Hey I got a question for you guys I am new to all this. I'm just recovering from being infuriated about the fact I was forcfullly injected with something that is so damaging and is limiting me in my life.
I was given Invega Sustenna I only had a total of three shots 1 loading shot 100mg, 1 75mg shot, and a 30mg shot. The 30mg shot was on aug 6th and I have recieved none since.
I'm really depressed and just feel off unlike I ever have from depression in the past. I have read through this forum a bit and quite honestly can't believe we live in a world where this stuff is still even available for use. My heart goes out to all those that have suffered with this poison. I have a appt. with the doc in a few days and hes going to try to get me to agree to take another anti-psychotic for bi polar depression called Luracidone. Obviously, I'm going to advocate for myself to not have to take it as it will only make the problem worse and make the recovery process longer. He may mandate I take it though. How is it that something that is supposed to help people is failing so miserably. If I have to take more anti psychotics I'm certainly going to use some words I chose not to use here.
Thanks for all the good posts and I'm happy to know I'm not crazy and this stuff is still in my system unlike the doctor says. Thats how little they understand the drugs they are prescribing. Any info would be appreciated, thanks.
Itās a depression Iāve never felt before in my life and Iāve always had depression.
Itās a deep deep sadness that cannot be described by normal depression. Itās haunting.
They said I have bipolar and tried pushing mood stabilisers on me. But they want you on another antipsychotic after giving you invega. Thatās so unfair. You wonāt need another antipsychotic after getting injected with that poison.
My advice if you can, try to get pills and pretend to take them. Take them for a few days so you can report back to the doc with how it makes you feel so you know the side affects and then stop taking them.
They tried to put me on oxcarbazepam as a mood stabiliser after Invgea. I took it for a week and it gave me double vision and dizziness like it felt like I was in an elevator. I stopped taking them and told the doc yeah itās going fine but Iām dizzy etc so he still thinks Iām taking them.
Invega has still changed my way of thinking and thought process 12 months later. It scares me what it has done to my brain.
If you look up all the symptoms of dementia thatās what invega has as side affects. Itās scary. And they say itās not to be given to dementia patients. Yeah no wonder.
Although the early signs vary, common early symptoms of dementia include:
- memory problems, particularly remembering recent events
- increasing confusion
- reduced concentration
- personality or behaviour changes
- apathy and withdrawal or depression
- loss of ability to do everyday tasks
I remember laying in bed one day just thinking omg what has happened to my brain something isnāt right.
Show me one person who will say oh yeah invega helped me Iām so glad I had it. They have no right to blow up your brain like this. No one would choose this as āhelpā.
Canāt get drunk canāt get stoned canāt watch tv or listen to music canāt feel joy never laugh again. Canāt shit. Canāt shower.
Itās also the inability to describe whatās going on to someone whoās never had it. You cannot even articulate how bad this is. When my brain couldnāt even work out how to tye the noose, which Iād done before, I knew something was so fucked. I thought I canāt even get myself out of this hell.
At the start I just kept thinking omg this is so bad this is so bad this is hell this feeling. Then I said to myself you could always kill yourself. And I went ok yep and I felt better knowing there was a way out of this hell. I felt relief. Endure it for a few more months and if itās still hell you can leave. I just had to work out a way of here. Once I had a way and I knew I could leave I felt relief, I can always leave when Iām ready. A couple of times I woke up in the morning and went nope Iām not doing this another day and went and bought a few things and said fuck it Iām doing it.
All I can say is if you feel this way donāt listen to your own thoughts. They are not you. Itās the fucking invega. I donāt feel this way anymore. Iād never felt that way before. Ever. Iād never thought about death and escaping so much. They are not your thoughts itās the fucking invega. Itās still astounds me how it did this to me. Because Iād never been this way before. Itās a whole other type of hell I never knew even existed or that Iād be capable of.
