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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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Also everyone should get their clinical notes from their admissions which you can obtain under freedom of information.

Have a look what these assholes wrote about you and you’ll find so much is wrong. And they just treat everyone like an animal. They have this sick power trip in there.

There’s something about humans that like to assert authority over other humans when they have no right.
 
maryjaneforever said:
The fact that it changes music in everyone’s brain is so far beyond. Music is gods great gift to humanity since before time.
You can’t even describe to a normal person what’s wrong with music there’s just something wrong with it.

At the psych ward we just watched mtv all day everyday. Then after the injection I couldn’t even stand the sound of it and didn’t want anything to do with music. I told the nurse I can’t describe but I can’t stand the music. She translated it in my notes that I was hearing things from the tv. No bitch the music sounds weird thanks to your injection. Before this music was the only thing to save me ever. No matter how I felt. Music was everything.

One thing I have learnt for the rest of my life I’m going to keep my mouth shut.
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Music was everything to me too. Again, others have stated that music became normal again as they recovered. Have hope. Time heals.
 
maryjaneforever said:
Hey guys I’m pregnant. For all the ladies out there, you can still get pregnant. I don’t know if it will come out with six eyes and and psychopath but I’m praying the the best.

I’m 13 months off now and even though I can sleep a full night my mind never turns off, I can still hear me thinking in my sleep which I’ve had since day one. Still don’t get the feeling of tired. And my thoughts are still different. It’s like I can pin point every mistake I ever made in my life due to my frontal lobe. Every decision I ever made on emotion. Now I think about it more logically and I can even see other peoples decisions based on their frontal lobe. I just don’t feel like I’ll ever be the same.

Still trapped in my head and just this underlying feeling of weirdness which I’ve never had in my life. Still don’t really want to talk, everything I say is straight to the point. My memory is off all the days blur together like oh wasn’t it just winter yesterday? Now it’s summer again. I still get all my childhood memories coming back to me clear as day, which is the first sign of dementia.

I can definitely see the difference from six months ago and fuck that was some hell. Absolute indescribable hell. I just remember screaming get me out of this body! I was trapped.

They ruined my spiritual journey I don’t care about it anymore. Or anything that I used to like the universe space other dimensions.

I just don’t know who I am anymore. My personality gone for good. I just can’t describe it but my brain is different. So different.
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Don't take this the wrong way but why get pregnant if your not completely healed yet?
 
maryjaneforever said:
Hey guys I’m pregnant. For all the ladies out there, you can still get pregnant. I don’t know if it will come out with six eyes and and psychopath but I’m praying the the best.

I’m 13 months off now and even though I can sleep a full night my mind never turns off, I can still hear me thinking in my sleep which I’ve had since day one. Still don’t get the feeling of tired. And my thoughts are still different. It’s like I can pin point every mistake I ever made in my life due to my frontal lobe. Every decision I ever made on emotion. Now I think about it more logically and I can even see other peoples decisions based on their frontal lobe. I just don’t feel like I’ll ever be the same.

Still trapped in my head and just this underlying feeling of weirdness which I’ve never had in my life. Still don’t really want to talk, everything I say is straight to the point. My memory is off all the days blur together like oh wasn’t it just winter yesterday? Now it’s summer again. I still get all my childhood memories coming back to me clear as day, which is the first sign of dementia.

I can definitely see the difference from six months ago and fuck that was some hell. Absolute indescribable hell. I just remember screaming get me out of this body! I was trapped.

They ruined my spiritual journey I don’t care about it anymore. Or anything that I used to like the universe space other dimensions.

I just don’t know who I am anymore. My personality gone for good. I just can’t describe it but my brain is different. So different.
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Congratulations. I hope your new baby will bring meaning and purpose into your life. Pregnancy kicks up a lot of hormones and it can mess with your brain in a good way, maybe being pregnant will help.

I started thinking about stuff I used to think about a lot, at the same frequency I used to just recently about 1.5 years away from the injections. I'm feeling more of my personality.

I understand feeling different though, I do too and I hate it. I knew myself really well and I know this isn't me. I still feel like I'm getting better though. People can suffer for 2 or even 3 years from this.
 
hello update I drank white wine recently I was completely drunk I couldn't feel it for a long time that means I'm not blocked anymore friends
 
Finvega said:
I am 3 months since last injection I had two injections but I can still 100 percent feel alcohol I am drunk right now is it good sign I will recover I still have anhedonia and premature ejaculation
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I had premature ejaculation with the haldol injections, it went away after 12 months of stopping
 
Some people r of the opinion that alcohol ruins recovery
Did I ruin my chances of recovering by drinking alcohol 3 months since last injection? People tried street drugs while recovering and that didn't stop them from recovering what about alcohol I am regretful now.
 
Finvega said:
Nice what aspects r u still needing to recover?
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my libido is improving a lot I have very good orgasms, the sperm is almost back to normal but I miss this crazy excitement like before, but the emotions are still not deep like before, on the other hand I have found my sleep I feel tired now, sometimes I'm hungry
 
Finvega said:
Some people r of the opinion that alcohol ruins recovery
Did I ruin my chances of recovering by drinking alcohol 3 months since last injection? People tried street drugs while recovering and that didn't stop them from recovering what about alcohol I am regretful now.
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if you don't see it every day it should be okay
 
Finvega said:
Some people r of the opinion that alcohol ruins recovery
Did I ruin my chances of recovering by drinking alcohol 3 months since last injection? People tried street drugs while recovering and that didn't stop them from recovering what about alcohol I am regretful now.
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Alcohol wouldnt be a problem unless it became a serious habit. In general alcohol in excess is just not good for your mental health. I drank every now and then when i was recoverig from abilify and recovered fine.
 
I've moved to the countryside with my wife and two children where life is better, nature, fishing spots, I've also found walnut trees and collected lots of walnuts, I've got a big stock of walnuts, we go to the farm with the kids to see the animals, life is much better here, people are simpas smiling, nothing to do with the city, people are really simpas, people are simple here
 
I did the move with a mover, I sweated a lot, the water ran from my head, I had aches in my legs for at least 5 days but it did me good, I'm thinking of looking for work because I'm much better, I'm getting out of this torture, to everyone who stops, you'll be rewarded because we've come a long way, courage everyone!
 
fenec said:
my libido is improving a lot I have very good orgasms, the sperm is almost back to normal but I miss this crazy excitement like before, but the emotions are still not deep like before, on the other hand I have found my sleep I feel tired now, sometimes I'm hungry
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How is your sleep control? Can you nap whenever you want, on demand yet?
 
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