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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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MedicinalUser247 said:
You know what's funny ? My doctor asked me if I wanted to try Invega yesterday and I said no, But I did ask to be switched from Clozapine to Olanzapine because I'm sick of running out of Clozapine all the time. Clozapine comes with too many regulations. If you don't get your lab work done you can't get your Clozapine filled. It's been so annoying.
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Those crazy psychiatrists won't stop trying to poison people. Somebody must update their education and teach them how destructive these substances are. Fuck!
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
it is possible to still take medication and be recovered. For example @paranoid android recovered from invega and takes olanzapine for cotards syndrome but he doesnt get any side effects from it.
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Sounds impossible.
I took Zyprexa for two weeks and gained tons of weight. Luckily I lost it all.
This time, the weight won't go away.
Even after Xeplion, 14 months have passed and the belly was still there.
There's something about injections that makes the side effects permanent, never the case with pills.
 
You know what sucks ? I've been on so many antipsychotic meds, Over a dozen, That I now have Tardive dyskinesia. So my hands shake. It sucks when I go to smoke a cigarette and the cigarette shakes out of my hand.
 
UnluckyXeplion said:
Sounds impossible.
I took Zyprexa for two weeks and gained tons of weight. Luckily I lost it all.
This time, the weight won't go away.
Even after Xeplion, 14 months have passed and the belly was still there.
There's something about injections that makes the side effects permanent, never the case with pills.
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I gained 0 weight from the zyprexa. Well 0 fat weight anyway i did start lifting weights like a motherfucker at the same time i started taking zyprexa and managed to pack on 30lbs of muscle in about a year and a half. I don't watch what i eat either as i will live off shit like mac and cheese and down dr.pepper all day.

The invega and abilify injections however it seemed impossible to lose weight. Fuck them both
 
invegafuckedmeupmeow said:
Hey guys!!!
So I posted at 9 months off and i totally forgot about you guys. This is 11 months off loading doses 234 and 156 mg.

I am recovered 100%

I was like 65% at 9 months.

Alot has happened i went into mania then psychosis ended up in a psych ward stopped the meds ended up in another psych ward currently on an lro.

Im on 10 mg olanzapine and 900 mg lithium. It sucks but its NOtHING compared to invega sustenna. If you guys can go thru invega sustenna being on antipsychotics when ur recovered is like cake lmao. FUCK INVEGA!!!!!

So what helped me was working 6 days a week. And hiking on my weekend day lol. Gradually increasing exercise. Be as healthy as you can be.

I found out the only emotions i had were anger stress and anxiety and that was the only way i could get energy which working fast food will do for you. Litterally work was the only way i could feel something. Anyway im busy with life so im done with this post life feels so great after it being taken away for 11 months.
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Thank you for coming back and spreading hope for every one here. I appreciate you for that. I hope one day that this thread is flooded with nothing but positivity. I hope that one day we see nothing but healing stories. Thankfully guys we are off of Invega. We know the horrors of that medication first hand. Someone is probably being injected with it right now as I write this post. They will be online searching for answers. They will hop online looking for hope. May we all be the light to carry them through. What happened to all of us is like something out of a scientific movie. Like BOJANA said in one of her last posts. No one would ever think that something could take your life and soul from you. That medication darkens your world. That medication blocks all of the natural gifts that God has given us. Why would you prescribe something that blocks laughter from you. How could you give someone something that blocks love. How could you create something that stops you from sleeping properly. You can’t cry. The medication makes you feel mentally off. It’s so wicked. I believe that emotions cleanses us. My GOD it’s like a horror movie what they did to us. I had no idea that something like this was possible. I had no idea that people were suffering through something like this. I had no idea that antipsychotics are given to children as young as five years old. Those kids will never really know what it’s like to really be alive. That horrifies me. There was this movie named The Flowers in the attic. This lady abandoned her children. She met a man and hid them from him. The children were locked in their grandmothers attic the whole movie. Their grandma would send them cookies. The cookies were being poisoned. They were slowly killing the children. I believe it eventually killed the youngest one. What happened to us reminds me of that movie. I can’t even watch stuff like that anymore. The movie bothered me as a kid too. I remember feeling sick from Invega. I went back to the hospital thinking that they could give me some type of medication to fix what they did to me. I went in with a shuffled walk for the first time in my life. I couldn’t keep my arms down straight. The psychiatrist offered my mother a sandwich and some juice. She accepted that shit. The same food they gave me locked in the mental hospital. SMH. The psychiatrist asked me to get up and walk. I stood up and walked across the room. He prescribed me a different antipsychotic. I wouldn’t even take it. I read the side effects. I realized what it was. They are so evil to me. He knew that medication fucked me up. He wrote me a prescription for more. There was this guy in the mental hospital. The time came for him to be released. They said here Brandon you have to take your medication first. I watched that man take his head and bust it wide open by banging it into this nurse station counter. I thought to myself he is really crazy. Now looking back he was just refusing the medication. He couldn’t talk. He was expressing his frustration in his own way. He was so gone they would say hey Brandon are you going to take a shower today. He would stand there and pee on himself. I can’t imagine what he must have been through in this life. He had no one to advocate for him. I remember watching this lady one second she was braiding my hair. The next moment she was drooling at this table. I was thinking damn what did they give to her. I remember she had a son she was looking forward to seeing after being released. This one guy was really silly. He seemed normal. He would flirt with me most of the time. He was annoying to me. He was in there because he had a dispute with his brother. He told me that he did time in jail. He said while speeding on the freeway he crashed and killed his girlfriend and their unborn child. He was locked up for years because of it. His day came to be released. His mother was taking him out to eat. I remember how excited he was. Right before he left I noticed that he was leaning up against this counter. He was sweating like crazy. He looked strange in his face too. I noticed he was walking funny too. He had the same shuffled walk that I was complaining about. I believe they gave most of them Invega before releasing them back into society. I had no idea that they had plans on giving the same poison to me. I thought they’ll just write me a prescription. In my mind I’m thinking I won’t even take it. I remember watching this pretty lady cry because they planned on injecting her. She was pleading with the staff. They would say if you refuse to take it then we can hold you in here longer. The length of time will depend on what the judge says to you. I hope she refused and didn’t take anything. She was really young. One day while walking down the halls I noticed this lady being admitted. The lady hair was all on her head. Someone was reading her the intake paper work. She refused to sign it. She refused to take any medication either. She was forced to go in front of a judge. They made her stay about sixty days in the mental hospital. I thought to myself she is crazy for refusing and staying that long. That lady wasn’t crazy at all. She was very wise. She knew not to take anything. I was just in there being compliant. I was thinking it would be beneficial to me. I was thinking I’ll get to go home early if I obey and listen to them. Plus this guy would open my room door and stand and stare at me. He only messed with me. He was like 6ft 9 inches. He had hazel green eyes. He would repeatedly threaten to rape me like he did his daughter. He would fight with the staff to get near me. Sometimes they would have to restrain him. They would inject this grown man while he was kicking and screaming. I was around all kinds of people. Most of them were normal until it was time to release them. I was in a work meeting recently. The conversation ended with someone talking about homeless people. This high paid executive said well the problem will be solved once we get all of them on the proper medication. They are homeless because they need help. Medication will be the solution. I had to stop myself from saying anything. People just assume that homeless people are homeless because they are crazy. Maybe some of them ended up on the streets because of the medication that they were taking. I encourage this women right now who’s lost her job. She is also losing her dream home. Her marriage is in shambles. She was writing her suicide letters the day that I reached out to her. She is tapering off of medications. Her doctor just gave her a prescription for some Ritalin. Apparently the Ritalin is supposed to bring back her emotions. The system is truly broken. It is a pill for everything. My ex boyfriend best friend is a therapist. He is self employed. He said that he won’t even take a client unless they are on medication first. He worked in the same mental hospital that they had me locked up in. He assisted injecting and giving medication to people. This one day they went into this lady room to force her to take it. The lady wasn’t going down without a fight. She was knocking some of the staff out.
 
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InvegaAnon said:
I'm thinking about making a Discord for recovering from invega that is moderated better and a bit more exclusive than this thread. I think you would be a good choice as a moderator/emergency support person. I'm still not up for doing that sort of thing yet as I'm still struggling with PSSD and the anxiety that gives me, but maybe next year. :)
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I think that is a wonderful idea.
 
on the other hand since I took cold showers I have more and more morning erections or even when I take a nap during the day
 
you have to take cold showers until your chest becomes a little red for 5 to 10 minutes every morning, it's very good for circulation plus it gives a little boost of pep
 
fucking hell i was sleeping and was woken up by mom screaming. Apparently a close family friend daughter killed herself this morning which is shocking, i know the mom personally and she just left to Kenya with her dad. Suicides are very uncommon in Muslim African culture. My mom is literally crying and confirming with other people. Take care of yourself everyone.
 
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