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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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InvegaAnon said:
Trying to listen to Thom Yorke's new band. Not sure if I can get into it though, and I love Radiohead. I'm pretty sure it's just me. I can tell that old me would've liked it.
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I'm the same with new music. Like, oh damn I would love this usually. It's an automatic comparison makes me despair tho
 
I am 3 months since last injection I had two injections but I can still 100 percent feel alcohol I am drunk right now is it good sign I will recover I still have anhedonia and premature ejaculation
 
Finvega said:
I am 3 months since last injection I had two injections but I can still 100 percent feel alcohol I am drunk right now is it good sign I will recover I still have anhedonia and premature ejaculation
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It's better than being immune to it. But yeah I think it's a good sign. Go easy with substance use while recovering tho
 
InvegaAnon said:
Trying to listen to Thom Yorke's new band. Not sure if I can get into it though, and I love Radiohead. I'm pretty sure it's just me. I can tell that old me would've liked it.
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What's the name of the album or song, I like new music? I don't get much out of it but I still want to hear some new music.
 
Finvega said:
I am 3 months since last injection I had two injections but I can still 100 percent feel alcohol I am drunk right now is it good sign I will recover I still have anhedonia and premature ejaculation
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3 months? And you already trying to get drunk? Doesn't sound like a good idea. You sound very suspicious. Almost like your a fake person who didn't take the shot or are trying to get others to drink to mess up their recovery. Maybe your psychiatrist who is trying to mess with all of us.
 
Hey guys I’m pregnant. For all the ladies out there, you can still get pregnant. I don’t know if it will come out with six eyes and and psychopath but I’m praying the the best.

I’m 13 months off now and even though I can sleep a full night my mind never turns off, I can still hear me thinking in my sleep which I’ve had since day one. Still don’t get the feeling of tired. And my thoughts are still different. It’s like I can pin point every mistake I ever made in my life due to my frontal lobe. Every decision I ever made on emotion. Now I think about it more logically and I can even see other peoples decisions based on their frontal lobe. I just don’t feel like I’ll ever be the same.

Still trapped in my head and just this underlying feeling of weirdness which I’ve never had in my life. Still don’t really want to talk, everything I say is straight to the point. My memory is off all the days blur together like oh wasn’t it just winter yesterday? Now it’s summer again. I still get all my childhood memories coming back to me clear as day, which is the first sign of dementia.

I can definitely see the difference from six months ago and fuck that was some hell. Absolute indescribable hell. I just remember screaming get me out of this body! I was trapped.

They ruined my spiritual journey I don’t care about it anymore. Or anything that I used to like the universe space other dimensions.

I just don’t know who I am anymore. My personality gone for good. I just can’t describe it but my brain is different. So different.
 
maryjaneforever said:
Hey guys I’m pregnant. For all the ladies out there, you can still get pregnant. I don’t know if it will come out with six eyes and and psychopath but I’m praying the the best.

I’m 13 months off now and even though I can sleep a full night my mind never turns off, I can still hear me thinking in my sleep which I’ve had since day one. Still don’t get the feeling of tired. And my thoughts are still different. It’s like I can pin point every mistake I ever made in my life due to my frontal lobe. Every decision I ever made on emotion. Now I think about it more logically and I can even see other peoples decisions based on their frontal lobe. I just don’t feel like I’ll ever be the same.

Still trapped in my head and just this underlying feeling of weirdness which I’ve never had in my life. Still don’t really want to talk, everything I say is straight to the point. My memory is off all the days blur together like oh wasn’t it just winter yesterday? Now it’s summer again. I still get all my childhood memories coming back to me clear as day, which is the first sign of dementia.

I can definitely see the difference from six months ago and fuck that was some hell. Absolute indescribable hell. I just remember screaming get me out of this body! I was trapped.

They ruined my spiritual journey I don’t care about it anymore. Or anything that I used to like the universe space other dimensions.

I just don’t know who I am anymore. My personality gone for good. I just can’t describe it but my brain is different. So different.
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Congrats on the pregnancy.

I feel you in terms of loss of personality and feeling different, it feels wrong. People have recovered from this though, the poison should be out of your system now at least. Healing is possible. I've seen others who stayed they felt they lost their spirituality, but it came back.
 
The fact that it changes music in everyone’s brain is so far beyond. Music is gods great gift to humanity since before time.
You can’t even describe to a normal person what’s wrong with music there’s just something wrong with it.

At the psych ward we just watched mtv all day everyday. Then after the injection I couldn’t even stand the sound of it and didn’t want anything to do with music. I told the nurse I can’t describe but I can’t stand the music. She translated it in my notes that I was hearing things from the tv. No bitch the music sounds weird thanks to your injection. Before this music was the only thing to save me ever. No matter how I felt. Music was everything.

One thing I have learnt for the rest of my life I’m going to keep my mouth shut.
 
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