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Mental Health Coming Off Vraylar (cariprazine), Rexulti (brexpiprazole), or Abilify (aripiprazole)

Today is Day 17 of fasting. In 2 Days i will break my fast, cause i need the energy to transport my Stuff into another City. It will be the last Day of fasting tomorrow. Man, i am looking forward to eat some boiled eggs and some Fish. I am thinking of eating very much.
Well, as for Vraylar, nothing has changed.i assume i feel overall shitty is due to my appearence and how people react on me.
No matter Invega or Vraylar makes me look like crap, and at the same time feel like crap. I am very little in Motivation and feel very isolated. I don't speak much. My parents are pro Drugs and don't respect me. They are nuts.
 
Today is Day 18 of fasting and my last day of fasting. I have a very heavy upset stomach. I have Stomach pain and it won't stop. I feel so bad. I was in the city to buy some groceries for tomorrow, but i had very little Energy to be honest.
Anyway, i should have felt great, because of the mental clarity, that normally occurs during fasting. But i felt very crapy. It is like this for a few days now. Before that i felt somewhat okayish with bad and normal days here and there.
 
I'm excited to get the rest of this healing over with mostly for the physical wellness aspects, but lately things have been piling up on my door step and I wasn't sure how to address them at first.

At this point in my life it has been difficult to be brutally honest with people when I mean to be. I've had arguments in the past solely around the subject of hallucinating and this task has been especially grueling, because under normal circumstances I have never hallucinated. I do however experience kundalini energy and explaining this to laymen is like explaining quantum physics to a drunk four year old.

Don't get me wrong, I have tried keeping these things to myself to avoid scrutiny from people who outright refuse to understand it, but what has made that difficult is:
1. Between Vraylar and the infection I started to hallucinate for the first time in my life and
2. Being honest to people during this midway point between infection and mental clarity beyond infection means that I've had to explain to people that I don't normally hallucinate, but they refuse to acknowledge that because of my own uncertainty (seeing as the infection still exists, even if it is going away)

My point is now to rekindle some of my relationships, which I must do beyond the point of this infection and vraylar (once I'm healed that is).
 
Today I broke my 18 Day fast with Bone Broth and some Cucumber. The Sun is shining and i feel overall relaxed. My mood is elivated, due to the nice combination of fresh organic Eggs Cucumber and Bone Broth. And of course the variation of salts. I have sea Salt with pepper, seasalt with olive aroma, grape aroma. Never felt so satisfying eating a cucumber and feeling great afterwards 😃
 
A combination of vraylar and my infection formed a major blockage in my spine that was eventually pushed up to the point of my mid back. Symptoms that followed were egregious and painful. This persisted, where the blockage remained, for a period of months until it finally started to move up again. This time the pressure was significantly reduced in my body.

I was able to meditate and move the blockage a little bit further up, around my neck is where I presume the flow of cerebrospinal fluid is interrupted. Most of it is clear, however. and my energy flows without too much resistance. Hallucinations have all gone away. My healing is going steadily.
 
Today i am moving to a different City. I am a little bit excited, but exhausted because of the transportation of my stuff. I still have to move the things into my new flat. Like i said i am pretty much exhausted. After 18 Days of fasting i am very fast fatigued. But i have to make the best of it. No excuses.
 
Today i fasted the whole Day. I am a bit fatigued, but it will pay off in the end as i don't have to move around for long time.
As for Vraylar, i hope that i will be left my body in 2 weeks. I am not sure, but my calculations showed that. I am using a strong inducer, so clearence might be accelerated (hope so). I have no belly cramps for 2 Days. This is a good sign. But i won't count on that. Anyway i am going to take a shower now in my new small flat for the first time.
 
Today i fasted for another Day. The side effects of Vraylar are much less, compared to a few Days ago. I have been bycicling today for half an hour or so and then went to the grocery store to buy (you guessed it) some more water. I have slept today for 1 hour and to decide to go out was the right decision to do.
 
My tongue is almost completely back to normal. Signs of the remaining infection are going away.

Once the infection clears from my gi tract, it'll start to clear from the rest of my body as well.

I had a mystical experience yesterday morning, where - in my third eye - I saw what appeared to be a lesion in my intestines. I watched without expectation as the lesion eventually disappeared. Not just healed, but disappeared!!- as if the lesion were never there.

I will continue to meditate as much as I can until all signs of the infection are gone.
 
iridescentblack said:
My tongue is almost completely back to normal. Signs of the remaining infection are going away.

Once the infection clears from my gi tract, it'll start to clear from the rest of my body as well.

I had a mystical experience yesterday morning, where - in my third eye - I saw what appeared to be a lesion in my intestines. I watched without expectation as the lesion eventually disappeared. Not just healed, but disappeared!!- as if the lesion were never there.

I will continue to meditate as much as I can until all signs of the infection are gone.
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When you fast, all sorts of health problems in your body begin to heal. And you will be disease-free very soon.
 
Today was my third Day of fasting. I already lost a few pounds. I feel pretty lonely, cause my friend is not calling me at the moment, and i don't have much contact with the people here. Although, i can say, i feel very satisfied to be here. It is a huge difference i can tell.
Today i had no belly cramps. I think the heavy belly cramps side effects are over now, but i can be wrong, cause i know that these antipsychotics can backfire very hard. The good thing is, every day i see new, different people, and different places, which gives me an opportunity to satisfy my lust to explore new places. The fasting keeps my stress levels low, but i was a bit hungry today, i have to admit. I push for another day and see what happens. That would be the 21 Days then.
 
Despite not being able to fast yet, my healing is going well. Each successive wave I get through seems to peel off yet another layer of what was keeping me from living my normal life. At first it was blockages clearing, but now that those remaining blockages are more soft, the ride has been a bit smoother and my energy is moving much more freely.

In the process of going through some of this stuff, I am able to get through some of my spiritual practices with less fatigue, more progress to each task, and am finding some of the mysteries of life less taxing and less complicated to deal with.
 
Today was a total hangover day. I stayed home all day and was very unmotivated. I think it was a wave. The strengh of this wave (if it was a wave) was a little less intense, compared to the other weeks before. But still i could feel the numbness.
I am looking forward to the future, but i have hard times for sure atm.
 
Today i broke my fast, cause my mom arrives tomorrow and we wanted to go out. Also eating gives me a mental break in form of cherishment and joy. Tomorrow i am going out for lunch or dinner and i am looking forward to it. Right now after breaking my fast i feel pretty good. I start another fast on monday i guess. I am not in the mood to go to the grocery store and cook all the time. I don't need the extra energy. I just need to endure the Vraylar bs side effects and that's it.
 
I took vraylar for a few days in October. Immediately ceased use once I felt like I lost my ability to drive due to messed up coordination, dizziness and an all around detached from reality feeling.
I also started having spasms/twitching in my right lower eye lid. I have continued to have these twitches daily ever since and we are now in March. Although the frequency of them has slowed down a bit, I still have it and wonder if it will ever go away.

Anyone else have any eye/twitching related problems from this pharma poison?
 
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