Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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10 months off Invega.
Nowhere near recovered.
From one injection.

Still suffering from side effects!!!!

I haven't even began to recover.
6 years ago, I was misdiagnosed & court ordered to recieve injections of Invega Sustenna for 9 months. Before the injections- optimistic & full of positve energy - successful entrepreneur. I lost million+ in assets/investments & was a twitching nodding Zombie for 9 months. After a suicide attempt doctors found Kidney Disease/Infection. I was taken off psych meds & since the nightmare experience - no hope in sight. No energy, no drive, no social life, twitching, toes clinched, no sex life, memory loss, unfocused conversations & business. Depression. Sleep is my peace. Idk what to do.
 
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6 years ago, I was misdiagnosed & court ordered to recieve injections of Invega Sustenna for 9 months. Before the injections- optimistic & full of positve energy - successful entrepreneur. I lost million+ in assets/investments & was a twitching nodding Zombie for 9 months. After a suicide attempt doctors found Kidney Disease/Infection. I was taken off psych meds & since the nightmare experience - no hope in sight. No energy, no drive, no social life, twitching, toes clinched, no sex life, memory loss, unfocused conversations & business. Depression. Sleep is my peace. Idk what to do.
Im so sorry to hear about your experience. I am so thankful I wasn't court orders the injections.

So you still twitch to this day?
 
Im so sorry to hear about your experience. I am so thankful I wasn't court orders the injections.

So you still twitch to this day?
Twitching is not near has bad when i was on meds. My toes are still scrunched up from clenching so much. I have no desire to be social mainly because the meds brought back my Stuttering(20+ yrs w/o) worse than ever.
 
Twitching is not near has bad when i was on meds. My toes are still scrunched up from clenching so much. I have no desire to be social mainly because the meds brought back my Stuttering(20+ yrs w/o) worse than ever.
I was court ordered to the psych ward by criminals who stole most of my assets when i was locked up for 6 weeks. It didnt help i was sick with kidney disease. Telling the doctors i was scammed & extremely sick(PKD)...- made ths situation worse & i was court ordered. It didnt matter when i got out because i just left a psych ward. The police/doctors didnt hear a word i said.
 
I was court ordered to the psych ward by criminals who stole most of my assets when i was locked up for 6 weeks. It didnt help i was sick with kidney disease. Telling the doctors i was scammed & extremely sick(PKD)...- made ths situation worse & i was court ordered. It didnt matter when i got out because i just left a psych ward. The police/doctors didnt hear a word i said.
Going to get some rest. Im sure ill be back on soon/tomorrow. Thx for listening/feedback.
 
I was court ordered to the psych ward by criminals who stole most of my assets when i was locked up for 6 weeks. It didnt help i was sick with kidney disease. Telling the doctors i was scammed & extremely sick(PKD)...- made ths situation worse & i was court ordered. It didnt matter when i got out because i just left a psych ward. The police/doctors didnt hear a word i said.
Yep the stigma is real.
 
I'm doom scrolling antipsychotic forums again for answers if I'll ever return to normal functioning. It's exhausting there isn't enough information.

It seems like most people say it's a 50/t0 chancr on if you ever truly recover.
 
Does anyone else find it frustrating the world doesn't stop for your recovery. Like time passes by and everyday i sit here and rot. Everything gets harder and harder. Finding employment being the biggest thing. Trying to justify this time off is going to kill me.

Taxes dont stop. You dont get much money for unemployment benefits.

I can't imagine the hell I would be in if the akathisia didnt ruxking stop.

I really see how people can become homeless because of shit like this. Thank god I have family but I'm still stressed I can't rely on them forever at a certain point I need to be functional. I pray i can get back to work and be functional. The thought right now scars the shit out of me, I've lost so much confidence in myself with all of this.
 
I also feel like I can never truly relax post this episode. I'm always overthinking about everything. My mind won't let me forget how badly I fucked up.
 
I just remembered when I was in hospital my cousin bought me a switch and the game immortals fenix rising.

I thought it was his way of getting me to understand which God I was in the Greek mythology. I thought certain members of my family were all aware I was a god and so were they. But that everyone was sworn to secrecy from discussing the fact that we were gods.

In case the USA came and captured me for experiments

I also thought I was part of the knights templar and the people in the hospital around me all represented parts of my personality. Everyone I interacted with was there to show me the path.

Holy fuck, it was magical in a way. Until my delusions totally shattered due to invega and I came crashing down to earth and have evry peace of my soul crushed under the weight of it all
 
6 years ago, I was misdiagnosed & court ordered to recieve injections of Invega Sustenna for 9 months. Before the injections- optimistic & full of positve energy - successful entrepreneur. I lost million+ in assets/investments & was a twitching nodding Zombie for 9 months. After a suicide attempt doctors found Kidney Disease/Infection. I was taken off psych meds & since the nightmare experience - no hope in sight. No energy, no drive, no social life, twitching, toes clinched, no sex life, memory loss, unfocused conversations & business. Depression. Sleep is my peace. Idk what to do.
You say sleep is your peace. Did you ever notice how sleep is an illusion. And it's over so quickly. That's what I noticed anywyas. Sleep was my only escape to during the akathisia.
 
Does anyone else find it frustrating the world doesn't stop for your recovery. Like time passes by and everyday i sit here and rot. Everything gets harder and harder. Finding employment being the biggest thing. Trying to justify this time off is going to kill me.

Taxes dont stop. You dont get much money for unemployment benefits.

I can't imagine the hell I would be in if the akathisia didnt ruxking stop.

I really see how people can become homeless because of shit like this. Thank god I have family but I'm still stressed I can't rely on them forever at a certain point I need to be functional. I pray i can get back to work and be functional. The thought right now scars the shit out of me, I've lost so much confidence in myself with all of this.
yup the world kept going while i was stuck in this dark place 2 years ago and no relief or recovery at all. What scares the living shit out of me is if I don't recover and stay stagnant like this for few more years holding on to the hope that I might recover one day but I don't. I had 10 invega shots and 3 haldol shots + a TBI so my brain is fucked, not to mention the 5 years of marijuana abuse. While I'm stuck all my friends are making major milestones. Three got married and two have kids. The others are are all travelling making so much money , buying sport cars and one even has a mortgage already. While my worthless damaged ass makes $800 a month from disability and lives at home with $17k debt. My life is over.
 
yup the world kept going while i was stuck in this dark place 2 years ago and no relief or recovery at all. What scares the living shit out of me is if I don't recover and stay stagnant like this for few more years holding on to the hope that I might recover one day but I don't. I had 10 invega shots and 3 haldol shots + a TBI so my brain is fucked, not to mention the 5 years of marijuana abuse. While I'm stuck all my friends are making major milestones. Three got married and two have kids. The others are are all travelling making so much money , buying sport cars and one even has a mortgage already. While my worthless damaged ass makes $800 a month from disability and lives at home with $17k debt. My life is over.
Having material possesion does not equal happinness just be truthful and hurt no one with clean conscience goes happiness. Never give up brother. Always loved to see your powerful attitude here.
 
Having material possesion does not equal happinness just be truthful and hurt no one with clean conscience goes happiness. Never give up brother. Always loved to see your powerful attitude here.
Yes I agree material posessions does not equal happiness because even the richest most powerful people are depressed but its hard being judged by my family being called a loser for not doing anything in the past 2 years. What made me truly happy was being connected to my religion and God but even that doesnt feel pelasurable
 
Yes I agree material posessions does not equal happiness because even the richest most powerful people are depressed but its hard being judged by my family being called a loser for not doing anything in the past 2 years. What made me truly happy was being connected to my religion and God but even that doesnt feel pelasurable
Im first time out of my home due to the situation and i know i can never go back there. The freedom od being and thinking what i want along with not being castrated emasculated and treated with contempt daily is too precious. People underestimate how abusive family members can be. Just get Independent bro trust me.
 
I just remembered when I was in hospital my cousin bought me a switch and the game immortals fenix rising.

I thought it was his way of getting me to understand which God I was in the Greek mythology. I thought certain members of my family were all aware I was a god and so were they. But that everyone was sworn to secrecy from discussing the fact that we were gods.

In case the USA came and captured me for experiments

I also thought I was part of the knights templar and the people in the hospital around me all represented parts of my personality. Everyone I interacted with was there to show me the path.

Holy fuck, it was magical in a way. Until my delusions totally shattered due to invega and I came crashing down to earth and have evry peace of my soul crushed under the weight of it all
Don't need to call all the experience you had during psychosis to be delusions...

Those have symbolic meanings and the way it shows you path is real but not in the way it shows truth but leading you to the path that you need to go.

Nature is very conscious and the things you experienced are also experienced by me non stop even now.

But I explain this to people around me how to see it.

My brother started seeing something just after I got this alien hand syndrome and my girl friend also started seeing weird phenomenon these days.

All people, animals, objects, youtube anything that's around me suggest the path we need to go if only you can read the symbolic meanings behind it.

Everything moves with connection, people are also moving and speaking with unconscious mind without realising they are controlled by such collective mind.

I got conscious about this phenomenon and what this thing does is leading to simpleness or death, no material possession to show you the real path that you need to be following.

But blindly following such suggestions is its test making you puppet. What you need to do is following your own will, knowing that there is unconscious mind that's leading the destiny.

When you become conscious about this, people around me also realise that there is something that trancend physics.

Look at what's left after all this.

The path that's left for you.

I can clearly see nature is inviting me to join showing this simplest and non fearful path that's guided by our own nature.

Look at what's left.

Don't look at what's lost. Comtemplate that all the things we lost are indeed fake.

Fake power, fake love.

What lead you to this situation is same as mine.

It is leading us to invisibility in this world.

I know it sounds crazy but being able to become crazy is bliss while you are also sane.

It is important to stay crazy but while following all the rules and culture of your surroundings.

We can see so much more and communicating with nature but conveying it with such ordinary human language like empty vessel.
 
Don't need to feel afraid to feel afraid because it is also a part of plan.

Feeling broken is good thing because it lets you see what is truly left is the real.

We are truly blessed ones to see such truth in everything because we didn't die.


I was traveling a city in my birthday with my family few days ago, and I saw one foreigner playing hand drum.

He had such a different vibe to the surrounding, beside him was writing that says,

"I am traveling without money, because we come in empty handed and go empty handed"

He wasn't afraid of dying in hunger or rather he was afraid but kept going because he knows truth.

It was a busy street with lots of people, "seeking joy" in life,

but that drummer was indeed in trance where he doesn't need fear in his life.

His unshaved beard, natural clothing, bear footed, eyes closed, mouth shut, only leaving his hands play the music in the crowds.

That was the clear guide that showed me in my birthday to get rid of fear and go to the path that's unknown to me.


After that I talked with a owner of a tea shop, his husband was in china collecting and making precious handmade tea in the local farm bringing those products to our country.

I saw fearlessness in his face and in his past photos in such a unpredictable market, enjoying his life and freedom.
 
Yes I agree material posessions does not equal happiness because even the richest most powerful people are depressed but its hard being judged by my family being called a loser for not doing anything in the past 2 years. What made me truly happy was being connected to my religion and God but even that doesnt feel pelasurable
This is my fear. Things will get to a point that my family will stop being sympathetic to me and start pushing me to do things. I need to get better this is a nightmare.
 
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