Splinter, you are patronizing and on the offense, but at least you finally spent a little more time writing. Arguing effectively takes some effort, doesn't it?
First, why would you even
suggest that I am somehow pissed at mods?
I am
pleased that they are more neutral and mature than the average member. I consider it a good thing.
Moving on...
You only came after me since I PMed your buddy, Chitown.
I contacted him to warn him about his heavy use.
I found his assertion that he is almost at 1000 pills over 5 years to be extreme.
Moreover, he seemed to downplay the negative effects, which is
dangerous to other readers.
Your referring to him in the above post, is a continuation of the MYTH that long-term MDMA abuse can happen without consequence. That is a trait of addiction, my fellow BLer.
I did, indeed, have a 'multi-day' binge. Now
you are steering facts.
Rolling two days in a row, after rolling two weekends in a row, was enough to spell disaster for me.
The enema played a
very minor role, if any.
I
strongly suspect taking 100mg benedryl after 48 hours is what put me
over the line.
I have never felt such euphoria/dizziness from benedryl.
The very next day is when
everything changed.
If this relatively moderate 'binge' plus 4 doses of diphenhydramine is
enough to have this effect, then it would seem that users like you ARE dangerous when you spread MYTHS about the safety of MDMA. The majority of other sufferers seem unwilling to fight this battle with 'pro-MDMA' boards. I am different.
I am the chosen one.
As for Chitown, my concern was primarily
for him.
The response I have received is rather astonishing.
Both of you have followed me around for DAYS, constantly replying to my every argument. A few others have joined you, moderately. But the two of you seem to be tied at the waist.
I also suspect you have been PMing mods...
If I had known what showing a little concern for Chitown would get me, I wouldn't have bothered. Your show of concern for
me is back-handed, so let it expire this time.
I do not pretend to be a doctor, but I could have been one.
My propensity towards the technical and medical is a long-standing trait.
I studied MDMA and the 5-HT system,
extensively.
Many of the conclusions I reached happened within 3-4 months, but I continue to study.
The field of neurology is nebulous, even for the doctors.
It was not until I felt confident about the
basics that I decided to return to BL and provide what NOBODY could provide me with when I so desperately needed it -
information.
Searching through the archive of BL and other sites revealed a cold fact - people that are harmed by MDMA write in very
little detail.
Eventually, they indicate that recovery happens, but many do not even bother.
For some people, Splinter, that is
not enough.
I have always been a smart person, and I digested a LOT of information.
I did not 'steer the facts' as much as you think.
Before I even began research, I was shocked by how many anecdotal reports I found indicating that MOST people in recovery from MDMA alter their diets
radically.
Why is this such a reoccurring trend?
This was just the first clue, but it was a consistent one - look for yourself.
Then I learned the basics of serotonin, such as 95% of it is in the intestines, NOT the brain.
These facts found
me. I was simply looking with open eyes.
This was just a starting point.
My study was NOT limited to the 'gut' theory.
I read hundreds of abstracts, at least 30 FULL research papers, and several META-studies.
Meta-studies are quite interesting, because they are the result of someone else doing what I'm trying to do - compressing hundreds of studies into a comprehensive presentation. The conclusions reached in META-studies back up MANY of my assertions.
Soon, you will see links.
Then, will you continue to fight me?
Will you call it 'propaganda'?
The fact is, son, that science incriminates MDMA from
many different directions.
However, it has also shown some psychological benefits.
This has been seen with other psychedelic drugs, like mushrooms and LSD.
People have described some of the most
meaningful experiences of their lives while on these drugs. Some studies suggest around 70% of subjects questioned felt this way.
But what you and MANY others on BL don't get is this - all of these psychological benefits are mediated by
careful dosing and
one-time use.
By NO means do these benefits occur without consequence.
What do you think these
liberal scientists would say to this community about having
hundreds of psychedelic experiences?
MDMA is riskier than mushrooms or LSD, yet many eat MDMA like it is the best drug ever invented.
While the experience of 'rolling' is arguably more euphoric, this should be assumed to carry a
higher risk.
If you respected MDMA and used it only 2-4 times per year, you would NOT be here on BL fighting with me. Others that read these posts, will recognize the true 'harm-reduction' that I practice.
We were not meant to have such
powerful experiences
over and over again!
Chitown has acclimated to the alterations in his 'brain-gut' circuitry.
Good for him.
Many others are not so lucky.
For the 20 or so people that have approached me for
real help, I was there for them. If you ever find yourself among them,
you let me know. 
For the countless others that will eventually find their way to my postings, I hope I have lit the
very dark path that is MDMA recovery.