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considering suicide

hi again

beauty thru pain is wot ur talkin bout, jf. i really am expert + gr8 believer u have 2 deeply experience the full richness of life to no beauty of life wen u c it~which control freaks obsessed w livin a safe flatline life will NEVER see. they r barely alive. we call it sleepwalkin thru life. UR ALIVE! Truly u no stuff no 1 else no's. u live 2 experience life & u r. pls don't like me luk 2 gain validity frm family or those who don't get u for being who u r.just be it!find out who u r & live it.what eva it is
 
junctionalfunkie said:
No, not at all. I really did not expect a response from her at all. The woman I texted has MAJOR experiences with failed suicide attempts, and flew to Minneapolis from Houston two years ago on an hour's notice when my girlfriend attempted suicide then. It was the last thing anyone asked or expected, as was this.

"Blackmail?" "Force?"

No. But, thanks for jumping to conclusions about an issue you know nothing at all about.

Asshole.
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All I have to go on is what you wrote. By the time you texted her you were killing yourself, it appears based on your posts here that you had changed your mind.

You seem extremely immature.
 
Radiohead24 said:
You seem extremely immature.
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Thanks for the analysis, Dr. Freud. I'll take it to heart. 8)

Not that this is really worth the explanation, but one does not go from being suicidal to completely cured in a matter of hours based on some posts on an internet message board (helpful as much of this advice has been. I'm looking at you, MidnightBaby.)

Yes, I feel better. Much better. Both because of my friend's visit, the advice I've gotten on this thread, and some soul-searching.

But I'm far from out of the woods just yet. But I can see the sunlight though the trees for the first time in a while.

/cheesy metaphors
 
junctionalfunkie said:
But I'm far from out of the woods just yet. But I can see the sunlight though the trees for the first time in a while.

/cheesy metaphors
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Well I'm glad you are feeling a little better at least. Hopefully it will continue.
 
Radiohead24 said:
Well I'm glad you are feeling a little better at least. Hopefully it will continue.
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whoah, somebody's got some issues-"hopefully it will continue"?

OP, glad you got past that speed bump. There will be others, just hang on, enjoy the good parts. Good for you for reaching out. It does get better, I'm bitching about my own life right now but it is better, no question, than it was a year ago.
 
^I don't see whats wrong with Radiohead "hoping" JF continues to feel okay. I don't think its especially helpful to start telling people they have "issues"- we all do. That said, I don't think Radiohead needs to be so blunt about his opinion; but at least it is what it is- merely an opinion.

I am pleased your feeling a bit better Junctionalfunkie- peace :) <3
 
swilow said:
^I don't see whats wrong with Radiohead "hoping" JF continues to feel okay. I don't think its especially helpful to start telling people they have "issues"- we all do. That said, I don't think Radiohead needs to be so blunt about his opinion; but at least it is what it is- merely an opinion.

I am pleased your feeling a bit better Junctionalfunkie- peace :) <3
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I was being sincere when I said I hope he continues to feel better. I'm sorry if it came off otherwise.
 
junctionalfunkie said:
MidnightBaby, I like you more and more. You are certainly wise beyond your 23 years. Will you be my friend? :) We'll disuss our nuptials in due time. ;)
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Aww I choo-choo-choose you! [Insert image of train] Bee my friend? [Insert image of a bee] That suits me rather well, I'm definitely not storming off on the M train just yet ;)
Well reading this thread now, I feel a bit like the housemate that went away and came back to house been trashed by a party. It kind of went a bit pear shaped there didn't it JF? Don't listen to the haters, the shit stirrers or the ppl who just don't really know. You know so it should be water off a duck's back :)
 
Btw, I'm glad you are feeling a bit better. Care to elaborate? I think you must have a biological underground-hot-spring of experience and knowledge and soul-searching in there that we could maybe learn from :)
 
You are my new favorite person, MidnightBaby (Uma Thurman was your predecessor!)

"Hot-spring of experience and knowledge and soul-searching?" Hmmm.

Expect life to perpetually suck. When it doesn't, it'll be a pleasant surprise. Cultivate deep and meaningful friendships and hold on to them, at all costs, for your whole life if you can. Don't be afraid to live and love dangerously. Question everything, even (or perhaps especially) your most deeply-held beliefs. Be kind to children. Be kind to older people. Be kind to animals. Actually keep it simple and just be kind to everyone. :)
Travel as extensively as possible. At least once in your life, attempt to learn at least one foreign language, and one musical instrument. Everyone should experience what it feels like at least once to go to sleep hungry, cold, alone, and without hope.
Nothing lasts forever.
Learn to embrace suffering, and you will be a much stronger person for it. Take care of your health. Read lots and lots and lots of books.

Enough wisdom for now? I must sleep. In the past three hours, I have taken 12 mg Xanax, smoked 250 mg of DMT, and drank enough chamomile tea to drown a large cat.

Goodnight, sweet Sheila. Write me tomorrow, or later (damn International Date Line!). <3 :D <3

Edit: Removed quote marks around italicized words. These are my own thoughts. :)
 
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Wow I don't think having Uma Thurman as your predecessor is a title people get to claim very often! =D Feels goo-ood.
<3 to you Mr junctionalfunkie, you're pretty great yourself.

Did you write those lines in Italics or is it a quote? It sounds familiar. Whatever it was, it was really something to think about. It should go in the quotes thread. If they're your words, then kudos to you! Except- I don't expect life to perpetually suck. Yeah it's a bit shit now, and will be again and again, but right now it's my own fault! And all it takes is my own work to fix it up. Life can be fucking hard, but that doesn't have to mean it sucks. How you look at the world and the experience of being human, can really change alot of things dramatically. *Ends vaguely patronising moral spiel

Goodnight, sweet Sheila. Write me tomorrow, or later (damn International Date Line!).
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Goodnight good sir - you're gorgeous! :)
<3 <3
 
Hmm don't think my observational skills are too keen tonight, I just saw the quotation marks up there ^^.

P.s I love tea =D Peppermint, and green tea are the bomb. Peppermint tea is perfect any time any day I reckon. I might have one now.
 
MidnightBaby said:
Did you write those lines in Italics or is it a quote? It sounds familiar.
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No, I wrote them myself on the spot because you requested wisdom.

Such is the inspirational magic of late-night DMT and chamomile tea. :D

Since this conversation is getting considerably less "Dark Side-ish," perhaps we should keep it to our PM's. :) I'll email you later, MidnightBaby. <3
 
No worries I await! On topic - I hope today is better, and that you're going up rather than back down.<3
 
reading this post deeply saddened me! Please don't do it you ar clearly troubled but suicide is not the best option! :) sending you love I wish I could help
 
im sorry i got to this thread so late but im glad to see uve cheered up a bit
plz hang in there and remember to look at things in perspective
life can seem like shit and at the time it feels like its going to b shit forever but its never worth taking ur life cos theres always a rainbow over the horizon
some wise quotes btw ;)
 
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