So I dunno, I've been considering posting this query for a while, as this past year my tolerance has gotten to a point where... well... I'd say it rivals pretty much anyone at this point. Short backstory, but I've been using opiates since I was 10 - 24+ years now. I had my own "supply", then my own mom realized she liked being around me far more when I was "high/using", tripling what I would get on my own.
The worst/best thing, was when Purdue was screwing with the Oxy pill about 12 years ago, a few years before they went full on crush resistant on us - for a time, the pills were coming out the "other end" utterly and completely intact. So, I figured, Hell, they weren't doing jack squat... so... let's crush those puppies up, then! And so, what was already a love affair, became a mad, passionate lust.
Fast forward to today: I've been trying Oxymorphone+Oxycodone of late. I have to imagine the Oxymorphone is what "broke" my tolerance. As an example, having gotten my monthly haul of one last week...? Day one, it was about 250mg of OxyM. Day two, about 500mg. Day three, I ended up at about 800-900mg of Oxymorphone, and barely felt "it". Honestly, I still "feel" the Oxycodone at its best, whereas the OxyM is... nada. Maybe 400-500mg of Oxycodone in one dose, and I can still get "there".
So my ultimate question is... where am I at now...? Has my tolerance reached a point where I've basically "broken" myself, where it's so freaking high that I'm largely screwed to get any real use out of these save staving off withdrawal...? (Amazing how utterly horrid *that* is, no? Non-users/addicts just can't conceive how there is nothing in this entire existence worse than that cold turkey withdrawal. But I digress.)
I'm sure tip #1-1,000 would be reduce for a good while, try to lower tolerance that way, and start again... but that's easier said than done. Sorry, there's just no way on this Earth that I have that willpower in me. Is there any other way to improve/potentiate that I perhaps haven't tried...? Another variation of opiate that i might be able to switch to, which others in a similarly "insane tolerance point" have managed to find benefits with? Unfortunately, I do have quite legitimate pain to the point I cannot even walk any longer. so they are necessary for so called "legit" reasons, as well.
It would just be nice to be somewhere where a 30+ day supply isn't barely noticeable and largely gone after only a decent 2-3 days... or those 2-3 days were at least *worth* the sheer hell of the following weeks, which, right now, they surely are not. Have others been in a similar position as I myself, and what did you/they end up doing to go back to a livable arrangement? Thanks in advance!
The worst/best thing, was when Purdue was screwing with the Oxy pill about 12 years ago, a few years before they went full on crush resistant on us - for a time, the pills were coming out the "other end" utterly and completely intact. So, I figured, Hell, they weren't doing jack squat... so... let's crush those puppies up, then! And so, what was already a love affair, became a mad, passionate lust.
Fast forward to today: I've been trying Oxymorphone+Oxycodone of late. I have to imagine the Oxymorphone is what "broke" my tolerance. As an example, having gotten my monthly haul of one last week...? Day one, it was about 250mg of OxyM. Day two, about 500mg. Day three, I ended up at about 800-900mg of Oxymorphone, and barely felt "it". Honestly, I still "feel" the Oxycodone at its best, whereas the OxyM is... nada. Maybe 400-500mg of Oxycodone in one dose, and I can still get "there".
So my ultimate question is... where am I at now...? Has my tolerance reached a point where I've basically "broken" myself, where it's so freaking high that I'm largely screwed to get any real use out of these save staving off withdrawal...? (Amazing how utterly horrid *that* is, no? Non-users/addicts just can't conceive how there is nothing in this entire existence worse than that cold turkey withdrawal. But I digress.)
I'm sure tip #1-1,000 would be reduce for a good while, try to lower tolerance that way, and start again... but that's easier said than done. Sorry, there's just no way on this Earth that I have that willpower in me. Is there any other way to improve/potentiate that I perhaps haven't tried...? Another variation of opiate that i might be able to switch to, which others in a similarly "insane tolerance point" have managed to find benefits with? Unfortunately, I do have quite legitimate pain to the point I cannot even walk any longer. so they are necessary for so called "legit" reasons, as well.
It would just be nice to be somewhere where a 30+ day supply isn't barely noticeable and largely gone after only a decent 2-3 days... or those 2-3 days were at least *worth* the sheer hell of the following weeks, which, right now, they surely are not. Have others been in a similar position as I myself, and what did you/they end up doing to go back to a livable arrangement? Thanks in advance!