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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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IOSIP said:
Yeah you make a good point. Even xeplionhell we never here from that guy and he quotes him as well.

He's very loose with facts. Seems to want to be negative most of the time.
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I think he wants to excuse and rationalise his failed life with invega.
 
wbga said:
I think he wants to excuse and rationalise his failed life with invega.
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I was already a failure before this, I think invega and then AI "art" burned my last chance at a successful career and I'm still trying to eke out an existence.

He needs to keep trying.
 
InvegaAnon said:
I was already a failure before this, I think invega and then AI "art" burned my last chance at a successful career and I'm still trying to eke out an existence.

He needs to keep trying.
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I wish just living quietly and peacefully.

I don't think everyone's life failure in the sense of happiness.

I think we choose our happiness and success, if we only don't compare and compete with others.
 
wbga said:
I wish just living quietly and peacefully.

I don't think everyone's life failure in the sense of happiness.

I think we choose our happiness and success, if we only don't compare and compete with others.
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My friends, my sister and my niece mean a lot to me. Love is everything.
 
I think I figured out some hormone stuff. I just started rifampin and it made me ovulate by increasing the metabolisim of estrogen. The last hormone panel I did, it looked like my body was in the middle of making an egg and I didn't ovulate yet but I should have that week. My estrogen is in range. It's actually a good thing it isn't on the high side, it actually means I have a good egg reserve and I'm nowhere near menopause. It actually gets higher in perimenopause. When I had my ultrasound for PCOS diagnosis, I had no cysts because my ovaries were shut down for months by invega, but I had a high number of follicles. I'm not ovulating when I'm supposed to because my estrogen gets too high at a stage I haven't tested at. So my pituitary gland is fine. I just have PCOS, my ovaries make too many follicles and they can turn into cysts. Metformin is helping and I'm going to increase my dose after I get off antibiotics.

I had a PSSD window from ovulation and I think it ended today.
 
What is your meaning of life?

After Invega experience, I had to change all my life meaning because all the joy that I get from talking, doing things I loved is gone or changed.

I want to believe in destiny still because otherwise the reality hurts so much.

I want to believe that invega happened for a reason
 
wbga said:
What is your meaning of life?

After Invega experience, I had to change all my life meaning because all the joy that I get from talking, doing things I loved is gone or changed.

I want to believe in destiny still because otherwise the reality hurts so much.

I want to believe that invega happened for a reason
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Invega is a fucking curse.
 
Im so sick of people expecting me to be a normal functioning human. Like it's a curse not being able to explain how fucked i feel since Invega. I dont even know how to put this shit into words but I feel fucking broken and it wont fucking stop.
 
IOSIP said:
Im so sick of people expecting me to be a normal functioning human. Like it's a curse not being able to explain how fucked i feel since Invega. I dont even know how to put this shit into words but I feel fucking broken and it wont fucking stop.
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I know man. This is such a horrible experience.

We are broken to the core.

Nobody really understand our pain.

I went to a mountain severely damaged today.

It felt like me.
 
wbga said:
I know man. This is such a horrible experience.

We are broken to the core.

Nobody really understand our pain.

I went to a mountain severely damaged today.

It felt like me.
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I'm just stuck i feel ao unbelievably stuck. Like I can't feel any pleasure at all. I have no motivation to even talk to my friends because I'm so fucked. I not like them anymore I don't have the same personality.

It's fucked it is so unbelievably fucked. Just shoot a person up with this fucking posion and send them on there way.

They wrote on my discharge I should be fit for work in 3 to 6 weeks. Well it's been 3 fucking months and I'm totally fucked. How will I ever do anything again.

I want to cry but I can't cry. It's so fucked.
 
IOSIP said:
I'm just stuck i feel ao unbelievably stuck. Like I can't feel any pleasure at all. I have no motivation to even talk to my friends because I'm so fucked. I not like them anymore I don't have the same personality.

It's fucked it is so unbelievably fucked. Just shoot a person up with this fucking posion and send them on there way.

They wrote on my discharge I should be fit for work in 3 to 6 weeks. Well it's been 3 fucking months and I'm totally fucked. How will I ever do anything again.

I want to cry but I can't cry. It's so fucked.
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But I want to give you a hope as a person who is in 7 month range.

In 3 months I really felt only negativity.

Now after 6-7 months I can finally feel some positive emotions as well.

I can socialise too. I think we recover somewhat slowly.

You know I tell you my experience realistically.
 
InvegaAnon said:
I think I figured out some hormone stuff. I just started rifampin and it made me ovulate by increasing the metabolisim of estrogen. The last hormone panel I did, it looked like my body was in the middle of making an egg and I didn't ovulate yet but I should have that week. My estrogen is in range. It's actually a good thing it isn't on the high side, it actually means I have a good egg reserve and I'm nowhere near menopause. It actually gets higher in perimenopause. When I had my ultrasound for PCOS diagnosis, I had no cysts because my ovaries were shut down for months by invega, but I had a high number of follicles. I'm not ovulating when I'm supposed to because my estrogen gets too high at a stage I haven't tested at. So my pituitary gland is fine. I just have PCOS, my ovaries make too many follicles and they can turn into cysts. Metformin is helping and I'm going to increase my dose after I get off antibiotics.

I had a PSSD window from ovulation and I think it ended today.
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hey after how many months did ur emotions come back
 
iraistired said:
hey after how many months did ur emotions come back
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No idea, they're still improving. It took over a year for me. I might always have some blunting, idk. I think I have only a trace amount of anhedonia left.
 
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BelieveinGod123 said:
No offense their is no way you are recovered because antipsychotics cause emotional blunting. Which means you're emotionless.
You have no libido/no pleasure.
Your dopamine receptors are blocked due to you still taking antipsychotics.

In my opinion I think you got used to not feeling emotions.

I can't do that brother, I need my emotions.

Why do you keep taking olanzapine?
How does olanzapine help in anyway?
Are you schizophrenic?
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While it is true that someone gets used to some of the side effects (it happens over long periods of time, years).
It's also not true that you'll need them because if you get used to it, you automatically don't need them (or you are not used to it).

What I recovered the least are emotions, but I also gotten used to it pretty much. Not to scare some of you, it's simply a different state of being, where there was emotion it becomes calmness.
 
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