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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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Ayden said:
what are your thoughts on mushrooms helping in brain recovery? I’ve been reading up on it.
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Hallucinogens for healing seems like a God damn awful idea. Personally speaking. Weed had me absolutely wigging out. I doubt mushrooms would be a good idea.
 
Ayden said:
what are your thoughts on mushrooms helping in brain recovery? I’ve been reading up on it.
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Depends on the person. Shrooms have helped my PTSD alot and i dont get any bad effects from them. However some people dont really get along with them. If you do decide to take them my advice would be to have trip killers on hand just in case. I find clonazepam works best though z drugs or other benzos will work to
 
destroylonely said:
how have you been feeling mentally?
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I'm ok. I'm clearly still emotionally blunted, but mildly. I have emotions, I just don't feel them super deeply like I used to. I only notice my memory problems when I'm talking to people. I'm having trouble feeling hatred, it's very weird because there are a lot of evil motherfuckers doing bad works right now and I should be angry and I'm not. I'm just keeping my head down and trying to make money so I can leave the US if shit hits the fan.

But I also was just crying in empathy after reading about a man with locked in syndrome who wrote two memoirs, The Diving Bell and The Butterfly. I feel creative and my mind is generating random images like it did before, I might have a form of synesthesia and it was gone for a long time, but I'm not sure. Concept/sound/emotion to image. Not sure if that's a thing tho.

I had a job interview today and I think I did pretty well. I did my best anyway. I'm talking to a beautiful and sweet woman on a dating app too. Trying to have a life.
 
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InvegaAnon said:
I'm ok. I'm clearly still emotionally blunted, but mildly. I have emotions, I just don't feel them super deeply like I used to. I only notice my memory problems when I'm talking to people. I'm having trouble feeling hatred, it's very weird because there are a lot of evil motherfuckers doing bad works right now and I should be angry and I'm not. I'm just keeping my head down and trying to make money so I can leave the US if shit hits the fan.

But I also was just crying in empathy after reading about a man with locked in syndrome who wrote two memoirs, The Diving Bell and The Butterfly. I feel creative and my mind is generating random images like it did before, I might have a form of synesthesia and it was gone for a long time, but I'm not sure. Concept/sound/emotion to image. Not sure if that's a thing tho.

I had a job interview today and I think I did pretty well. I did my best anyway. I'm talking to a beautiful and sweet woman on a dating app too. Trying to have a life.
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God the world is an nightmare. Locked in syndrome. Aka hell on fucking earth. My God. You think invega is bad then you hear about shit like that. Fuck me dead.

Good work on the job interview.
 
IOSIP said:
God the world is an nightmare. Locked in syndrome. Aka hell on fucking earth. My God. You think invega is bad then you hear about shit like that. Fuck me dead.

Good work on the job interview.
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There are things worse than invega, even though invega with PSSD on top has to be one of the worst things that can happen to you. Given the choice between invega and locked in syndrome, I'm hitting the invega button.
 
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I think this guy has me ignored. Can someone call him out on the fact that he supposedly commited suicide back in November? I don't see anyone else doing so. Lol
 
InvegaAnon said:
There are things worse than invega, even though invega with PSSD on top has to be one of the worst things that can happen to you. Given the choice between invega and locked in syndrome, I'm hitting the invega button.
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When did you get injected i cant remember? It sucks to see you still have emotional blunting. That's the main thing i have and its super scary that it's been so long and I still feel so fucking flat. When did the blunting get a bit better for you?
 
Does anyone else find it really frustrating that you can't quite put it into words yo the people around you but something just feels different? Like i barely have anything to say to anyone. I want desperately for people to understand what I'm going through. But they don't understand and I feel very alone. It's why i appreciate this forum.
 
IOSIP said:
Does anyone else find it really frustrating that you can't quite put it into words yo the people around you but something just feels different? Like i barely have anything to say to anyone. I want desperately for people to understand what I'm going through. But they don't understand and I feel very alone. It's why i appreciate this forum.
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I gave up trying to explain. They’ll never understand unless they’ve had it. Ever.
You can’t explain how your brain wants to do something but your body just can’t. You can’t explain the emptiness. You can’t explain the block.
I got a journal and wrote it down and when I read it back to myself it still didn’t sound half as bad as it felt.
 
maryjaneforever said:
I gave up trying to explain. They’ll never understand unless they’ve had it. Ever.
You can’t explain how your brain wants to do something but your body just can’t. You can’t explain the emptiness. You can’t explain the block.
I got a journal and wrote it down and when I read it back to myself it still didn’t sound half as bad as it felt.
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Yes the block sounds right. I have no desire to do anything because of the block and the empty feeling inside. Fuck this shit.
 
maryjaneforever said:
I gave up trying to explain. They’ll never understand unless they’ve had it. Ever.
You can’t explain how your brain wants to do something but your body just can’t. You can’t explain the emptiness. You can’t explain the block.
I got a journal and wrote it down and when I read it back to myself it still didn’t sound half as bad as it felt.
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When were you injected maryjane?
 
When I was in prison they locked me in my cell and wouldn’t let me out for three weeks. I lost my shit. I said even dogs get an hour out in the yard and they taunted me and were like oh u wanna go outside do you? So I just kept screaming and losing my shit. They transferred me to hospital for two weeks, injected me, and then sent me back to prison “all fixed”
Fuckin dogs.
 
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