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sharrrna

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recently I took some pills, they were mda pills and I Aldo had a little coke, I guess it was a bit of a traumatic night, but I ended up getting really sad/freaked out and started crying, I've never had the feeling I'm going to cry on pills. is it normal for this to happen or not?
 
sharrrna said:
recently I took some pills, they were mda pills and I Aldo had a little coke, I guess it was a bit of a traumatic night, but I ended up getting really sad/freaked out and started crying, I've never had the feeling I'm going to cry on pills. is it normal for this to happen or not?
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i had a somewhat similar experience as yours
i felt all depressed and alone

if you can create a timeline of the events that happened that night and what type of pill you took.
 
it wasnt even that bed, ive had the pills before and had one of the best nights of my life, i was just at my boyfriends christmas party out clubbing, and everyone was a little out of control, especially my boyfriend and there was a lot of anger and fighting through the night, maybe it was just because im not used to being in that sort of environment.
 
freehugs said:
I actually almost cried tears of joy at bassnectar, but I've never been sad/depressed
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at some shows im an absolute blubbering mess if ive had mdxx.... with complete joy if they play a tune i like, ill more than likely start tearing up..... quite embarasing at times.

sad to hear about your night sharna, perhaps next roll before consumption have a rough mudmap of your night and then weigh up whether it will be worth it, in saying that. can be easier said than done :(
 
If your in a hostile place and a lot of shit happening then its not surprising that you got upset (with or without the drugs).

When you think how MDMA can amplify your feelings when you feel happy then it goes without saying that it can amplify your feeling when your feeling bad/down etc.

Set / setting is so important.

Sorry you had a bad experience though - its really scary when the night turns bad.
 
Never cried on E, but cried for a good 3 hours on M-cat/mepherdone and blurted my life history and family 'secrets' lol. Fair to say I havent touched that since!
 
I've teared up several times on MDMA, but usually in a blissful way. I have experienced a melancholy/disappointed feeling while rolling in response to being the only person on E or rolling alone.
 
It makes sense that it would enhance your emotional state, especially the come-up for me can be pretty uncomfortable if I'm not in a good environment or feeling down.

I'm not sure that I've necessarily cried while rolling, but the day after seems to be pretty emotional and I will often cry a lot. But not so much a depressed cry, more of a nice therapeutic emotional release that leaves me feeling more rejuvenated after. The day after seems to be an extension of the roll where I still have some increased emotional awareness but without being high.
 
sharrrna said:
it wasnt even that bed, ive had the pills before and had one of the best nights of my life, i was just at my boyfriends christmas party out clubbing, and everyone was a little out of control, especially my boyfriend and there was a lot of anger and fighting through the night, maybe it was just because im not used to being in that sort of environment.
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I didn't cry, but I had a similar experience to you. There's something traumatic about the rowdiness of drunk people that ruins your MDMA high and makes you sad and worried...

I think the problem was all in the environment.
 
I've had a couple emotional times on m. Not full out crying but a bit of it. They don't last very long though. I will just think of something sad and the feeling is so overwhelming. They are crazy thoughts that don't bother me much regularly.

But for you, I agree with the others, the problem was the environment. M doesn't make you only super happy. If a bad thing happens, it's still bad, you won't be like "yay!" or anything, hah. Anger and fighting is never a good thing.
 
As sad as it is for me, I actually need entactogens to be able to "fully" experience DEEP emotions. I love crying on MDMA...hell I cried on methylone the other day. Very good for the soul!
 
I cried rolling my face off,

I broke a yellow crayon,

I was writing those name poems

EX.

J- jolly
O- organ donner
E- energetic

i was doing it for the women I loved

and i picked up the yellow crayon and she goes "ohhhh My favorite color"

I put the crayon to the paper

and SNAP.

yea i started crying.

I was having a shitty day already tho

Great pills tho
 
Yeah. It happens. At the very first rave I went to, I heard from someone that my brother was there, and so I went on a mission searching for him 'cause I really really wanted to see him, but he had already left. Anyway, some random dude let me borrow his phone so I could call him... So, I go and lock myself in a bathroom stall, call my brother whilst rolling balls, he picks up... and then I start going on and on about how much I love him, I wish he was here so I could hug him, and about how I'm sorry I'm such a terrible sister and start crying my eyes out, because, really, I am a terrible person to have for a sister. AND HE'S SUCH A NICE BROTHER UGH :(. Anyway, had a good cry, but was all smiles by the time I found the guy to return his phone.
 
nope thats the exact opposite of my reaction to ecstacy. I am so far from crying when I roll I dont think I could even if you took a basket full of kittens and killed them with a chainsaw in front of me.
 
I rolled last friday and i was really stressed out and a little depressed, because my friend is borderline suicide (problems with an ex of his have taken their toll on his life) and was tearing up on and off throughout the night, especially once I started to come down.. It was a first for me.
 
mollycoddled said:
nope thats the exact opposite of my reaction to ecstacy. I am so far from crying when I roll I dont think I could even if you took a basket full of kittens and killed them with a chainsaw in front of me.
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hahahahah same here man
 
it makes me sooo empathetic and so caring that i have cried a few times on it, but i also get naked and wanna touch everyone
 
People think that MDMA is purely a happy drug, but sometimes a combination of bad set and setting can mess you up.

I've felt kinda sad on MDMA mostly because certain stuff wasn't working out as I wanted to. And the MDMA high only made the situation significantly worse. I started questioning why I was even using MDMA in the first place. Luckily this happened only once. The vast majority of my rolls were pretty damn good.
 
freehugs said:
I actually almost cried tears of joy at bassnectar, but I've never been sad/depressed
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Haha, a Bassnectar show will do that to you! :)

But to the OP, I can't be in a negative environment like that when I'm rolling. I think MDMA, just as much as LSD even, is dependent on set and setting for the experience.The emotions you would normally feel in that type of setting would just be amplified, and could be too overwhelming to handle.

I try to only roll/trip when I know the envronment will be right and only with people who I know and trust. Even then though, anything can happen when drugs are involved. Just remember that not every experience you have with MDMA, or any drug for that matter, is guaranteed to be a happy one. Sorry you had a bad time, but don't let it bother you. Just go into the next roll with a positive outlook, and a positive environment, and you'll be fine.
 
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