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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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The kindness and care i have seen people show each other on these forums and elsewhere, if these criminal psychiatrists showed even half of that kindness or care, all these people would probably not be suffering today like this.
 
I hope there is still some recovery chance, as I’ve had six injections. Not knowing is tortuous.
 
Man. These days do not get any easier. I just hope I get a breakthrough soon.

Tried listening to some music today and it just doesn’t feel right. Music that used to move me and make me feel something doesn’t anymore.
 
rawbanana said:
Man. These days do not get any easier. I just hope I get a breakthrough soon.

Tried listening to some music today and it just doesn’t feel right. Music that used to move me and make me feel something doesn’t anymore.
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I feel you man. Music doesn’t hit me anymore since a few weeks after I started my injections. I’m hoping this will recover in time.

Including music all my other hobbies/interests don’t hold my attention. I hope we both heal from this agony man.
 
rawbanana said:
Man. These days do not get any easier. I just hope I get a breakthrough soon.

Tried listening to some music today and it just doesn’t feel right. Music that used to move me and make me feel something doesn’t anymore.
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Music does not move me like it used to either but certain music does make me more anxious and depressed now. Is it the same for you?
 
anonymoususer777 said:
Music does not move me like it used to either but certain music does make me more anxious and depressed now. Is it the same for you?
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I’m more sensitive to sounds, so some music is irritating to me now. It makes me want to shut it off and throw my phone or jump into a volcano
 
anonymoususer777 said:
In my case the intent was truly malicious. I made a complaint and the psychiatrist kept changing his story. Psychiatrist was behaving in a shady manner and just saw it as an opportunity, if i say i have repeatedly seen people of the same group behave this way repeatefdy in life than it becomes conterversial while they get away with this type of crime.
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It is likely that I was scammed by someone in Nigeria, which is what lead me here, but I know that it's not about the people or anything inherent to them. I know its scammer culture comes from high poverty rates, and also the fact that a handful of people become millionaires from scams and become high profile influencers. Wherever you find crime you find unmet needs. I don't think there's anything wrong with Nigerians, I think there is a lot wrong with their country's economy and it is driving a lot of cybercrime.

Are you living in Nigeria?
 
rawbanana said:
It gets better slowly but the fact that these drugs are even in practice kills me. It’s so tragic that we do this to people.

My penis shrunk and I don’t have erections anymore. It’s been 10 months.

How can they do this to people? What gives them the right?

“Doctors” yeah right. Doctors are supposed to help people. Psychiatrists are not doctors.
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Penis pumps might prevent shrinkage, you should look into one. That said, PSSD is often worse than invega injections and causes ED longer and many men have gotten their dicks back to full size after they recover, even after they thought they had shrunk. It could be just a circulation issue.
 
rawbanana said:
It gets better slowly but the fact that these drugs are even in practice kills me. It’s so tragic that we do this to people.

My penis shrunk and I don’t have erections anymore. It’s been 10 months.

How can they do this to people? What gives them the right?

“Doctors” yeah right. Doctors are supposed to help people. Psychiatrists are not doctors.
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And my buddy wants me to go to a hospital inpatient and do weeks and weeks of this shit. Tells me if I refuse or discharge early to remove him from my "friend" list. I honestly don't think he's a "friend" worth keeping anyway. Then he goes on and on about the stuff I did, like I panicked when I thought something bad had happened to something very important to me. Like my dogs, like my ears. Oh yeah, fuck, that's schizophrenia, righto mate I guess I'll just have to believe you and then go through all these fucking shit to prove you wrong. The, after my body and mind is massively fucked up due to these metabolic poisons, then you'll block me anyway.

Never mind mate, you know who you are, and I don't want to waste any time further with you. Obviously you are angry with me and still angry with me over what happened last year. I'm sorry that I let you down, but sometimes shit happens. I had to have fucking brain surgery, I couldn't always fulfil things for people whilst I my own life was falling apart and I just snapped and out and out said fucking NO, I'm done with it, and that was that, because I felt like I was under constant pressure to please or protect others. They wouldn't do that for me, I know they wouldn't, and they'd likely excuse themselves with some sort of handy argument that only a retard like myself would buy, anyone else would tell them to get fucked.

And no, I'm not going to inpatient for weeks, not going to let psychs inject or fill me full of pills.

The problem with antipsychotics is they erase all emotion. I could literally BRUTALLY murder someone whilst under the influence of these poisons; (and one fine day I snapped like I'd never snapped in my entire fucking life and was only stopped by a work supervisor otherwise a $15k printer would have ended up in a dozen pieces); and mind you I have some good reasons to do that exact thing to certain individuals, so I will NOT erase my emotions, because they stop me from doing things I could never dream of otherwise. They are true poisons in every sense of the world UNLESS you have full-blown schizophrenia and it is documented, diagnosed, and repeatedly observed and you keep relapsing with schizophrenia - then and ONLY THEN do you even need antipsychotics.
 
InvegaAnon said:
Penis pumps might prevent shrinkage, you should look into one. That said, PSSD is often worse than invega injections and causes ED longer and many men have gotten their dicks back to full size after they recover, even after they thought they had shrunk. It could be just a circulation issue.
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I thought mine had shrunk because of invega and abilify to but naturally it did not. However my testicles may have shrunk from the invega and abilify though. It's hard to tell
 
Hi, I’m new to the forum. Does anyone know whether recovery times from Risperidone Uzedy are comparable to Invega?
 
8 weeks since my last injection.

Just shy off two months and this is where I’m at overall.

There is slight progress where it comes to my cognition, in that I can maintain eye contact when I talk to people and I don’t pause as much. There is still a lot of work to be made there.
My akathisia is still debilitating, but I was prescribed a larger benzotropine dosage, which seems to work at making me not pace. I can’t relax, but I can at least slow down.

My anhedonia is there strongly and I still cant find enjoyment with my previous hobbies, albeit in the evenings I can relax slightly while watching a movie.

I started reading again earlier, but struggled at focusing and comprehending what I was reading, which sucks because I know this is Invega induced as I used to love reading as a pastime activity and as a way to stimulate myself intellectually.

-Music doesn’t hit me like it used to
-Sex drive is still non functional. I can achieve an erection but I'm not secreting sperm often- and when I do it’s watery and a small amount.
-I used to enjoy being out in nature- finding inspiration in the natural world, but this enjoyment has vanished since the injections, but I’m hopeful during this spring and summer I can regain inspiration from being outside again. I do walk the lake daily, which is a nice spot, but I’m like a robot walking the lake and doing it to pass the time and as a means of exercise.
-I don’t feel caffeine.
-I haven’t been as consistent as I’d like with the gym.
-I have waves of positivity that come very briefly and keep me on track on the path of recovery.

I’m preparing for a long and arduous recovery. Who knows maybe in four months I’ll feel better, but I’m preparing myself for a longer wait- whatever that may be.
 
jrturp said:
Hi, I’m new to the forum. Does anyone know whether recovery times from Risperidone Uzedy are comparable to Invega?
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Tomorrow I will hit 15 months after 2 only risperdal consta 50mg and i don’t recovered a single inch, i just got a new sympthom at the 13th month: tinnitus.
 
Anyways idk how everyone recover in 8-12 months but i’am still affected after 15 months. I start to belive my damage is permanent and I’m one of those who won’t recover at all.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Anyways idk how everyone recover in 8-12 months but i’am still affected after 15 months. I start to belive my damage is permanent and I’m one of those who won’t recover at all.
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Probably this is because when i got injected i dint even had normal levels of dopamine but i was already under the norm due ti stress and other issue, and by giving me these injections basically They completely shut down my dopamine, it’s a miracle i dint developed TD or NMS.

At least the university told me what psychiatryst usually do and why They injected me: If you have a hystory of weed use, they automatically think that you are psychotic even if you arent. This is why lots of people gets misdiagnosed.

Because they don’t fucking listen to us, i never talk about delusions or hallucinations, i just told them i had panic attacks but They don’t listen to me, they just make that: weed = psychosis = antipsychotic. But why they wanted to give me the injections (since i never refused oral pills) and why they wanted the maximum dose (50mg without proper oral adjustment before the shots) it’s still a mistery to me.
 
rawbanana said:
I’m more sensitive to sounds, so some music is irritating to me now. It makes me want to shut it off and throw my phone or jump into a volcano
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InvegaAnon said:
It is likely that I was scammed by someone in Nigeria, which is what lead me here, but I know that it's not about the people or anything inherent to them. I know its scammer culture comes from high poverty rates, and also the fact that a handful of people become millionaires from scams and become high profile influencers. Wherever you find crime you find unmet needs. I don't think there's anything wrong with Nigerians, I think there is a lot wrong with their country's economy and it is driving a lot of cybercrime.

Are you living in Nigeria?
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Poverty and scams are present in many different places. Deliberate malcious evil, where any opportunity to destroy a life is availed is a different story and that is what i noticed in this culture. A person living in poverty can still have amoral compass but certain people have no moral compass or conscience or humanity and i have aproblem with such people. I fell victim to malicious evil, envy, andlack of humanity.
 
Matthew01 said:
Why dies it feel like things are getting worse?
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Idk, i feel the same, they get worse, then they stabilize for a while, they get worse again, but they never get better, idk.

I think when things get worse it’s because you have high brain activity and he is trying to heal himself and by forcing this process things get worse.
 
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