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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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TonyTonyChopper said:
Still going strong on the no PMO. I cant believe that fapping was holding me back spiritually all these years holy fk. This experience + weed is probably crazy af , havent tried that though.
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Bro hahah i was doing semen retention in 2022 summer hard when i combined it with weed it felt like God mode. People were literally touching me. Thats how magnetic sr makes you hahah
 
Youwillrecover said:
Haha no way. Its much more safer and really works if you have anxiety bad day or some other mental health issues. Stuff really works. I had days of agony due to all of this. Every time i took pregabaline it all dissapeared.
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It may work but so do benzos and they have their drawbacks to. Lyrica is far from harmless some people do become addicted to it
 
Youwillrecover said:
Bro hahah i was doing semen retention in 2022 summer hard when i combined it with weed it felt like God mode. People were literally touching me. Thats how magnetic sr makes you hahah
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2025 will 100% be semen retention . Imagine this turns into me finding a job, going back to school, volunteering, just being a better version of myself. Porn is so wicked , no wonder its being banned all over the US.
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
2025 will 100% be semen retention . Imagine this turns into me finding a job, going back to school, volunteering, just being a better version of myself. Porn is so wicked , no wonder its being banned all over the US.
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It is wicked and there are demons there. I will only MO to imagination. One of the very spiritual ladies which i trust told the same. Releasing overloaded sexual energy is normal but never use porn. So you can practice retention but not go to hard on yourself when you fall after some time if you didnt used porn. Its really powerful tool but as my co-mod on semenretention reddit said it can be a double edge sword. My parents and siblings were abusive 100% but i wonder how many of my reactions came from supression of the sexual energy considering all the best mma fighters and boxers do celibacy before the fight. 🤣
 
Youwillrecover said:
It is wicked and there are demons there. I will only MO to imagination. One of the very spiritual ladies which i trust told the same. Releasing overloaded sexual energy is normal but never use porn. So you can practice retention but not go to hard on yourself when you fall after some time if you didnt used porn. Its really powerful tool but as my co-mod on semenretention reddit said it can be a double edge sword. My parents and siblings were abusive 100% but i wonder how many of my reactions came from supression of the sexual energy considering all the best mma fighters and boxers do celibacy before the fight. 🤣
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4-5 policeman and ambulance dudes couldnt hold me when i first had my trauma break. I felt sooo powerful, trully most of the male population is drained from sexual energy therefore they are so weak and all that, when i had the incident with that muscular dude in the ward that everyone were scared off literally no one could believe i wanted to fight with him to the point he backed off. I was watching Michael Bisping former UFC champ about sex before the fights and he quoted some greek philosoph that said man who abstain from sex are not scared to stand in the first line in a war. Add the magnetism and sexual attraction from females and you trully experience life as it is divine. Therefore the porn industry as we said before have all these pseudyonyms like Lust syn wicked evil SHAME4K. Its trully soul killing therefore free. @TonyTonyChopper @UnluckyXeplion
 
IOSIP said:
I'm convinced we are already in hell. The whole earth is a hell scape. People die in awful circumstances every day.

I feel so god dam ruined. I'm 37, this is going to kill my career. I'm unemployed and I can't stop these terrible feelings I'm having.

How can this not be hell? Convince me otherwise I dare you.

So much horrible death and disease in this world 🌎
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I know how you feel man, I know exactly how it feels and it’s really hard right now but Stay strong with all of us and this pain will pass we will heal from this poison with time
julianlz7 said:
4 invega injections
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TonyTonyChopper said:
2025 will 100% be semen retention . Imagine this turns into me finding a job, going back to school, volunteering, just being a better version of myself. Porn is so wicked , no wonder its being banned all over the US.
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What i meant is that after some time it can get sooo messy so without correct transmutation dont beat urself up as long as u use imagination. This shiit more serious then just abstaining 🤣 you need real spiritual work to not go crazy from such amount of energy
 
julianlz7 said:
I know how you feel man, I know exactly how it feels and it’s really hard right now but Stay strong with all of us and this pain will pass we will heal from this poison with time
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I'm to scared to killl myself. But killing myself is also what I think about most of the time.
 
I dont know why but i wake up ultra suicidal with heavy depression and after 2-3 hours i start to feel good. Its weird
 
IOSIP said:
I'm convinced we are already in hell. The whole earth is a hell scape. People die in awful circumstances every day.

I feel so god dam ruined. I'm 37, this is going to kill my career. I'm unemployed and I can't stop these terrible feelings I'm having.

How can this not be hell? Convince me otherwise I dare you.

So much horrible death and disease in this world 🌎
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That was my exact feeling too. I worried about my future so much that I will always live this low life forever until I die suffering like this.

No hope only horrible feeling.

That was literal hell. All the physical and mental symptoms and no future.

But I am smiling and have no worry anymore.

It was weird feeling for me because I used to not worry about my future or my financial situation because I care more about my mental happiness and experiences but invega made me so "realistic" that I find so many negative "realities" in this world including diseases, recession, housing problem, unemployment, dying etc. Those were actual threats to me and I stopped watching those youtube and media that talk about such negative "realities"

Reality became so hell above all, I couldn't feel any joy from doing whatever I do. No joy and reality sucks what left was only hell.

I think it is impossible to think otherwise in early stage. You need to endure this pain and try to figure out even slightest joy that you can find while suffering.

Try to find something that relaxes you while you don't have to try anything. It was listening to ASMR for hours for me. That was the only thing that gave me little bit of soothing.

Nobody understand your situation even your parents because they haven't experienced what we are going through.



I feel happiness and I can relax.

But I got this bad skin problem from stress and still it is hard to feel any motivation to go out or do something for my career.

All the problems and worries came from financial insecurities in my case. I had to drop out my university because of invega and I can't go back and certainly my life was "ruined" in the realistic perspective.

I had to change my value system. I had to rethink all about where happiness come from.

Invega made me so realistic(or pessimistic) there is no chance I will become rich in this world so I had to find other source of happiness which I have found.
 
IOSIP said:
I recall you weren't doing that well. Are you seriously feeling alot better? That's wonderful news. You can feel happiness?
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I am feeling a lot better.

There is no negative emotion left.

Still I can't say that I am 100% recovered because I know my past.

5 months for me is the first month of starting to feel something positive.

I hope in one year I will be totally recovered
 
wbga said:
I am feeling a lot better.

There is no negative emotion left.

Still I can't say that I am 100% recovered because I know my past.

5 months for me is the first month of starting to feel something positive.

I hope in one year I will be totally recovered
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So your sure your starting to feel better?

I dont know how i will ever get my life back on track.
 
IOSIP said:
So your sure your starting to feel better?

I dont know how i will ever get my life back on track.
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I think it will depend on your situation.

In my case, after invega everything has changed and I need to restart everything.

All this change was depressing and realistically very bad but I had to find something that give me feeling of growth and value.

You should find those.
 
IOSIP said:
So your sure your starting to feel better?

I dont know how i will ever get my life back on track.
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I am starting to feel better even accepting my negative situation.

For example living poor is ok for me now. All I want is healthy mind and body that can meditate

I am watching myself everyday, taking note about any physical or mental change I can find.

I am definitely feeling better and physically my receptors are coming back alive little by little, as I can feel less and less of side effects.

Sex drive is coming back. I feel more pleasure.

Still there is breathing difficulty a bit.
 
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But invega is blocking my energy flow when I meditate still. This is horrible.
 
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