thephysicist
Greenlighter
Thank you Jekyl for your response it was everything I was looking to hear. I have not stopped smoking (except for 2 days and then a few after that I didn’t for about 4 days), though I’ve been more careful and skipped a few SSRI doses... I know that’s a no-no but I’ve been studiously playing around with every different drug you can name for long enough to know how I’m being effected by each, etc.; plus, I’m only taking the lowest dose for a few weeks for mild anxiety that’s already significantly gone down (honestly the clonazepam is the best cause it got to the point of being mainly panic attacks—but after the first 3 weeks on SSRI I noticed my base level anxiousness had dropped dramatically so it’s already started working for a lasting long term effect. Also the doc said if I miss a day it’s not a huge deal just make sure to take it again the next day so I’ve only skipped twice, separated). Anyway, I’ve been fine with it, but the desire is completely insatiable. I have an extremely addictive personality and have spent many months at various times using crack + heroin or cocaine or heroin alone (with weed and psychedelics), but was 6 months clean and back in school after a long time. Since stumbling upon this hook up though, it’s been constant and now he’s got H for me. I ran out of money last night, and today I used my dad’s debit card to make one of his usual $200 withdrawals. I couldn’t stop myself, could barely give it a second thought. It’s not good...also I’ve been good about dosing so as to avoid nasty OD side effects, but starting yesterday I’ve been getting random and just between frequent and infrequent bouts of an acute chest/heart pain that is stabbing (only like a 3-4 out of 10) and it only lasts a second and then I feel fine again. A few times, but not since I got dosage right so as to avoid it, I had the expected tight-muscle/tense type of chest pain that’s just achiness for a while all over the chest (I specify location to draw extra attention to the acute pain I’m mentioning feeling like it’s happening to/in/on my heart alone). Obviously I know this means take a day off but anyone have any ideas why it’s even started happening? Another thing: I’ve read up and down all the related posts everywhere and it sounds like this means too much oil is getting through, but can anyone talk about why your hit sometimes begins to make a bubbling sound, and what if any the consequences of it happening are? I know it’s good shit, but the fact that not a lot of smoke comes out when that happens doesn’t really help me cause even when I feel I got a great hit I tend to hold it in for close to a minute and rarely does much smoke come out. Shit most importantly: has anyone taken a hit and while holding it in you feel like some of it escapes into your digestive system? If that’s what I’m feeling: how bad is that health wise, and does it mean I lost some of the hit (cause I do blow out less smoke whenever it happens)?
Any advice is much appreciated. Soon I’ll be clean again, possibly in rehab cause I’m sure my parents’ll start to notice the more I cyphen from them before I get my unemployment up and running.
Sorry for the long post, thanks for listening.
Cheers.
Any advice is much appreciated. Soon I’ll be clean again, possibly in rehab cause I’m sure my parents’ll start to notice the more I cyphen from them before I get my unemployment up and running.
Sorry for the long post, thanks for listening.
Cheers.
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