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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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Recoveringinvega said:
hey guys been a minute. good news i recovered fully and probably am the happiest ive ever been in my life. im a bodybuilder and im the strongest and leanest ive ever been. my metabolism is better than before. i got like 4 or 5 shots of sustenna and 1 of trifecta. last shot was june of 2023 and i felt great by may 2024. from there my body came back and i started going out a lot so life became great. during the entire time of my recovery and even now im 100percent sober. i am a heavy consumer of nicotine but thats about it. imo just wait it out. when u feel ready workout and go out and have fun. lastly stay away from psycho active substances. believe me this whole experience made me way stronger and resilient. i appreciate life so much more and am wary of my mental state. remember to pray and trust the process. i gotta stress tho that being sober and living a healthy lifestyle is crucial. i didnt have much of a social life before but having a good circle around u is extremely important. i know its hard right now but all of u will make a full recovery. apologies for bitchin in the past. best of luck and hope this helped. this forum was great btw. its all i ever checked in the pits of my misery back then.
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but stay positive and quit trollin some of u. help each other in these times and only post resourceful stuff. negativity doesnt help anyone. i complained a good amount so i get it. its a good space to vent rather than talk to peeps u know irl. but aside from pourin ur feelz try to be supportive of one another. i really hope peeps from when i was active on the forum also made a full recovery
 
im yappin pre hard rn but whatever. so i noticed i said i recovered completely in novemeber but my body cameback to its sub 10precent bodyfat in may. i found my current gf shortly after and its all been smooth sailing from there. current gym stats r 100lb dumbell shoulder press, 275lb bench, 260 incline bench, 245 barbell row. im really into bodybuilding so i go on about it. not tryna show off. 6 feet tall. weight a month after my last invega injection was probs 225. in the summer i cut down to 165 which is my competiton weight. now sittin at around 180-190 but lookin great
 
Recoveringinvega said:
im yappin pre hard rn but whatever. so i noticed i said i recovered completely in novemeber but my body cameback to its sub 10precent bodyfat in may. i found my current gf shortly after and its all been smooth sailing from there. current gym stats r 100lb dumbell shoulder press, 275lb bench, 260 incline bench, 245 barbell row. im really into bodybuilding so i go on about it. not tryna show off. 6 feet tall. weight a month after my last invega injection was probs 225. in the summer i cut down to 165 which is my competiton weight. now sittin at around 180-190 but lookin great
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No offense but I do not believe your story. You expect us to believe that after 6 injections you recovered after a year? There's people on here who have had 1 or 2 injections and still say they haven't recovered after a year. THESE ARE THE FAKE RECOVERY STORIES IM TALKING ABOUT PEOPLE.
 
Yeah I feel like it changes you permanently. Recovered to me means being the way I was before invega and I’m not.

t_xeplionhell said:
The insomnia rather amplified the rest because I would just lay down and do nothing the whole night attempting to sleep while constantly in extreme torture due mental pain, akathisia, etc. I wish I just felt empty as if I died, even if everything had no meaning and every experience felt as if they aren't happening at least I wouldn't suffer.
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I just remember thinking omg there’s no relief. There’s absolutely no relief. There’s nothing I can do to get relief from this torture. Even weed wasn’t the same.
I woke up one morning and was like I can’t fucking stand this anymore and tried to hang myself. I said to myself what are you doing and I was like I dunno I can’t feel it anyway. The intense suffering was so bad I’ve never felt that in my life. I’d honestly rather suffer psychosis. At least I could entertain myself and have shit to do and I wasn’t bothering anyone in my own house.

Im telling you they’ve done something permanent to my brain. I feel like I have dementia. Some days I wake up and I’m like who the fuck am I.

The human brain is what makes a human. Think of all the people with intellectual disabilities.
I still feel dumb and I don’t have my personality.

Even though I’ve improved no one should have to go through this shit. No one.

So what you have an episode, chuck em on olanzapine pills for a month or two and they’ll be right. No one in the world needs this injection. No one.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. It gives you schizophrenia.
 
maryjaneforever said:
Yeah I feel like it changes you permanently. Recovered to me means being the way I was before invega and I’m not.


I just remember thinking omg there’s no relief. There’s absolutely no relief. There’s nothing I can do to get relief from this torture. Even weed wasn’t the same.
I woke up one morning and was like I can’t fucking stand this anymore and tried to hang myself. I said to myself what are you doing and I was like I dunno I can’t feel it anyway. The intense suffering was so bad I’ve never felt that in my life. I’d honestly rather suffer psychosis. At least I could entertain myself and have shit to do and I wasn’t bothering anyone in my own house.

Im telling you they’ve done something permanent to my brain. I feel like I have dementia. Some days I wake up and I’m like who the fuck am I.

The human brain is what makes a human. Think of all the people with intellectual disabilities.
I still feel dumb and I don’t have my personality.

Even though I’ve improved no one should have to go through this shit. No one.

So what you have an episode, chuck em on olanzapine pills for a month or two and they’ll be right. No one in the world needs this injection. No one.

I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. It gives you schizophrenia.
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You are 100% right. Antipsychotics cause schizophrenia. Schizophrenia was created by evil people. I also fear the damages from these poisonous medicines are permanent.
 
BelieveinGod123 said:
You are 100% right. Antipsychotics cause schizophrenia. Schizophrenia was created by evil people. I also fear the damages from these poisonous medicines are permanent.
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What in the hell are you even talking about ? Schizophrenia wasn't created by evil people. It's a biological trait. Also, paranoia is an evolutionary state of mind.
 
MedicinalUser247 said:
What in the hell are you even talking about ? Schizophrenia wasn't created by evil people. It's a biological trait. Also, paranoia is an evolutionary state of mind.
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Take an injection of invega then, be my guest. You will see that what I say will come out to be true. These evil people created schizophrenia just like I said.
 
It does.
  • The 5 most common treatment-emergent adverse events in INVEGA SUSTENNA® group were weight increase (15.9%), headache (11.1%), insomnia (9.7%), schizophrenia (8.2%), and nasopharyngitis (7.1%)
  • The 5 most common treatment-emergent adverse events in the oral antipsychotic group were weight increase (17.4%), schizophrenia (9.6%), headache (8.5%), insomnia (8.0%), and suicidal ideation (5.5%)
I have scattered thoughts. I never had that before. I just want to be who I used to be. And I feel like I’m fucked for good. I can’t live like this but I’m trying.
 
See I don’t understand why people who’ve never had invega think they can understand. There’s no way of exposing or understanding this unless you’ve had it.

Anyway so I’m at the doctors and my heart is fucked. And I know it’s from invega. It’s like got a double beat. When I first got shot up I had intense heart pains.

I still feel like the real me is inside just blocked. I have the memories of the old me and I just don’t have the same capabilities.

It’s hard to describe my still shattered mind.
 
BelieveinGod123 said:
No offense but I do not believe your story. You expect us to believe that after 6 injections you recovered after a year? There's people on here who have had 1 or 2 injections and still say they haven't recovered after a year. THESE ARE THE FAKE RECOVERY STORIES IM TALKING ABOUT PEOPLE
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believe what u want. imma live my best life. anyways best of luck to u all. peace out and stay strong. like with everything time and effort will prove to be helpful
 
Recoveringinvega said:
hey guys been a minute. good news i recovered fully and probably am the happiest ive ever been in my life. im a bodybuilder and im the strongest and leanest ive ever been. my metabolism is better than before. i got like 4 or 5 shots of sustenna and 1 of trifecta. last shot was june of 2023 and i felt great by may 2024. from there my body came back and i started going out a lot so life became great. during the entire time of my recovery and even now im 100percent sober. i am a heavy consumer of nicotine but thats about it. imo just wait it out. when u feel ready workout and go out and have fun. lastly stay away from psycho active substances. believe me this whole experience made me way stronger and resilient. i appreciate life so much more and am wary of my mental state. remember to pray and trust the process. i gotta stress tho that being sober and living a healthy lifestyle is crucial. i didnt have much of a social life before but having a good circle around u is extremely important. i know its hard right now but all of u will make a full recovery. apologies for bitchin in the past. best of luck and hope this helped. this forum was great btw. its all i ever checked in the pits of my misery back then.
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Thank you you give us hope.

I believe I can be fully back to myself also.
 
BelieveinGod123 said:
No offense but I do not believe your story. You expect us to believe that after 6 injections you recovered after a year? There's people on here who have had 1 or 2 injections and still say they haven't recovered after a year. THESE ARE THE FAKE RECOVERY STORIES IM TALKING ABOUT PEOPLE.
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Are you being funny or serious? Although if you are serious, it is more hilarious haha

Do you have any support around you?
 
BelieveinGod123 said:
If you have time to laugh and play games then why are you on the thread?
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I didn’t join here to complain but to find hope and recovery and to leave my recovery process so to help people in the future as well.

I think complaining is good if eventually you are recovering from this evil invega because people will find hope from you.

But what I’m concerned is negative thinking creates unnecessary pattern in our brain and I think this will cause more harm and delays our healing process.

I also complained a lot and still feels negative especially in the morning when cortisol level is high and I can’t get up in the morning because of less motivation to do anything.

I used to work out and learned muayrhai pre invega but I simply can’t do it because I don’t feel like it.

But I can enjoy movies, food, music, my libido is coming back(although not natural yet). I am enjoying this time of my life because I can contemplate more about what I wanted. My value has changed so much because of invega because I felt like I was dying and so depressed thinking I lost myself.

But because I once died like this, I feel more appreciates about the joy normal things can give us. Like drinking tea, sleeping, all the feelings and emotions, clean house, walking, being able to enjoy nature etc.

When I am back to finally normal, I don’t need any luxuries to fulfill my empty desires, because all the normal things were actually ultimate luxuries that I could afford.

I didn’t know until now how precious these normal things are. Because I lost everything once I will enjoy my life time without regret and wasting my time.

I have no ambitious dream anymore to make me feel alive. Although it sounds negative I like it now. My ultimate dream is to live just stable quiet life with appreciation about the simple things that I already have.

Life itself become meditation and happiness to me.

I just need a little time for me to heal and look back what I wrote during the fight to coming back.
 
BelieveinGod123 said:
No offense but I do not believe your story. You expect us to believe that after 6 injections you recovered after a year? There's people on here who have had 1 or 2 injections and still say they haven't recovered after a year. THESE ARE THE FAKE RECOVERY STORIES IM TALKING ABOUT PEOPLE.
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This guy
 
@stolensoul it feels good to be ignoring your content. Ignored is like I basically blocked you. I don't get bothered by what your trolling self posts. Thank you bluelight for this option. I also blocked you on instagram because I don't know who you are.
 
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