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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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stolensoul said:
I'm sorry you're going through this. You have to take it one day at a time, one moment at a time, until enough moments have passed that you can feel some peace of mind again. It's truly an awful experience.
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It's not getting any better, will it ever get any better?
 
Youwillrecover said:
Bro u trully fully recovered while taking zyprexa or u tweaking?
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i felt like zyprexa might be less sedating than other anti-psychotic drugs. just had a different feel for me... i'm not sure how it works with tripping for me. i hear poster paranoid android can even take mushrooms on zyprexa and they work... i know there are some posters here that claim to trip on injections that a lot of people wouldn't be able to trip on normally either... i think sometimes the medication kind of wears off maybe, so the psychedelic drugs work... a lot of times most anti-psychotics make it so people can't trip at all... i wouldn't be surprised if all the posters get dulled effects from the drugs... but if it's working for them, that's good.
paranoid android said:
Doesent always work like that i know people on vrylar who get high off weed and psychs no problem
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i can get high on weed on any anti-psychotic. doesn't take anymore weed than normal either.
 
stolensoul said:
I'm sorry you're going through this. You have to take it one day at a time, one moment at a time, until enough moments have passed that you can feel some peace of mind again. It's truly an awful experience.
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Did you have restlessness?
 
IOSIP said:
I'm to afraid to kill myself but I don't want to live like this forever this is a never ending nightmare. Youwillrecover has no fucking clue as to what this invega shit does
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I felt exactly the same a few months back. It was really bad. Everyday I just wanted to die. Would break down and cry on occasion just from the constant rumination on doing it and picturing myself doing it etc. It's been some of the only times I could cry since the injection. Please give it some more time before you do something drastic. I would keep myself going basically by postponing it, instead of killing myself that night I would say I'd do it tomorrow. I would keep myself busy reading through this forum and spamming Dota 2 mindlessly. Not even wanting to play games just to have something to occupy myself, like a chore.
 
IOSIP said:
Did you have restlessness?
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I had a little bit of restlessness but not sure if it was akathisia. It was subtle. But I still feel quite uncomfortable in my body, but it was worse before.

Do you do any exercise? How does running/jogging feel?
 
stolensoul said:
I had a little bit of restlessness but not sure if it was akathisia. It was subtle. But I still feel quite uncomfortable in my body, but it was worse before.

Do you do any exercise? How does running/jogging feel?
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I'm doing nothing. I'm on my feet all day anyways. I don't want to run or jog.

I do nothing all day everyday.
 
IOSIP said:
I'm doing nothing. I'm on my feet all day anyways. I don't want to run or jog.

I do nothing all day everyday.
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I was just wondering if running would counter the restlessness.

I remember in the beginning I would basically do nothing, but I would force myself to put something on to watch just so I'm not staring at the wall all day. I watched all of Lost for example lol
 
I spilled water on my laptop and got really upset and it sort of like.... bent the emotional part of my brain back into place? I feel like 95% normal emotionally. Laptop is upside down sitting in some rice in a bag, I hope it will be okay or at least okay enough to get my art and No Man's Sky files from it. I'll be logging in less here. I'm very mad at myself for not backing up my computer.

But holy shit! My emotional blunting is hanging on by a thread, it's almost gone!! There's just something that feels a little off, I'm missing some of my old volatility but I don't mind if I never see that part of me again, it caused problems. I feel like I'm almost as sensitive and empathetic as before. I'm very curious again, but that also feels slightly incomplete.

I'm in "almost" land. I hope it doesn't get fucked up for me somehow.
 
stolensoul said:
I was just wondering if running would counter the restlessness.

I remember in the beginning I would basically do nothing, but I would force myself to put something on to watch just so I'm not staring at the wall all day. I watched all of Lost for example lol
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Running won't counter this. It's some God damn awful shit that i can't stand. I can't stand anything. Everything is awful 24/7

Watching TV just reminds me of all the bad things in this world

I realise now this is hell. We've been trapped in he'llsince we were born. I pray consciousness doesn't go on forever 🙏 especially in such a miserable way as it is for me now.

Age 38 and I have a brain injury like everyone else here. But I assure you I would be alot better if this akathisia wasn't a thing.

Anyways sorry I'm just bored and scared and feel like throwing a pity party. Youwillrecover won't be happy. Oh well.
 
InvegaAnon said:
I spilled water on my laptop and got really upset and it sort of like.... bent the emotional part of my brain back into place? I feel like 95% normal emotionally. Laptop is upside down sitting in some rice in a bag, I hope it will be okay or at least okay enough to get my art and No Man's Sky files from it. I'll be logging in less here. I'm very mad at myself for not backing up my computer.

But holy shit! My emotional blunting is hanging on by a thread, it's almost gone!! There's just something that feels a little off, I'm missing some of my old volatility but I don't mind if I never see that part of me again, it caused problems. I feel like I'm almost as sensitive and empathetic as before. I'm very curious again, but that also feels slightly incomplete.

I'm in "almost" land. I hope it doesn't get fucked up for me somehow.
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I'm glad to hear that. It's been a long road so far. I hope you'll make a recovery post when you feel you've recovered enough
 
IOSIP said:
Running won't counter this. It's some God damn awful shit that i can't stand. I can't stand anything. Everything is awful 24/7

Watching TV just reminds me of all the bad things in this world

I realise now this is hell. We've been trapped in he'llsince we were born. I pray consciousness doesn't go on forever 🙏 especially in such a miserable way as it is for me now.

Age 38 and I have a brain injury like everyone else here. But I assure you I would be alot better if this akathisia wasn't a thing.

Anyways sorry I'm just bored and scared and feel like throwing a pity party. Youwillrecover won't be happy. Oh well.
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Lol you are welcome to vent and complain about everything.
Youwillrecover just wants you to pray everything away. Not sure why he got a bit toxic with you. You are going through hell right now and have the right to complain about it in this space, as most of us have done before.
 
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stolensoul said:
Lol you are welcome to vent and complain about everything.
Youwillrecover just wants you to pray everything away. Not sure why he got a bit toxic with you. You are going through hell right now and have the right to complain about it in this space, as most of us have done before.
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Thanks stolen soul I figured this was the perfect place for me to vent. It's just not getting better and I so scared for my future.
 
stolensoul said:
Lol you are welcome to vent and complain about everything.
Youwillrecover just wants you to pray everything away. Not sure why he got a bit toxic with you. You are going through hell right now and have the right to complain about it in this space, as most of us have done before.
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how's your recovery gone? don't think i've heard your story stolensoul.
 
Anyone out here having any positive experiences? Good to see invega anon feeling better.
 
foodcrisis said:
i felt like zyprexa might be less sedating than other anti-psychotic drugs. just had a different feel for me... i'm not sure how it works with tripping for me. i hear poster paranoid android can even take mushrooms on zyprexa and they work... i know there are some posters here that claim to trip on injections that a lot of people wouldn't be able to trip on normally either... i think sometimes the medication kind of wears off maybe, so the psychedelic drugs work... a lot of times most anti-psychotics make it so people can't trip at all... i wouldn't be surprised if all the posters get dulled effects from the drugs... but if it's working for them, that's good.


i can get high on weed on any anti-psychotic. doesn't take anymore weed than normal either.
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Same here weed worked fine for me on every antipsychotic ive been on. I trip on zyprexa no problem i just have to take a break for a day or 2. Benzos are actually worse for dulling the trip for me then antipsychotics are
 
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