I couldn't sleep well, I had a strange sensation on the left side of my brain like stone, this has completely disappeared, I've heard it takes 2 to 3 years to heal completely, seeing the significant improvements I hope for a 100% return, courage to all of you.Hello, it's been 18 months since I've had haldol injections, I'm really much better, but I wouldn't say I'm 100% because my emotions haven't completely returned, but it's already a great relief compared to before, my brain tells me when I want to poop and urinate, I feel nicotine when before I felt like I was smoking air, I also feel tired when before I didn't, hunger and thirst have also returned, I no longer feel like a zombie, my energy is much better, my legs no longer feel heavy, my legs no longer tremble, I no longer have violent headaches, libido-wise, it's much better, I'm horny, I've got hard erections and a good quantity of white semen that no longer looks like water, my semen has turned white again, so my hormones are fine, I'm having normal sex, I'm feeling a lot of pleasure, but it's not as emotional as before, when you want to stick to your wife and cuddle her all night long emotionally, but on the whole I'm reliving how I was but I miss the crazy emotions like before so much, I'm still hoping to get back to my old 100% self, but I received 4 injections of high-dose haldol decanoas for 4 months and 2 months of oral medication, having said that it's been 18 months without any medication it's been my worst experience courage
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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9
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InvegaAnon
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A lot of people take under a year to recover. Why would anybody be a paid actor?The fakest recovery story I ever heard.
wbga
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I’m confident I fully recovered.
Why would I lie?
I have suffered so much from invega side effects and you can check from my past writings.
I was depressed, no libido, no sperm, can’t sleep, can’t wake up, can’t focus, muscle weakness etc
Now all the side effects are gone.
Its been 7 months now and only thing I did was going to mountain everyday and try to overcome pain with my effort.
You can have positivity even when you had invega if you let the past flow.
My sperm amount is so much more than pre invega because I excercise and eat healthier and have healthier mindset than before.
I truly became a better person than ever and all the people around me feel the growth and vibe from me. I am free and meeting many new people as well.
I can totally enjoy my body and my life.
I hope you guys take action and try to help your body by walking in the nature. This really helps.
Why would I lie?
I have suffered so much from invega side effects and you can check from my past writings.
I was depressed, no libido, no sperm, can’t sleep, can’t wake up, can’t focus, muscle weakness etc
Now all the side effects are gone.
Its been 7 months now and only thing I did was going to mountain everyday and try to overcome pain with my effort.
You can have positivity even when you had invega if you let the past flow.
My sperm amount is so much more than pre invega because I excercise and eat healthier and have healthier mindset than before.
I truly became a better person than ever and all the people around me feel the growth and vibe from me. I am free and meeting many new people as well.
I can totally enjoy my body and my life.
I hope you guys take action and try to help your body by walking in the nature. This really helps.
very big guy
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Yo. I was in these threads some years ago, but I never posted. I just remembered and thought I'd share my experience as well.
tl;dr Was on xeplion for about 6 months, but was on other anti psychotics first - Started to feel stuff after 6-7 months - and recovery happend gradually from there.
I was on this shit mediaction from early 2019 to mid 2019, but before I was on another injectable, which I forgot what is called.
Total time on anti psychotics was around a year. and injectables for around 7 months ish.
As another success story, I just wanted to share that recovery will happen, even though I know very well how hard and difficult it is going through it.
I was mindlessly reading through these threads looking for people that had recovered, and saw some which gave me some hope, if I could even feel it at the time.
I got my last injection in august 2019. Was an absolute nightmare. Needless to say hanging on was hard, you become desperate.
By the time in february 2020 I was probably feeling slightly better as the months passed by, but it was hard to determine. The milestone was when I drank a cup of coffee. I actually felt the effect, which was huge.
The time after is also difficult, because the following two years I had to relearn to feel certain emotions, which really sucks, espcially with doctors trying to scare you with all sorts of diagnoses etc.
Just hang on whoever reads this and even though the halflife is absolutely criminal and torture, you will be fine as the poison gradually leaves the body.
tl;dr Was on xeplion for about 6 months, but was on other anti psychotics first - Started to feel stuff after 6-7 months - and recovery happend gradually from there.
I was on this shit mediaction from early 2019 to mid 2019, but before I was on another injectable, which I forgot what is called.
Total time on anti psychotics was around a year. and injectables for around 7 months ish.
As another success story, I just wanted to share that recovery will happen, even though I know very well how hard and difficult it is going through it.
I was mindlessly reading through these threads looking for people that had recovered, and saw some which gave me some hope, if I could even feel it at the time.
I got my last injection in august 2019. Was an absolute nightmare. Needless to say hanging on was hard, you become desperate.
By the time in february 2020 I was probably feeling slightly better as the months passed by, but it was hard to determine. The milestone was when I drank a cup of coffee. I actually felt the effect, which was huge.
The time after is also difficult, because the following two years I had to relearn to feel certain emotions, which really sucks, espcially with doctors trying to scare you with all sorts of diagnoses etc.
Just hang on whoever reads this and even though the halflife is absolutely criminal and torture, you will be fine as the poison gradually leaves the body.
TonyTonyChopper
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As some of you know , I went through a mini psychotic episode which resulted in becoming homeless 2 weeks ago for just a day then my psychiatrist found out and hospitlized me for just under 24 hours. I wasn't given any antipsychotics or any medicaiton at all because I wasn't a danger to anyone or myself and they thought I was sane enough to be released. Anyway I forgot to update you guys but 1 week ago was my 1 year mark from my last invega injection and ill be completly honest , I don't feel recovered or anywhere near it. I still suffer from tons of side effects that I had 1 year ago and feel at most 3 to 4% better which is nothing . Why have I not recovered in 1 year you ask? Well I had 10 Invega injections against my will for starters and 3 Haldol injections at the hospital. I also have a traumatic brain injury from a car accident which could also explain some of my symptoms. Serhat from here had the same amount of injections as me and he recovered in 10 months while I don't at 12 months. Every brain is different I guess but I'm not giving up just yet, I'm waiting for another year before concluding that my damage from Invega is permanent. It sucks because I wanted to go back to school this September but it's looking very unlikely as my attention span is that of a gold fish and my motivation is shot. I also got cognitive and memory problems even 1 year after my injection and 21 months after my car accident. Overall not the update some of you were hoping to hear but it is the truth and I pray we all recover soon.
Glad you hear your staying out of trouble though. I didn't know you had a traumatic brain injury. Keep your chin up it won't be permanent you just got given more posion then anyone fucking deserves or needs.
TonyTonyChopper
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yeah had a really bad car accident in may 2023 just a few weeks before my hospitalization. I had brain injury for hitting my head too hard on the steering wheel. MRI showed micro bleeds in multiple parts inside my brain and this is what I believe lead to my first psychosis , the next 2 psychotic episodes were smoking high potency weed with a vulnerable injured brain.
Damn bro life giving you fucking lemons for sure.
Update for me is im able to watch YouTube videos again. Past 2 days I've watched heaps of videos its been such a nice change off tik tok.
That's a sign of recovering for me. My brain being able to enjoy longer form content.
I'm still in a terrible mood becuase my life is ruined. But it's the small wins in the invega anhedonia area
I'm watching pedo catching videos, nice to see people ruin there lives more then me. Ahahaha.
TonyTonyChopper
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Oh I been watching youtube for many months now I don't enjoy like i did pre invega but it is better than staring at walls. Yeah your recovering at a faster pace than me, add a signature like me btw idk how many injections and at what dosage you had.
You like pedo catching videos , I like body cam videos . These people ruin their lives but have healthy brains and we are free yet bad brains . @maryjaneforever once said she prefers to be locked up with a healthy brain actually so it depends on each person.
It's hard watching people ruin there lives. But it's nice to see people do it worse then me i suppose. Knowing there are punishments more then what I'm currently experiencing.
Like jail in el Salvador as an example.
Yeah I'm recovering but I fear I might never be the same.
I do have a signature with the amount of injections I had bro.
Whats a good body cam channel to check out?
Stay strong Tony, you told me not to kill myself when this all started and I appreciate that advice even though its been really hard so far.
TonyTonyChopper
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Yeah never kill yourself. One of my many regrets is joining this website 1 month late. Had I joined just 1 month earlier I probably would have DM'd bojana and given her just enough courage and hope to stay alive and maybe even called her idk . The reason my family has been calling me crazy lately is obivously cuz I was a little psychotic and ranting about psychiatry lol but also I would tell them about bojana and others who died here from invega.
If I were to live like this for the rest of my life I still would not consider suicide and hurt my family. I often think about Mereks family , Bojanas daughters and the families of all of those who we lost here and their pain. I say i dont have emotions but I feel sadness for them but thats the only emotion i feel.
Oh I just noticed the signature. Only 2 shots thats cake bro you will heal in 4-6 months at the earliest maybe even earlier , I had fkn 13 it will take me YEARS.
Some of my favorite bodycam channels are these
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Thanks bro. Mate nothing you can do about someone like bojana. Ngl I'm still suicidal in the sense it would be much easier to be dead then to be alive right now.Yeah never kill yourself. One of my many regrets is joining this website 1 month late. Had I joined just 1 month earlier I probably would have DM'd bojana and given her just enough courage and hope to stay alive and maybe even called her idk . The reason my family has been calling me crazy lately is obivously cuz I was a little psychotic and ranting about psychiatry lol but also I would tell them about bojana and others who died here from invega.
If I were to live like this for the rest of my life I still would not consider suicide and hurt my family. I often think about Mereks family , Bojanas daughters and the families of all of those who we lost here and their pain. I say i dont have emotions but I feel sadness for them but thats the only emotion i feel.
Oh I just noticed the signature. Only 2 shots thats cake bro you will heal in 4-6 months at the earliest maybe even earlier , I had fkn 13 it will take me YEARS.
Some of my favorite bodycam channels are these
EWU Bodycam
Welcome to EWU Bodycam! Here, we post never-before-seen bodycam footage, analyze bodycam footage, and more. We're a news agency committed to delivering factual information about police procedures and local news events. Our videos aim to educate the public without bias. Our goal is to empower...Midwest Safety
Please consider JOINING for $1 a month. It *really* helps us do original reporting like this. CONTACT US: Complaints? Video submissions? Tips? Sponsorships? Collabs? Business inquires? Email our board at [email protected]. BE NICE: The individuals presented in these videos may be...Live PD with A&ECode Blue Cam
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But im through the worst of the invega. The first 3 months were literal hell on earth. It felt as though my soul had disappeared.....
Complete anhedonia but even worse like thay pure chemical castration of any feelings of pleasure whatsoever. And the fukicng akathisia. I bet bojana had some shit like that. I can see how easy it would be to kill yourself because of invega.
Lucky there are no guns in aus.
TonyTonyChopper
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you got a whole life ahead of you after you heal. You are in your 30s and mid 20s so we got a good 60 years left LOL. Invega is known to make anyone depressed and suicidal but that will pass as the medication leaves your body.
Anhedonia is one of the worst feeling ever, it robs you of what it is to make us human. I have completly forgotten what pleasure is like and I can't wait for it to be back like seriously. I think overloading my brain with pleasure for years with weed + antipsychotics fucked the reward center in my brain which will take many years to go back to the way it was , idc I look forward for my anhedonia going away either naturally or with MAOI.
Same guns are mostly banned here although paranoid android has guns probably hunting rifles those are allowed if you got a license .
I've got years of drug use to recover from to. That's half my problem. I was on dexies for the last 2 years and weed and thats kinda what started to fuck me before I had meth that turned into psychosis.
I'm living in this whole new sober reality and it's fucking very challenging to say the least
Its tragic you don't know what pleasure is anymore but I can so totally relate. It feels like i entered a new dimension or reality after psychosis. One with many very real consequences i can't escape from its tucked man. Many years will need to pass to heal this.
TonyTonyChopper
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Bro even though I know stimulants damage the brain long term I still want them . I stole my sisters concerta in 2023 and holy shit i liked it so much. Too bad no doctor will ever give it to me due to history of psychosis which means I will probably never go back to school cuz invega made my already bad attention span 100x worse.
I won't lie , trying meth was one of the worst things you could do. It floods your brain with so much dopamine and other chemicals that nothing else in life comes even close to that amount of pleasure meth gives. Long term usage of meth literlly fries your dopamine receptors and damages your brain so I pray you weren't using it for months or even years.
I think now that invega got rid of your pleasure it will bring you back to the baseline so that when your anhedonia starts to lift, slowly and slowly you will feel pleasure which will be much better than not having pleasure. Invega is still less damaging than the damage meth can cause even though they both result in anhedonia .
TonyTonyChopper
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Oh just saw you were using drugs for years. The brain has an amazing ability to regenerate , I can find you studies that show you make dopamine receptors every few years. Its not over though, just no more drug use . Some guys on here recommended to do heroine and meth for anhedonia which is pretty fkn stupid. Just let your brain heal no drugs just sober , it sucks but thats the only way we fix our broken brains.
Can you link me to these comments? Clearly not in the service of harm reduction.
All drugs have side effects, not to say that they're all equally dangerous, just that there's no silver bullet. Sometimes the side effects are worse than the benefits, sometimes the other way around. I know, for example, that the side effects of weed are a lot worse than the benefits it gives me.
TonyTonyChopper
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I have come across them when I read version 1 to this version, it happened somewhere in the middle can't be bothered to find em but it was just 2 people and I think got warned by nurse ratched from what I remember.
destroylonely
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i've been recovering a lot lately but i'm noticing i don't have interest in open-world / adventure-like games such as Far Cry or Minecraft, which i always used to. i've been playing overwatch til like one in the morning just fine though. it's like my brain can only handle fast-paced games right now. strange.
iraistired
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why is my recovery not updating 
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