therenegademaster
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A little background of my drug experiences I have done many different drugs and concoctions. Too many to name them all but some are Cannabis, Cocaine, LSD, various types of legal highs (cannabinoids, stimulants, hallucinogens), various pharmaceuticals such as diazepam, Lyrica, Ritalin etc. but never MDMA.
It was a few days before Halloween. I had spent all morning and afternoon, lying in bed smoking cannabis. The previous day I had broken up with my girlfriend of a year and smoked to keep my mind off of reality and my emotions. I smoked about 1.5 grams of cannabis and few joints of hash within the 7 hours of being awake.
6pm> I get a phone call from two work colleagues I am very friendly with, I'll call them GT and D. G is on the phone to me and asks me if I want to come out with them tonight, I say to them that I'm not in the best place to party tonight as I had just broken up with my girlfriend. GT basically forces me to come out regardless of me saying no by saying "You're getting a shower, you're dressing up (I had a costume of an orange jumpsuit which I had to wear to work the previous day), and to get to my house right now. You have half an hour or I’ll come to yours and drag you out. If you’ve just broken up with her you need to get out.” I then agree as he made a good point with needing to get out of the house.
6.30pm> I smoke another joint before I arrive at GT’s house, GT and D greet me at the door with a drink (Very strong vodka and coke) I proceed to drink it and another three glasses before our lift to the club come to get us at 10.30pm.
Before our lift arrives D gets a call from his friend who he was borrowing ID off of to get in to the club as he had lost his. We get a taxi to his house at 9pm and we proceed to drink a few beers and smoke more cannabis. D’s friend who sells cannabis arrives at the house with cannabis and 2 grams of cocaine.
10.30pm> Our lift then arrives, with A (a mutual friend of mine and GT’s) A then says he is coming with us and is going to get some E’s at the club. We get in and sniff the cocaine in the car on our way there.
11pm> We assume everyone will be dressed up, to get into the club and there wasn’t anybody other than the four of us dressed up. (Myself as a convict, D as a bull fighter, GT as a ninja and A as a nun) we walk up to the bar and I say “I’m not fucked up enough to be the only ones dressed up”. Everyone agrees. We all buy a drink and go for a smoke. A then turns around to a random stranger and asks “Do you know anyone who can get us chats” (a street name where I’m from for Ecstasy) the stranger then replies “Yeah man, I have some. How many are you looking” A then asks what he has first and we walk around to the corner where the door men cannot see. He then brings out a bag of 30-40 pills which are red mastercards and the dealer assures us it will blow our minds (and believe me it did. It really, really did) they cost £10 each so myself D and A bought one each and G bought 2. They were diamond shaped pills with mastercard indented on them. (I have never taken Ecstasy or MDMA before, and I had done no research to effects, symptoms or anything. All I knew was it was supposed to make you feel happy and make you want to dance. Exactly what I was wanting to do that night.)
D then says to me “only take half because these are very, very strong.” (All three have done ecstasy before and have taken these same pills before too. They are rated 220mg of MDMA per pill) So the second it gets in my hand I bite it in half and swallow it with my beer.
It is now about half 11, the club is in full swing, everyone is dancing and partying. The four of us are the centre of attention as we are the only ones in costume. I think I start to feel it when I was getting another drink but man was I wrong. I felt energetic and felt myself dancing but it must have been a placebo effect to it. I was standing with G at this point and he asks if I want to go for a smoke. I join him and go outside, we then have a smoke and then approach a group of girls sitting down in the smoking area and start talking to them. I then sit amongst them talking away for a 10 minutes or so.
It has now been 40 minutes since I took the half. This is where things get interesting. The group of girls leave with D to get a drink, so A, GT and I are left sitting outside. I feel a sudden rush of euphoria going through my body. My hands, arms, feet and legs start to rapidly vibrate. I feel very, very thirsty and have no drink. I wanted water. A then grabs me and takes me to the toilets. I get up and walk in saying to myself this will all be fine. The euphoria and vibrations build with each second that passes. I am standing in the toilet and then it properly hits me. A massive wave hits me and I have to lean on a wall. A is standing beside me as I start to freak out. He asks if I want to go outside and I nod. He then gets GT’s attention and we all go outside again. I walk as fast as I can as I cannot feel my body any longer through these vibrations. GT and A sit beside me and tell me not to panic, they tell me it’s perfectly normal and they are feeling the exact same as I am. A says “If you feel like you need to be sick, then be sick. It’s perfectly normal.” I then start to gag, nothing comes up though. They both sit with me reassuring me that in a minute everything will be fine, and I will feel amazing. They were right.
Within a matter of seconds after they said that, the scary feeling had left, the gaging had left. I felt better than I ever have in my life. I get a sudden urge of energy and happiness, my legs start to shake to the beat of the music coming from inside i start to vibrate all over. Everything feels amazing, A rolls me a cigarette and it is the freshest thing I had ever inhaled, fresher than any air I had inhaled before, GT gives me his drink and it is the best tasting drink I’ve ever had. I then say “I feel fucking amazing”
I then look up and see the group of girls we were talking to earlier and call them over, one sits down beside me and I put my arm around her and start talking. One thing leads to another and all of a sudden I’m kissing her and it feels unbelievable. We kiss 2/3 times and then she asks to go inside to dance and I get up with her not even realising GT and A are gone. As we are walking back inside I see D and shout on him, he is walking about dancing and comes over to me. I hug him and shout “Thank you for getting me out, I’m loving this” I would say it was the ecstasy talking but I honestly was having the best time of my life. I then go to walk inside with the girl and I see GT and A walking out, I was so fucked that I instantly forgot I was walking with her and leave her. We then all have another smoke, and proceed to the dance floor.
As I walk onto the dancefloor, I can remember so vividly the song that was playing. The Renegade by Friend Within, it was building up as I walk through the crowd, it keeps building till we all get to the centre of the dance floor. (The dancefloor is on the bottom floor with a floor above, so people can lean over and see the entire dancefloor). I make it to the centre as soon as we get there I look up and see everyone above me, the beat then drops and I become one with the dancefloor. I am a terrible dancer and am usually shy about dancing. But I hadn’t a care in the world, I was embracing it all, the music was amazing, the people were amazing. GT then grabs me and shouts “You are a dancefloor wizard” and I grabbed him and kissed him on the cheek. I have never felt so amazing in my entire life.
3am>Next thing I know, its 3.00am and the club was closing. We get into our lift and drive home, GT then says to me “how much of that E did you take and I say only half” he then brings out his second one and crushes some of it up, we each sniff a line of it in the car, I crushed mine up and sniffed it also. I didn’t really feel much else as I was still buzzing.
3.15am> After sniffing the other half of mine i feel a very intense, gittery and more aggressive high. Where as taking it orally i felt so much more euphoric and empathetic. I felt amazing the rest of the night. We also smoked a joint of hash in the car home, this also just felt to fresh and regenerated my euphoria again. We spent the rest of the night till 7am doing pretty much the same, sniffing the rest of our E’s and smoking joints.
Was a life changing experience. I wish i could experience MDMA it for the first time again.
I'm really surprised that I can remember as much of my night as I did.
It was a few days before Halloween. I had spent all morning and afternoon, lying in bed smoking cannabis. The previous day I had broken up with my girlfriend of a year and smoked to keep my mind off of reality and my emotions. I smoked about 1.5 grams of cannabis and few joints of hash within the 7 hours of being awake.
6pm> I get a phone call from two work colleagues I am very friendly with, I'll call them GT and D. G is on the phone to me and asks me if I want to come out with them tonight, I say to them that I'm not in the best place to party tonight as I had just broken up with my girlfriend. GT basically forces me to come out regardless of me saying no by saying "You're getting a shower, you're dressing up (I had a costume of an orange jumpsuit which I had to wear to work the previous day), and to get to my house right now. You have half an hour or I’ll come to yours and drag you out. If you’ve just broken up with her you need to get out.” I then agree as he made a good point with needing to get out of the house.
6.30pm> I smoke another joint before I arrive at GT’s house, GT and D greet me at the door with a drink (Very strong vodka and coke) I proceed to drink it and another three glasses before our lift to the club come to get us at 10.30pm.
Before our lift arrives D gets a call from his friend who he was borrowing ID off of to get in to the club as he had lost his. We get a taxi to his house at 9pm and we proceed to drink a few beers and smoke more cannabis. D’s friend who sells cannabis arrives at the house with cannabis and 2 grams of cocaine.
10.30pm> Our lift then arrives, with A (a mutual friend of mine and GT’s) A then says he is coming with us and is going to get some E’s at the club. We get in and sniff the cocaine in the car on our way there.
11pm> We assume everyone will be dressed up, to get into the club and there wasn’t anybody other than the four of us dressed up. (Myself as a convict, D as a bull fighter, GT as a ninja and A as a nun) we walk up to the bar and I say “I’m not fucked up enough to be the only ones dressed up”. Everyone agrees. We all buy a drink and go for a smoke. A then turns around to a random stranger and asks “Do you know anyone who can get us chats” (a street name where I’m from for Ecstasy) the stranger then replies “Yeah man, I have some. How many are you looking” A then asks what he has first and we walk around to the corner where the door men cannot see. He then brings out a bag of 30-40 pills which are red mastercards and the dealer assures us it will blow our minds (and believe me it did. It really, really did) they cost £10 each so myself D and A bought one each and G bought 2. They were diamond shaped pills with mastercard indented on them. (I have never taken Ecstasy or MDMA before, and I had done no research to effects, symptoms or anything. All I knew was it was supposed to make you feel happy and make you want to dance. Exactly what I was wanting to do that night.)
D then says to me “only take half because these are very, very strong.” (All three have done ecstasy before and have taken these same pills before too. They are rated 220mg of MDMA per pill) So the second it gets in my hand I bite it in half and swallow it with my beer.
It is now about half 11, the club is in full swing, everyone is dancing and partying. The four of us are the centre of attention as we are the only ones in costume. I think I start to feel it when I was getting another drink but man was I wrong. I felt energetic and felt myself dancing but it must have been a placebo effect to it. I was standing with G at this point and he asks if I want to go for a smoke. I join him and go outside, we then have a smoke and then approach a group of girls sitting down in the smoking area and start talking to them. I then sit amongst them talking away for a 10 minutes or so.
It has now been 40 minutes since I took the half. This is where things get interesting. The group of girls leave with D to get a drink, so A, GT and I are left sitting outside. I feel a sudden rush of euphoria going through my body. My hands, arms, feet and legs start to rapidly vibrate. I feel very, very thirsty and have no drink. I wanted water. A then grabs me and takes me to the toilets. I get up and walk in saying to myself this will all be fine. The euphoria and vibrations build with each second that passes. I am standing in the toilet and then it properly hits me. A massive wave hits me and I have to lean on a wall. A is standing beside me as I start to freak out. He asks if I want to go outside and I nod. He then gets GT’s attention and we all go outside again. I walk as fast as I can as I cannot feel my body any longer through these vibrations. GT and A sit beside me and tell me not to panic, they tell me it’s perfectly normal and they are feeling the exact same as I am. A says “If you feel like you need to be sick, then be sick. It’s perfectly normal.” I then start to gag, nothing comes up though. They both sit with me reassuring me that in a minute everything will be fine, and I will feel amazing. They were right.
Within a matter of seconds after they said that, the scary feeling had left, the gaging had left. I felt better than I ever have in my life. I get a sudden urge of energy and happiness, my legs start to shake to the beat of the music coming from inside i start to vibrate all over. Everything feels amazing, A rolls me a cigarette and it is the freshest thing I had ever inhaled, fresher than any air I had inhaled before, GT gives me his drink and it is the best tasting drink I’ve ever had. I then say “I feel fucking amazing”
I then look up and see the group of girls we were talking to earlier and call them over, one sits down beside me and I put my arm around her and start talking. One thing leads to another and all of a sudden I’m kissing her and it feels unbelievable. We kiss 2/3 times and then she asks to go inside to dance and I get up with her not even realising GT and A are gone. As we are walking back inside I see D and shout on him, he is walking about dancing and comes over to me. I hug him and shout “Thank you for getting me out, I’m loving this” I would say it was the ecstasy talking but I honestly was having the best time of my life. I then go to walk inside with the girl and I see GT and A walking out, I was so fucked that I instantly forgot I was walking with her and leave her. We then all have another smoke, and proceed to the dance floor.
As I walk onto the dancefloor, I can remember so vividly the song that was playing. The Renegade by Friend Within, it was building up as I walk through the crowd, it keeps building till we all get to the centre of the dance floor. (The dancefloor is on the bottom floor with a floor above, so people can lean over and see the entire dancefloor). I make it to the centre as soon as we get there I look up and see everyone above me, the beat then drops and I become one with the dancefloor. I am a terrible dancer and am usually shy about dancing. But I hadn’t a care in the world, I was embracing it all, the music was amazing, the people were amazing. GT then grabs me and shouts “You are a dancefloor wizard” and I grabbed him and kissed him on the cheek. I have never felt so amazing in my entire life.
3am>Next thing I know, its 3.00am and the club was closing. We get into our lift and drive home, GT then says to me “how much of that E did you take and I say only half” he then brings out his second one and crushes some of it up, we each sniff a line of it in the car, I crushed mine up and sniffed it also. I didn’t really feel much else as I was still buzzing.
3.15am> After sniffing the other half of mine i feel a very intense, gittery and more aggressive high. Where as taking it orally i felt so much more euphoric and empathetic. I felt amazing the rest of the night. We also smoked a joint of hash in the car home, this also just felt to fresh and regenerated my euphoria again. We spent the rest of the night till 7am doing pretty much the same, sniffing the rest of our E’s and smoking joints.
Was a life changing experience. I wish i could experience MDMA it for the first time again.
I'm really surprised that I can remember as much of my night as I did.
