Not perfect for a while, I'm sure, but it'll get better.
There's a family vacation at the end of this month. I can't wait to be sitting on a boat in tranquil water, comfortable, pleasant, and sober. I'm looking forward to that so much.
Hang in there friend, you'll get through this!