Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

[JoshuaGuillory36]

www.bluelight.org/community/threads/coming-off-invega-paliperidone-injections-v-5-0.912999/page-225#post-15672068

Jabberwocky: "I came here just to update you guys. I recovered emotions around 7 & half months off & have been improving ever since. I feel emotions & happiness listening to music again & love finding new music or listening to old music & feeling the memories. I'm getting my motivation & energy back. I've been exercising more & feeling satisfied sometimes after a workout. I pushed myself to burn 700 calories on exercise bike the other day I burned 300 before work then was only going to burn another 200 after work to make it 500 but really pushed myself & it helped that I was enjoying listening to music so much & finding new songs that I felt the push to go harder.

I'm starting to get my motivation back again. I'm starting to feel tiredness again, I get full satisfaction from eating food, I think I might even be feeling the effects of coffee again.

My hair is improving & looking alot better now. My prolactin levels are down to 468 the normal range in Australia is 85-500 although I was fasting for other things I was getting tested & you don't need to fast for prolactin I know one of the other times I didn't fast my levels were alot higher & had only gone down around 90 whereas every other month they would go down around 200-300. So I'm going to get my levels tested not fasting also.

I've started using a jade roller & gua sha tool again & facial cupping tools. It's helping me get my nice facial features & jawline back but I definitely need to lose another 19 kgs so know that it's going to take losing more weight for my face to go back to normal. But it's good to see some improvements.
I've lost around 6kgs in 11 weeks so it's coming off slowly but surely & I'm doing it in the healthy way so it will stay off. I've been doing intermittent fasting for the last 11 weeks plus exercising although sometimes I wouldn't exercise much I'm starting to really push myself more now my motivation is coming back.
I'm not strict with the fasting & didn't even do it properly for the first month. I still treat myself everyday but I weigh pretty much everything now & stick to the recommended serving size which is not alot most of the time haha. I'm sure I would lose more weight quicker if I was stricter but I like to treat myself. I've been trying different ways to still treat myself but be as healthy as possible.

It's frustrating because if only I hadn't of put on 25kg because of invega. I can't wait to get out there again once I've lost the weight & start living my life again.
I would consider myself almost fully recovered if I didn't have the weight to lose. I don't get out much at all at the moment only every 6 weeks to get my hair cut & I'm not socialising until I lose the weight. But I'm feeling good considering & happy to just focus on losing the weight over the next 6-9 months.

I'm getting joy out of watching tv/movies again too. And I'm excited for the new season of some of the shows I like to come out especially You.

I've been working from home for 6 months now & love my job it's helped me get through everything by passing the time during the week & keeping my occupied plus it's a great feeling earning money every week & having savings. The last 5 weeks though our shifts have been cut because there hasn't been enough work which is frustrating but I was told myself & another guy are the top performers so they were giving us priority & extra shifts.

I'm getting joy out of online shopping again too but have been maybe treating myself a bit too much & spending alot haha but I do have savings which is good. I can't wait until I can buy clothes again in my size before invega.

My imagination/memories have also come back which is really helping me get through especially with not getting out as much.

My period is also regular again I get it around every 30 days now.

For anyone wondering I had the 2 loading doses 150mg then a week later 100mg then a 75mg shot a month later. Then I was lucky to be put on tablets but only took 1 then I had my community treatment order revoked by Supreme Court. I have posted updates throughout my whole journey so if you just search my username I believe you should be able to find my older posts & updates I tried to do one around every month. I was definitely suicidal after the first 75mg shot. Loading doses weren't so bad it was the 75mg shot that ruined me. I'm so lucky I didn't have to take anymore I honestly don't think I would've survived.

I'll post a more indepth update soon but just wanted to post this for now."

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

I feel so good! I'm the happiest person ever.
Not only am I the God of me, but GOD is the God of me.
Feel free to see and agree.

Peace and Love!

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

"The cost of controlling the population has many variables. Among them are government agencies who get federal funding to police the population via citizen patrol and citizen policing groups, contractors who get work from private and public sectors go after whistleblowers and complainers, criminal elements who use the technology to control their victims, and attorneys whose job includes discrediting witnesses, are the more common venues for stopping the walk of "undesirables" and "trouble-makers". The cost does run into the millions of dollars at this level. Cheap is easy to come by and it's easy for contractors to make a good living providing they use needy, poor, addicted, homeless, and lonely people as their street soldiers. That way they don't have to pay a lot to get the job done. Ten or twenty dollars or less per day is about all it takes for those who demand payment, and many people will work for free if they're lonely and need to belong to a group, or if they're angry, or bored.

What we hear from those who have been sought out to do gang-stalking, and highway mobbing has been laughable. One guy in New York who's going to college to become an attorney had been offered $20.00 a day to drive around and harass people. Shortly after he refused he began to get gang-stalked, himself. There are other similar stories about the street level pay of gang-stalkers. They may get a car to drive around in while they're ''working'' but it's often from a dealership or rental, or just a piece of unregistered junk" - Cathy Meadows, "Surviving and Thriving as a Targeted Individual" (The Cost of Control)

Information about the author: "Cathy Meadows is a graduate of American International College in Springfield, Massachusetts where she earned a Masters in Clinical Psychology. After graduating she worked briefly with Autistic Children and as a Drug and Alcohol Counselor."

P.S. "A society that gets rid of all its troublemakers goes downhill." - Robert A. Heinlein

 

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[JoshuaGuillory36]

appropriate: Suitable for a particular person, condition, occasion, or place; fitting. (thefreedictionary.com)
suitable: Appropriate to a purpose or an occasion. (thefreedictionary.com)
appropriate: specially suitable, proper. (etymonline.com)
suitable: CAPABLE of suiting, conformable, FITTING, appropriate. (etymonline.com)

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

www.bluelight.org/community/threads/coming-off-invega-sustenna-paliperidone-v-2.749358/page-291#post-14420477

deleted-user01120519 (Zack365): "@Yeshuah: my emotions are 100% back..."

www.bluelight.org/community/threads/coming-off-invega-sustenna-paliperidone-v-2.749358/page-292#post-14420553

deleted-user01120519 (Zack365): "You'll be fine, everything will come back to their prior state."

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

Yes, and everything is STILL GOING MY WAY. I'm truthful forever!
Life is so easy! I'm perfect forever! I'm always above Invega.

"Pleasant words are as an honeycomb, sweet to the soul, and health to the bones." - Proverbs 16:24

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

“Please try to remember that what they believe, as well as what they do and cause you to endure, does not testify to your inferiority but to their inhumanity and fear.” – James Baldwin, “The Fire Next Time”

“When people are behaving horrendously towards you, realize that they are sad and suffering themselves.” – Cathy Meadows (Masters Clinical Psychology), “Surviving and Thriving as a Targeted Individual”

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

Baconian Authorship of Shakespeare:

“Why, headstrong liberty is lashed with woe.
There’s nothing situate under heaven’s eye
But hath his bound, in earth, in sea, in sky.”
– William Shakespeare, “The Comedy of Errors,”
(Act 2: Scene 1), p. 9 (Luciana)

“And that the earth no more might drowned be,
He set the sea his bounds of liberty.”
– Francis Bacon, “Psalm 104: Lines 31-32”
(drowned is to be read or recited with two syllables)

Peace and Love! And GOD bless you all

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

www.bluelight.org/community/threads/coming-off-invega-sustenna-paliperidone-v-2.749358/page-292#post-14421013

Yeshuah: "http://cepuk.org/recovery-stories/

Look at number 4 of the videos, that's the video of Baylissa. She gives me a lot of hope.
She hasn't had Invega but she had Benzo's and suffered for 3 years of withdrawal.
However it's just to make you guys clear that the body is capable of healing from anything.
Yesterday I read an article from a girl who healed from a brain damage after a fall.
Everything is possible. Trust in the body's abilities."

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

I'm not here anymore, if you're looking for me
I'm not here anymore, if she's looking for me
I'm not here anymore, if he's looking for me
I'm not here anymore, yes
You're looking for me, I'm not there anymore
She's looking for me, I'm not there anymore
If you're looking for me, I'm not there anymore
Tell them all, I'm not here anymore
I come back from very, very far away
So far, almost from the dead
I dreamed we were poorer
And that our sad story was just words
But in truth, they escaped or barricaded themselves
You're going to get there, mama told me "courage Weldi"
I don't wait for love, my heart is dead, baby
I'm waiting for peace, and I hope it won't be long
I was in the hole, and you were just looking
Now don't come scratching me, keep watching (son of a bitch)

"But (who) maketh it his whole delight
On law of God to meditate;
And therein spendeth day and night:
That man is in a happy state."
- Francis Bacon, "Psalm 1, Lines 5-8"

 

[deficiT]

"They are slaves who fear to speak
For the fallen and the weak;
They are slaves who will not choose
Hatred, scoffing, and abuse,
Rather than in silence shrink
From the truth they needs must think;
They are slaves who dare not be
In the right with two or three."
- James Russell Lowell

Look, I removed the gangstalking video because this is a thread where many people are recovering from various issues and mental illnesses that deal with delusions.

You're not going to post videos trying to "prove" gangstalking real here. It is fear mongering.

You need to chill or I'll take other actions.

You aren't the arbiter of the content here. I'm not sure why you'd think it would be acceptable to post something again after you were specifically asked not to, but yeah that's not going to fly one more time.

Please stop spamming the thread. I haven't seen anyone else use it in several days and I don't think that's fair to everyone else.

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

You are deleting my entire posts (you're giving a false appearance of things... you're making it appear as if I never posted those posts, which is a way of you trying to cheat me of records/times/dates, etc.). I'm going to re-post it. And if you attempt to ban me or do ban me, I'll expose bluelight on videos. There's nothing I've done wrong. If you didn't like something in the post, you could have responded to it (the actual post you could have responded to). And there is nothing about the "James Russell Lowell" poem that's wrong with me posting it. I'm going to continue posting. You are trying to suppress freedom of speech under the guise of spam or trolling. Everything I'm doing is right. YES, EVERYTHING IS GOING MY WAY. You're not going to destroy my life. I'm in control of my life. I'm free forever! And you have no facts to base that all these people are facing delusions, instead of gang-stalking. And my intentions are not evil/wicked fearmongering. You have no basis for that.

Now I will include that post in this post:

"The following post was deleted by a moderator of this thread.
It's the comment below in parenthesis.
The time I posted it was at 4:40 p.m., August 22, 2024 (Central Time).
People talk about sex and private parts all the time on here and they don't get their post deleted.
Not only was the information helpful, and very educational, and the video from a PhD professor, and based on valid evidence and testimonies of people connected to government agencies who are largely responsible for gang-stalking, but I actually gave proof of how it relates to you all who have got the shot. I posted a quote by woman who has a degree in Clinical Psychology (proving that gang-stalking is happening and how it relates to people who are experiencing "psychotic symptoms" which are not from or caused by a mental illness), and the post "below" was deleted by a moderator after I posted it. Some of you may have been goaded or harassed prior to your injection, and therefore your diagnosis or evaluation of any mental disorders may not be true.

("...shame the devil by telling truth; tell truth, and shame the devil." - William Shakespeare

[https://]www.youtube.com/watch?v=h4w4Mh7AQdA)

P.S. I added the "[" and "]" so that the video doesn't show up and therefore a better chance at this not getting deleted.
I already saved the post after posting it--to my computer. I save everything. I use print to pdf, etc.
That's one of the ways I knew the time. But I also remembered it.

Peace and Love! What really got them angry is that I responded calmly to someone who was offended at my helpful post.
And, therefore, the so-called powers that be (who aren't really powerful) knew they had to do something.

It's hilarious. I'm submitting the best information on here. And even I keep posting testimonies of people who have recovered from Invega. I will continue to post about gang-stalking. Unless someone can prove how it's not related to Psychology, Psychiatry, the Medical Community, Pharmacy, or injections like Invega, then I will continue to post. And I will make sure that I keep providing the relevance and necessity for it to be posted.

Thank you! Have a wonderful and blessed day!

"

Above is the reply to deficiT's response to a comment of mine...

Look, I removed the gangstalking video because this is a thread where many people are recovering from various issues and mental illnesses that deal with delusions.

You're not going to post videos trying to "prove" gangstalking real here. It is fear mongering.

You need to chill or I'll take other actions.

You aren't the arbiter of the content here. I'm not sure why you'd think it would be acceptable to post something again after you were specifically asked not to, but yeah that's not going to fly one more time.

Please stop spamming the thread. I haven't seen anyone else use it in several days and I don't think that's fair to everyone else.

The post above by me was at 7:28 p.m. August 22, 2024 (Central Time)

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

Look, I removed the gangstalking video because this is a thread where many people are recovering from various issues and mental illnesses that deal with delusions.

You're not going to post videos trying to "prove" gangstalking real here. It is fear mongering.

You need to chill or I'll take other actions.

You aren't the arbiter of the content here. I'm not sure why you'd think it would be acceptable to post something again after you were specifically asked not to, but yeah that's not going to fly one more time.

Please stop spamming the thread. I haven't seen anyone else use it in several days and I don't think that's fair to everyone else.

It looks like we both win! I found a way to have the post(s) remain and you still have it deleted. Now the post is on the website and yet it isn't. If you delete what I have done now, then you're being ridiculous. And I'm not fearmongering. It's funny how everybody... is trying to find fault with me. And I'm continually peaceful, speaking freely and righteously and doing no one harm.

Peace and Love! And GOD bless you all!

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

Life is so amazing! Everything is going MY WAY!!!!!!!!!! I'm the KING forever
Everything I'm doing on this website is appropriate.
Just like I just stated "Everything I'm doing on this website is appropriate", I should be able to freely express my opinions or the truth as I always do. And I am (and I do). People are entitled... to their opinions. No need for people to suppress innocent speech or comments or posts.

And the post by me that you see on August 22, 2024, at 10:14 p.m. (Central Time), wherein I mention "The post above by me was at 7:28 p.m. August 22, 2024 (Central Time)", I'm speaking about the part in ''that post'' where I have quotations, which begins with "The following post was deleted by a moderator of this thread. It's the comment below in parenthesis..."

I encourage everyone to keep speaking the truth. I have people falsely accusing me of fearmongering, instead of congratulating me for standing up against oppression, tyranny, and wickedness directed towards individuals in society by the wicked governments and peoples of the world.

What I did and do is right and pleasing, and perfect, in God's sight.
I'm not afraid of man. "The wicked flee when no man pursueth: but the righteous are bold as a lion." (Proverbs 28:1).

"The voice of the majority is no proof of justice" (Friedrich Schiller). Justice can be, or is, another word for the phrase "what is right." Even if most people on this website think I did... wrong, they're wrong, and I'm still right. "Truth does not change because it is, or isn't, believed by a majority of the people... (Giordano Bruno)."

Peace and Love! GOD bless you all! And beware of the "tyranny of the majority."

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

I'm not just FLYING, I'm flying high, and more than one time, infinite times.



P.S. "Spamming is the use of messaging systems to send multiple unsolicited messages (spam) to large numbers of recipients for the purpose of commercial advertising, non-commercial proselytizing, or any prohibited purpose (especially phishing), or simply repeatedly sending the same message to the same user." - According To Wikipedia

According to their definition of spamming, I didn't spam this thread anytime. And if anyone wants to comment, feel free. I'm not to be punished because people are LAZY, UNINTERESTED, SCARED, BOUND, etc. and refuse or choose not to comment.

Peace and Love! Stand up for your rights, people. I'm not scared of any moderator on this thread. They don't like truth, they like lies, and they can't stand my honesty and courage. I'm more powerful and more brave than Jimi Hendrix, Malcolm X, and Tupac Shakur ever were (and tons of more people put together with them). I tell the whole truth, I don't play into the hands of the weak Illuminati or control freaks of the world.

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

Today is not the first time a moderator said things or did things that were clearly ridiculous.
(P.S. Proving my point. No reason for a moderator to delete this. It's necessary. It will benefit others to speak up or type up or post up whenever they choose to, and not worry about criticism or deletion of posts or blocks or bans, etc. )

www.bluelight.org/community/threads/coming-off-invega-paliperidone-injections-v-5-0.912999/page-246#post-15696136

Kaatrina: "Actually, the post I quoted was your reference to "sexual obsession". Imagine waking up one morning and your dick/clit felt like a piece of plastic attached to your body. Damn right you'd want to talk about it and monitor it. Perhaps you shouldn't mod "the dark side" if you're quite so sensitive.

I can see some things that were deleted because they were quoted by others - you deleted Masamune's line about psychs wanting to line their pockets. That combined with the derision of those who hide their cessation of meds from their psych (I wouldn't have been able to get off invega if I didn't do that at first) ...we can all see where this is going."

www.bluelight.org/community/threads/coming-off-invega-paliperidone-injections-v-5-0.912999/page-246#post-15696089

Nurse Ratched: Screen shot away. You are entitled to your opinion. I think you are being a bit narrow minded as of course you can say Invega is bad for you. If you don't agree with the mods that's your choice.

It's only when people say they want to kill people that we take an issue with it. But of course you can't see all the violence and kill posts because we already deleted them. A bit late to the party but that's okay."

www.bluelight.org/community/threads/coming-off-invega-paliperidone-injections-v-5-0.912999/page-246#post-15696077

Kaatrina: "I'm reading cuckoo's nest by Ken Kesey right now and damn, the name is apt. Many people in recovery like those in this thread have killed themselves, and more would have without the ability to vent here. Take it easy.
I certainly miss the old mods that actually had day jobs. These 2 NARKS certainly share a lot of attention seeking, unsolicited advice, & hurt feelings. Deleting the part of Masamune's post that said psychs just want to line their pockets? Next we won't be able to say that invega is bad for you. SS this post before it's deleted."

Nurse Ratched: "See it's things like this that make me realize that you people just don't care. Try and be nice and you spit in our faces.

One of the other mods suggested sanctions against you yesterday and I hesitated this morning and just decided to delete some threads and make a comment. But she was right.

Enjoy your 2 days off and when you come back maybe you can be a bit more civil."

www.bluelight.org/community/threads/coming-off-invega-paliperidone-injections-v-5-0.912999/page-239#post-15690685

masamune1: "You have made a mistake right here as a mod. Talking about libido and sexual problems is very relevant to this thread. There was no reason to do what you did.

We apologize if what we’re saying is too graphic or detailed but it is very relevant to this thread and the information is valuable.

I was misdiagnosed and given invega by the way. I had a follow up appointment with my therapist and he confirmed that I don’t need to continue the maintenance doses because I am not schizophrenic.

You have made a mistake here and abused your power. Congrats for being a tool."

www.bluelight.org/community/threads/coming-off-invega-paliperidone-injections-v-5-0.912999/page-239#post-15690681

Nurse Ratched: "I know you guys like to talk about your semen and masturbating constantly but we do have a sex, love and relationships sub forum.

You will recover when you work harder at it. Fresh air, good diet, long walks, not obsessing about getting high again, taking prescribed meds instead of throwing them away and lying to your Dr., obsessing over your semen, telling each other you will never recover because the Nazis injected you, and so on and so on.

Invega is a medicine that you were all given because you obviously were in the mental health system. If you ever want to put the past behind you it might be a good idea to try helping yourselves. Complaining daily to the other Invega users isn't helping you get well."

www.bluelight.org/community/threads/coming-off-invega-paliperidone-injections-v-5-0.912999/page-239#post-15690663

Nurse Ratched: "Yes @masamune1 ......talking about sexual side effects is one of the things that can be talked about but you do it every day and all day. Talking about masturbating and your semen count is fine once in awhile but you guys are obsessed with it.

And no, I am the mod here so you will have to live with it. Sorry."

www.bluelight.org/community/threads/coming-off-invega-paliperidone-injections-v-5-0.912999/page-239#post-15690682

 

[paranoid android]

You have been told to stop spamming. If you keep sppamming you will get more infractions

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

The following is my response to a moderator of this thread sending me a private message warning me.
(Still they cannot give any specific things I'm doing to spam the thread.
They are just abusing their so-called power and spatting words of rubbish.
I'm entitled to my opinion, and I've provided the necessary information to prove my points.
GOD is watching! And whatever you do, you will be held accountable for.
That reincarnation stuff (or crap) is unproveable, and so is your idea that you won't go to hell, whoever you are out there.
Neither is the theory of ANNIHILATION provable... GOD is watching, remember that, whoever may be an atheist or believe in the nonsensical philosophy of "might is right." It's not. Righteousness is what's right and the true might or power.

"I violated nothing! I don't agree or accept anything you say. And it's my right to. I don't consent to your statements! I'm free, and I do as I please, while respecting the equal rights of others.

Peace and Love! Have a wonderful and blessed day!

"

 

[InvegaAnon]

It looks like we both win! I found a way to have the post(s) remain and you still have it deleted. Now the post is on the website and yet it isn't. If you delete what I have done now, then you're being ridiculous. And I'm not fearmongering. It's funny how everybody... is trying to find fault with me. And I'm continually peaceful, speaking freely and righteously and doing no one harm.

Peace and Love! And GOD bless you all!

I think posting paranoia fuel around people who suffer from paranoia is harmful. :/ Gangstalking ain't real. Mods are trying to protect people, it's logical.

Also you sound grandiose and manic. Take care of yourself. I can tell you're not a bad guy, just make sure you don't leave reality. Ability and Vraylar are less harmful antipsychotics, lithium is also good for mania if you need medical support. If you don't want more meds make sure you have someone to talk to and go to therapy.

I hope you use your temporary ban for something constructive. You should put all the recovery stories in these threads into a Google document or something that can be shared. Make a virtual book of it, it will help many people.