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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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Buzzing from stress over potentially losing my art and gaming files. I don't know how I'm supposed to get a job now. I'm feeling so much about it I'm in physical pain. I'm going to get my computer looked at, there's a place that isn't too horribly priced and I can get help from friends to cover the cost. I love my friends, I don't know what I would do without them!

I can't believe this is how my emotions are sucked back into my body lol fuck me. This is almost as bad as a house fire to me, I lived on that laptop and my dad doesn't understand.
 
iraistired said:
u mean
just now or in the past
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My recovery occurred in the past, not just now. It didn't take me until 2024 to recover from shots I received in 2015. I apologize if it came off that way as I don't want to scare anyone.

8-9 months marked significant improvements

12 months marked having some semblance of a life again with exercising and work. I still didnt feel back to baseline but I felt hopeful that this suffering would come to an end at the 12 month mark.

As far as a full recovery or at least being close to one, I would put that at around 15 months. My shots were in September of 2015 and I was scheduled for an MMA fight on February of 2017. I was able to go through a training camp which started around December of 2016, show up on fight day, make weight and felt full of energy and life.

So, from the date of the invega shots to the start of training camp would have been 15 months. That would be my benchmark for being close to my pre-invega baseline.
 
InvegaAnon said:
Buzzing from stress over potentially losing my art and gaming files. I don't know how I'm supposed to get a job now. I'm feeling so much about it I'm in physical pain. I'm going to get my computer looked at, there's a place that isn't too horribly priced and I can get help from friends to cover the cost. I love my friends, I don't know what I would do without them!

I can't believe this is how my emotions are sucked back into my body lol fuck me. This is almost as bad as a house fire to me, I lived on that laptop and my dad doesn't understand.
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That sucks you never had anything on the cloud or any sort of external drive. For future reference, proton drive is a great cloud service, as long as you're not on macos or Linux. Even me just loosing my steam acc with that I've used for a decade with all my gaming achievements and friends gathered over the years done my head in. Fuck Microsoft shitty autoblocking emails, two of them autoblocked at the same time lmao.
 
IOSIP said:
Are people really healing ? Or are they adjusting to a new normal?
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I understand why this would be a concerning question you have. I can speak to my experience. During my first few months post-invega, I felt like my dopaminergic system was being blocked and feared it would remain blocked permanently. However, I experienced either a drug-induced psychosis from Adderall or manic episodes multiple times post-invega. These consisted of feelings of intense euphoria which eventually spiraled out of control.

If it were true that my dopaminergic system was permanently blocked then I don't know how its possible these episodes could have occurred and I could have felt such intense euphoria and happiness.
 
InvegaAnon said:
I lost sleep over how upset I am about my computer. I received a notification to backup my computer I was like "I'm going to bed, I'll do it later" AND OOOPS. FUCKIN. OOPS. Four whole years with this laptop and I never spilled a dangerous amount of water on it. I got startled by a noise mid cup lift and I spilled about half a cup of water on it, it turned off, then I tried turning it back on like a dumbass. I powered it up twice and then it flipped off. I hope I can at least retrieve data.

Playing NMS gave me peace. I will miss it. I'm cursing myself for never backing up my game, and backups are provided in game now. I should have done that when that update landed. I have a bunch of beautiful builds, cool finds, and I only missed one expedition. I have a few unfinished art files too, as well as art programs I'm not sure if I still have the original emails I received with the download. And I had a nice meme collection as well.

I had a feeling something bad was going to happen and I didn't back up anything. That laptop was over 1000 dollars and the only reason I was able to get it was because of the covid checks.
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I feel you. I lost my laptop with over 6 years worth of music I've made, among other things. Its awful
 
Youwillrecover said:
How many invega shots you had brother?
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I think it was three. Might have been two. Doing much better.

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Yup, the physical side is bad for me. I used to be a lot more physically active, now the little bit I do takes my body over a week to recover from.
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Yes, I mean the horrible restlessness. The mental effects I could have tolerated on their own. Sad.

Anyone try Cobenfy? It works on different receptors than the other APs.
 
AlphaMethylPhenyl said:
I think it was three. Might have been two. Doing much better.


Yes, I mean the horrible restlessness. The mental effects I could have tolerated on their own. Sad.

Anyone try Cobenfy? It works on different receptors than the other APs.
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Doing much better? You recovered sex emotions dopamine weed high alcohol love feelings? Broo tell us alll
 
AlphaMethylPhenyl said:
I honestly found the physical side effects the worst. Very painful, like my blood was boilign or I wanted to jump out of my skin.
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Did your physical side effects get better? I'm still struggling with them daily akathisia and its making me suicidal
 
I feel so fucked up guys akathisia still doing its thing along with the anhedonia. I'm just so scared its never going to stop.
 
There is nothing to do all day every day but pace my house. How can I live like this? How can they do this to people? My life is ruined and my dad thinks galking to someone will help me.

All day every day pac pace pace pace pace. Oh my fucking God. How can I live a life like this.

Sorrrrrryyyy for spamming it's just really getting to me. I'm filled with so much regret

I just want drugs to take away this pain, but I can't get any because the doctor thinks I'm drug seeking. Thinks I'm a fucking drug fucked fool. My mate who gave me the drugs that put me into psychosis I am so angry at what he has done to my life. He said it was ketamine. Next minute I had every single drug under the sun show up on my blood tests. Opiates, benzos, meth, everything. Now my life is ruined and I can't get support.

Life on earth is a fucking sick joke. Pray that you don't get a horrid disability, pray that you don't get murdered, pray that you don't burn alive in a bushfire. I'm 38 and I can't see how I can live the rest of my life like this but it feels like it won't change. Everyday the same nightmare. I could maybe be OK if it were just the anhedonia but the pacing is so scary.
 
I had a 100mg 2 month injection of risperidone 5 months ago. Been dealing with very similar side effects as invega. The two that are very concerning are i have pseudo Parkinson's and TD symptoms. All the side effects appeared 3 months ago very abruptly
 
IOSIP said:
Sorrrrrryyyy for spamming it's just really getting to me. I'm filled with so much regret
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All I can say is no hopeful words can make you feel positive.

Only time...

I was exactly like you.

Finally 5 months in, I am getting better and feeling some window.

Worry and regret almost gone.
 
wbga said:
All I can say is no hopeful words can make you feel positive.

Only time...

I was exactly like you.

Finally 5 months in, I am getting better and feeling some window.

Worry and regret almost gone.
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I think about killing myself constantly you know. Doctor won't take this seriously. I'm so scared.
 
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