Crushed to the Core

[iwish]

Fucking lock myself in a coffin and never come out. Earth swallow me whole and forget I ever existed. I want to scratch through my skin. Scratch it all off and disappear. Burn my soul. Buy me a one way ticket to the heart of the sun. I don't deserve to dissolve into a slow sweet dream.

 

[chilidog]

wow. whatd u take ?

 

[iwish]

Life.

 

[psycosynthesis]

Powerful. I've been in this place before.

You alright?

 

[iwish]

I'd be lying if I said yes.

However, I know its just my ego cravings. But in terms of % I'm not okay.

I need some psycosynthesis to make it better.

 

[psycosynthesis]

You need to know that you are a shining soul...but I have a feeling you know this already, so maybe you jsut need reminding. Hope that percentage rises real soon.

 

[iwish]

I shine periodically and almost immediately fall into a cloudy haze of.. emptiness.

Ambivalence... you know.

 

[psycosynthesis]

You shine constantly. The fall is an illusion. Doesn't make it seem any less real, I know. Just try to keep it in mind. Remember how beautiful life can be/is.

 

[JustBlaze420]

nice poem.

 

[up all night]

Everything is going to be just fine. If you stop playing the victim life will seem that much more fun.

 

[iwish]

I was expressing myself, and on that particular night in May everything was not fine.

 

[up all night]

I'm sure it wasn't, but it's now July and things are probably a little better. I'm all for expressing yourself through words, but I just wanted to say that things are rarely as bad as they seem at the time and it's just a good idea to remind yourself of that when you're feeling really down.