Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

[Youwillrecover]

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[t_xeplionhell]

Damn im reading older versions and @t_xeplionhell is so fkn knowledgeable . Where are you brother, we need your knowledge at these times.

I appreciate the compliments bro. I'm working quite much, also attempting to find a gf that I will be able to fall in love with (after so many failed attempts I'm starting to think it might never happen but I'll never give up anyway), building my (personal, strategic and operational) network, and so on.

I learned to effectively use the experience as infinite fuel for doing anything. But it's also as if my internal presence changed, there is no right word but let's say "expanded", could have something to do with mental time, I feel extremely old (which isn't negative, it just is). I'm able to complete the hardest possible tasks at work and there's no limit to that, I just keep going, except I don't overdo stuff because if I overdo work every day (e.g. 12h of heavy mental work every day) I get brain fog for up to a week (it makes me less capable when doing heavy mental work, and also can decrease short-term memory retention) it's like an inflamed muscle (when it happens it's best to start using different type of intelligence, e.g. if problem solving was overused, then doing something creative like a design or writing).
And if I'm overdoing my training every day, after given enough time I get injured or too inflamed therefore unable to train for some time which is why I split my training properly and train to the maximum physical capacity at maximal time duration up to a point where it doesn't cause any issues because it's my priority that I can always keep going, the same principle applies for work.

The fuel is not just useable for doing but also for wanting and holding the weight of great or seemingly impossible goals, the weight of consistency and never giving up. All these are like droplets in the ocean.

 

[TonyTonyChopper]

I learned to effectively use the experience as infinite fuel for doing anything. But it's also as if my internal presence changed, there is no right word but let's say "expanded", could have something to do with mental time, I feel extremely old (which isn't negative, it just is). I'm able to complete the hardest possible tasks at work and there's no limit to that, I just keep going, except I don't overdo stuff because if I overdo work every day (e.g. 12h of heavy mental work every day) I get brain fog for up to a week (it makes me less capable when doing heavy mental work, and also can decrease short-term memory retention) it's like an inflamed muscle (when it happens it's best to start using different type of intelligence, e.g. if problem solving was overused, then doing something creative like a design or writing).
And if I'm overdoing my training every day, after given enough time I get injured or too inflamed therefore unable to train for some time which is why I split my training properly and train to the maximum physical capacity at maximal time duration up to a point where it doesn't cause any issues because it's my priority that I can always keep going, the same principle applies for work.

You are very inspiring to work a tough job like software development and work out like crazy with <10% body fat after invega. Were you able to do these things when you were getting injected or shortly after u quit invega? . I find myself having literlly no motivation ,energy ,cognitive function to do things like find a job or work out. Its just impossible since I had 10 Invega shots . I tried multiple times to learn web development and I lose interest very quickly because I truly believe dopamine is vital because it rewards you after learning some front end or backend and completing a website. Like I recreated a website as part of this curriculum and I felt no satisfaction or reward to keep going so i just quit web development for the 3rd time this year when I was almost done javascript. I hate being called lazy by my family when they literlly don't understand how disabled Invega makes us feel.

I hope you find a gf soon bro , you truly deserve one after this horrible experience and what you were able to accomplish despite it. I will give this curriculum another chance because pre invega I found learning tech so interesting and rewarding and once I recover I plan on joining an intensive bootcamp or postgrad certificate program in web development because I dont see myself doing anything else in life.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

You are very inspiring to work a tough job like software development and work out like crazy with <10% body fat after invega. Were you able to do these things when you were getting injected or shortly after u quit invega?

I wasn't able to work this much until a year ago, but it has increased more in efficiency through this year. I didn't work the first year off, then I did work minimally during the second year but I compensated with willpower and skill level, but it can't compare to what I do now.

I tried lifting weights and doing pullups a month after I went off but that made it worse. I started running at 2 months off, a few times a week but for ~10min only because I had arrhythmia a month ago. I'd train sometimes on the street after 1 year off. I started going to the gym daily, around 2 years off.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

I find myself having literlly no motivation ,energy ,cognitive function to do things like find a job or work out. Its just impossible since I had 10 Invega shots .

I know what that is like, those are some of the reasons why I didn't train the first year off, I tried a few times. It was impossible to compensate with willpower, the weight was just too (extreme) heavy to bear so it simply crushed my will.

 

[t_xeplionhell]

I hope you find a gf soon bro , you truly deserve one after this horrible experience and what you were able to accomplish despite it. I will give this curriculum another chance because pre invega I found learning tech so interesting and rewarding and once I recover I plan on joining an intensive bootcamp or postgrad certificate program in web development because I dont see myself doing anything else in life.

I have a serious bonding problem and it's because this experience changed me and the gap is too large compared to average, hence there's much less for me to relate with.

Godspeed with recovery bro.

 

[iraistired]

i am so beyond tired i just want emotions im dying to have them back

like the good ones obviously
i’m so glad some people are recovering i hope to be one of them i’m so happy for you all

 

[InvegaAnon]

You still get high from weed after invega?

Once I got high and it felt almost exactly as before, but it was less hallucinatory (textured/patterned surfaces got wavy and sometimes I heard things, color got a little more saturated, I have been told weed isn't supposed to do that and it never did before I took shrooms, which was pretty early in my stoner career but I never had psychosis or severe paranoia from weed), but I kept smoking for like two weeks and it stopped working as well. So it does come back for most people. I have the complication of PSSD in addition to invega aftereffects, and it's hard to tell which is which or if they're somehow one in the same and Prozac just amplified and prolonged the effects of Invega.

 

[paranoid android]

You are very inspiring to work a tough job like software development and work out like crazy with <10% body fat after invega. Were you able to do these things when you were getting injected or shortly after u quit invega? . I find myself having literlly no motivation ,energy ,cognitive function to do things like find a job or work out. Its just impossible since I had 10 Invega shots . I tried multiple times to learn web development and I lose interest very quickly because I truly believe dopamine is vital because it rewards you after learning some front end or backend and completing a website. Like I recreated a website as part of this curriculum and I felt no satisfaction or reward to keep going so i just quit web development for the 3rd time this year when I was almost done javascript. I hate being called lazy by my family when they literlly don't understand how disabled Invega makes us feel.

I hope you find a gf soon bro , you truly deserve one after this horrible experience and what you were able to accomplish despite it. I will give this curriculum another chance because pre invega I found learning tech so interesting and rewarding and once I recover I plan on joining an intensive bootcamp or postgrad certificate program in web development because I dont see myself doing anything else in life.

I was given about 6 injections of invega and 18 plus months worth of injections of abilify and i was able to get in really good shape after stopping them. I am now 42 years old but im in better shape now then when i was 20 and doing bricklaying. I started out using 25lbs dumbbells almost 2 years ago and now im using 50 and 60lbs dumbbells.

When i stopped the abilify injections and got switched to latuda i was 225lbs. A year after stopping abilify i went all the way down to 170lbs. I started lifting weights then and now i have managed to get up to 200lbs by lifting weights

 

[paranoid android]

Once I got high and it felt almost exactly as before, but it was less hallucinatory (textured/patterned surfaces got wavy and sometimes I heard things, color got a little more saturated, I have been told weed isn't supposed to do that and it never did before I took shrooms, which was pretty early in my stoner career but I never had psychosis or severe paranoia from weed), but I kept smoking for like two weeks and it stopped working as well. So it does come back for most people. I have the complication of PSSD in addition to invega aftereffects, and it's hard to tell which is which or if they're somehow one in the same and Prozac just amplified and prolonged the effects of Invega.

Hallucinations can happen from Cannabis but its rare. It's more common with high THC sativa strains. Maybe try a indica? I take shrooms to i was worried that they wherent going to work because im on zyprexa but stopping it for a day or 2 was enough for me to trip fine.

 

[InvegaAnon]

Hallucinations can happen from Cannabis but its rare. It's more common with high THC sativa strains. Maybe try a indica? I take shrooms to i was worried that they wherent going to work because im on zyprexa but stopping it for a day or 2 was enough for me to trip fine.

I've always been really sensitive to weed. The weed that I find the trippiest is actually Gorilla Glue #4, a classic indica hybrid. It's not the best tasting to me but I really like the effects. It's a pretty common strain and it became my go-to when I was still buying weed. I don't know if it was because I was buying lower-tier stuff but it always smelled like Home Depot to me.

I still think about that Superboof pre-roll I had, it tasted exactly like grapefruit. I shared it with my friend and we watched Don't Look Up together. Good times. I got incredibly high and the movie was both sad and hilarious. When I can smoke again, I'm gonna see if I can find some of that.

 

[paranoid android]

I've always been really sensitive to weed. The weed that I find the trippiest is actually Gorilla Glue #4, a classic indica hybrid. It's not the best tasting to me but I really like the effects. It's a pretty common strain and it became my go-to when I was still buying weed. I don't know if it was because I was buying lower-tier stuff but it always smelled like Home Depot to me.

I still think about that Superboof pre-roll I had, it tasted exactly like grapefruit. I shared it with my friend and we watched Don't Look Up together. Good times. I got incredibly high and the movie was both sad and hilarious. When I can smoke again, I'm gonna see if I can find some of that.

Gg#4 is always a good one ya. I prefer landrace sativas though preferably African ones as they are high in THCV. THCV is a stimulant and it only occurs in African landrace sativas like Durban poison, red Congo and Malawi to just name the ones ive had so far. They are hard to find.

 

[TonyTonyChopper]

The weed that I find the trippiest is actually Gorilla Glue #4, a classic indica hybrid

For me its this indica strain called Northern lights. It made me feel sooo euphoric few years back and for some reason I couldn't find that cart again. I looked and looked and just no one makes it anymore.

 

[InvegaAnon]

Before everything happened to me, I felt so connected to this song. It made me so emotional, it reminded me of how I felt when I was younger and I didn't have any friends, or when I struggled to make friends in college. I listened to it over a month ago because I saw some starlings flying and it reminded me of the music video and I was struck by how hollow it felt to me, like I couldn't connect to it as art and I couldn't connect to those past feelings. That changed very recently and it makes me cry again.

 

[InvegaAnon]

Gg#4 is always a good one ya. I prefer landrace sativas though preferably African ones as they are high in THCV. THCV is a stimulant and it only occurs in African landrace sativas like Durban poison, red Congo and Malawi to just name the ones ive had so far. They are hard to find.

I only had Durban Poison once and I hyped it up so much to myself and it turns out it was just a regular yet tasty sativa to me. Most weed feels the same to me.

 

[InvegaAnon]

For me its this indica strain called Northern lights. It made me feel sooo euphoric few years back and for some reason I couldn't find that cart again. I looked and looked and just no one makes it anymore.

My dad grew some of that this year, it's quality weed.

 

[paranoid android]

For me its this indica strain called Northern lights. It made me feel sooo euphoric few years back and for some reason I couldn't find that cart again. I looked and looked and just no one makes it anymore.

Northern lights is my fav indica strain and one of my fav strains overall. It's a good medical strain and also a good one for getting stoned. Have you ever had dutch treat? It's a great indica and like northern lights is hard to get these days

 

[paranoid android]

I only had Durban Poison once and I hyped it up so much to myself and it turns out it was just a regular yet tasty sativa to me. Most weed feels the same to me.

I find all African sativas to feel different then regular weed and thats probably because of the THCV in them. Have you ever had Malawi or red congo? Those are the other 2 African sativas ive had. Red congo is higher in THCV then durban is and you can certainly feel it when you smoke it. It's a great wake up strain just a few bowls of red congo with 2 cups of coffee and your good.

 

[fenec]

Yeah, Ur right, great video. Thanks for sharing. He has a lot of subscribers and views and it doesn't seem like his channel is that old. I hope I can get some traction like that with my videos. If you haven't seen my channel or my videos here my latest one also with the least amount of views. Anyway it's all good I'm enjoying doing them and I'm feeling great.. So must be doing something right.



OK so I bit the bullet and just ordered myself some canabis. Should be arriving soon. Looking forward to hopefully having a good trip. My last time toking was in 2015 or 2016. So wish for me the best when I smoke it this evening and hopefully I'll still be in a great mindset to come and share my results with ya'll.

You won't feel any alcohol cannabis substances because you're still taking the poison of invega, it took me 1 year of stopping to be able to feel it again.

 

[TonyTonyChopper]

Northern lights is my fav indica strain and one of my fav strains overall. It's a good medical strain and also a good one for getting stoned. Have you ever had dutch treat? It's a great indica and like northern lights is hard to get these days

Nah never tried it but I will in few months maybe a year once my euphoria from marijuana comes back strong. Right now it doesn't feel euphoric i just get really paranoid and anxieous . Last time i smoked which was nov 25th I started having same delusions as I did in 2023 because I was smoking 89% thc cart lol. But once im able to get high on weed i will stick to flower and try my favorite strains like purple kush , northern lights and maybe dutch treat.