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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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TonyTonyChopper said:
fucking hell i was sleeping and was woken up by mom screaming. Apparently a close family friend daughter killed herself this morning which is shocking, i know the mom personally and she just left to Kenya with her dad. Suicides are very uncommon in Muslim African culture. My mom is literally crying and confirming with other people. Take care of yourself everyone.
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Yeah i never been this close to suicide ever in my life. Thanks for reminder
 
Nina2021 said:
All this is a hidden hell. Psychiatrist don't even want to listen. They wrote I was delusional towards meds.
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yeah i was called delusional too after I described my inactive mind as frozen. I was cheeking risperdal, even told them it made me suicidal, and they thought injecting me with its evil brother was a good idea. If I havent improved by march 2025 im killing myself
 
Harmedbypsychward said:
yeah i was called delusional too after I described my inactive mind as frozen. I was cheeking risperdal, even told them it made me suicidal, and they thought injecting me with its evil brother was a good idea. If I havent improved by march 2025 im killing myself
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@Fanzy tells me hirudotherapy works. I doubt It, but if someone else wants to try It, let us know.
 
Youwillrecover said:
Who beliefs in God will survive this hell
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I give credit to prayer and God. This experience just increased my faith in God more. While recovering from Invega my 16 year old daughter at that time had freedom that she never had. She started hanging out. She stayed out over night. She wouldn’t listen to me. I was so messed up that I couldn’t discipline her correctly. She really didn’t want to be around me. One night I had a dream. Her deceased grandmother said that Jasmine is pregnant. I was having multiple dreams about my daughter. Her deceased father was in some of them too. Finally my daughter came home. I questioned her about being pregnant. I take some of my dreams seriously. She denied it. I had a test for her to take. She convinced me not to give it to her. I kinda broke my own rule and dismissed my dream, as just a dream. Well turns out she was pregnant. I found out before she even knew about the baby. My grand daughter will be three months in a few weeks. They give some of us antipsychotics because we are intuitive. We are sensitive. Sometimes a psychosis is something much deeper than any human being could ever understand. My grand daughter would be the final piece of the healing puzzle for me. Her arrival allowed me to heal completely. I prayed like never before. I was upset that she would arrive and I wouldn’t be able to feel anything. With her arrival came back love joy excitement and happiness for me. My belief in God is so deep. I’ve seen too much. A week before my grand daughter was born I woke up to her great grandma standing at the foot of my bed. The same person who mentioned my daughters pregnancy. She said nothing to me. She held her hands outwards towards me holding two gold rings. I still don’t know what it means. I attach the jewelry to gifts. She is giving me something. My grand daughter was born a year and one day to the anniversary of her funeral. When I say pray about this situation. I do mean it. You want assistance with healing pray with intention. God is so real. Nothing in this life is too big for him. Invega taught me something. They can inject us. They can lock us in facilities. They can block certain receptors in our brains. They can’t take our God given gifts from us. Grief pushed me into what they call a psychosis. I know so much different. I was born five months early. I am so sensitive to things that no man on this earth can explain. I had no faith after Invega. When I say pray. You have to pray your way through this battle. Sometimes I feel like I had to go through this to encourage and help other people. I am honored to do it. Now that Bojana has lost her life. I have to try and save as many people as I possibly can. I was in that mental hospital seeing and hearing all kinds of things. I was in and out of consciousness at times. When I came out of it I was in there speaking to the people about GOD and being grateful.
I was no harm to myself or no one. They could’ve gave me some sleeping pills and left me alone. I’m glad they gave me that Invega now that I’ve crossed the finish line. I was able to see how wicked this world really is. I’ve been able to help so many people push through this experience. You want healing? Ask for it. Pray for it. Thank God in advance for it. You all have every right to be free. I could tell you all a thousand stories about different things. What helped me is time. What helped me is praying without ceasing. I would drive to work and pray. I made a habit out of it. Focus on the good things in your life. Log off this site for a while if you have to do it.
You can’t complain and constantly think about the negative experiences associated with this medication and heal too. Raise your vibration by taking in positive experiences. Focus on something beneficial to your well-being. Pour love into yourself. Write in a gratitude journal. Give love even if you can’t feel it. I believe that we all can heal from this. The brain is so powerful. Nothing is impossible for none of us. I was enlightened by this whole experience. We search for everything outside ourselves. The healing starts first within your own mind. Just a few months ago I was still searching for answers. I have healed completely. I only come back to constantly remind you all that you can too. I don’t care how many injections they’ve given you. I have to pinch myself sometimes to see if I’m dreaming. I feel like I’ve been born again. I have a second chance at living.
 
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Kiaf852 said:
I give credit to prayer and God. This experience just increased my faith in God more. While recovering from Invega my 16 year old daughter at that time had freedom that she never had. She started hanging out. She stayed out over night. She wouldn’t listen to me. I was so messed up that I couldn’t discipline her correctly. She really didn’t want to be around me. One night I had a dream. Her deceased grandmother said that Jasmine is pregnant. I was having multiple dreams about my daughter. Her deceased father was in some of them too. Finally my daughter came home. I questioned her about being pregnant. I take some of my dreams seriously. She denied it. I had a test for her to take. She convinced me not to give it to her. I kinda broke my own rule and dismissed my dream, as just a dream. Well turns out she was pregnant. I found out before she even knew about the baby. My grand daughter will be three months in a few weeks. They give some of us antipsychotics because we are intuitive. We are sensitive. Sometimes a psychosis is something much deeper than any human being could ever understand. My grand daughter would be the final piece of the healing puzzle for me. Her arrival allowed me to heal completely. I prayed like never before. I was upset that she would arrive and I wouldn’t be able to feel anything. With her arrival came back love joy excitement and happiness for me. My belief in God is so deep. I’ve seen too much. A week before my grand daughter was born I woke up to her great grandma standing at the foot of my bed. The same person who mentioned my daughters pregnancy. She said nothing to me. She held her hands outwards towards me holding two gold rings. I still don’t know what it means. I attach the jewelry to gifts. She is giving me something. My grand daughter was born a year and one day to the anniversary of her funeral. When I say pray about this situation. I do mean it. You want assistance with healing pray with intention. God is so real. Nothing in this life is too big for him. Invega taught me something. They can inject us. They can lock us in facilities. They can block certain receptors in our brains. They can’t take our God given gifts from us. Grief pushed me into what they call a psychosis. I know so much different. I was born five months early. I am so sensitive to things that no man on this earth can explain. I had no faith after Invega. When I say pray. You have to pray your way through this battle. Sometimes I feel like I had to go through this to encourage and help other people. I am honored to do it. Now that Bojana has lost her life. I have to try and save as many people as I possibly can. I was in that mental hospital seeing and hearing all kinds of things. I was in and out of consciousness at times. When I came out of it I was in there speaking to the people about GOD and being grateful.
I was no harm to myself or no one. They could’ve gave me some sleeping pills and left me alone. I’m glad they gave me that Invega now that I’ve crossed the finish line. I was able to see how wicked this world really is. I’ve been able to help so many people push through this experience. You want healing. Ask for it. Pray for it. Thank God in advance for it. You all have every right to be free. I could tell you all a thousand stories about different things. What helped me is time. What helped me is praying without ceasing. I would drive to work and pray. I made a habit out of it. Focus on the good things in your life. Log off this site for a while if you have to do it.
You can’t complain and constantly think about the negative experiences associated with this medication and heal too. Raise your vibration by taking in positive experiences. Focus on something beneficial to your well-being. Pour love into yourself. Write in a gratitude journal. Give love even if you can’t feel it. I believe that we all can heal from this. The brain is so powerful. Nothing is impossible for none of us.
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thats a great message and all, but I am grateful for nothing because i'm trapped in my head with no emotions no drive no thoughts, it feels impossible to live. I never feel hungry or thirsty, I hardly have any sperm production.There is genuinly no reason for me to live. I cant be grateful if i literally do not care about anything, i am in hell with no escape.I was also given these shots in a flat state of no emotion so they basically kicked me while i was down. These people have ended my life and im only 20.
 
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