I've just made a post about this in TDS but I figured I'd put it here too.
Amazing how much your mindset can change in a a few hours eh? Reading my post from yesterday and remembering how sure I was that I didn't want to use again, but now... I guess I'm just struggling to see why I should get clean.
As I said in the thread, Methadone keeps me straight so any usage is purely for my enjoyment.
I've got my habit down to about £20-30 a day (normally £20), something I can afford without too much hassle.
So there's no financial problems, there's no health problems (I'm uber careful IVing, 2 years daily shooting and I've not lost a single pipe), no social problems... Why was it I'm quitting again?
This is day 3, but all I've done throughout those days is sit around debating whether I should go pick up!
So I would have also been 10 times as productive had I had a few bags!
I guess I'm just struggling to see the point of it all; everyone has their own little vices, as long as they're not causing any problems why bother stopping them?
Amazing how much your mindset can change in a a few hours eh? Reading my post from yesterday and remembering how sure I was that I didn't want to use again, but now... I guess I'm just struggling to see why I should get clean.
As I said in the thread, Methadone keeps me straight so any usage is purely for my enjoyment.
I've got my habit down to about £20-30 a day (normally £20), something I can afford without too much hassle.
So there's no financial problems, there's no health problems (I'm uber careful IVing, 2 years daily shooting and I've not lost a single pipe), no social problems... Why was it I'm quitting again?
This is day 3, but all I've done throughout those days is sit around debating whether I should go pick up!
So I would have also been 10 times as productive had I had a few bags!
I guess I'm just struggling to see the point of it all; everyone has their own little vices, as long as they're not causing any problems why bother stopping them?