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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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LookingforHope1 said:
Me either dude I am in my 30s and I knew these drugs were toxic but I thought I had no other options. I live with regret but what can you do but keep moving.

But @Kaatrina said it took her 1.5 - 2 years to recover and she’s 100% now. She had 6 Invega shots.

I can’t imagine it taking this long either but what if we get better year 2 or 3? If we throw our lives away we’ll never know how sweet it is and we’ll never get to enjoy apple pie again or laughter or appreciate the sparkle of the sun on the water or those small things that bring us joy. We gotta keep going bro I know we can do it. We owe it to our future selves to sur vive.
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Sorry to hear what happened to you, i was forced these injections, they gave me choice. im 40, so little older than you and very less chance of recovery. its over for me for sure, i cant live my life like this anymore, esp cant hang on for anther year, having nothing inside , no motivation and no sleep its a nightmare, i cant battle anymore.

How many injections did you have? I had 4 injections, its been ten months since my last injection and no improvements. its sucks, just thinking of my exit
 
nohope said:
Sorry to hear what happened to you, i was forced these injections, they gave me choice. im 40, so little older than you and very less chance of recovery. its over for me for sure, i cant live my life like this anymore, esp cant hang on for anther year, having nothing inside , no motivation and no sleep its a nightmare, i cant battle anymore.

How many injections did you have? I had 4 injections, its been ten months since my last injection and no improvements. its sucks, just thinking of my exit
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Honestly I do understand and I deeply fear that to be the case for me as well. I just have to believe and hold on because what else is there.

I did not get injections but had 9 months of pills. I didn’t need them and they made me actively worse.

A friend of mine who works in pharmacy said it’s actively known to be considered unsafe to continue these drugs past 2 weeks. So an injection is truly criminal, not to mention several.

There’s got to be something to hold onto man. Some kind of goal. Are you med free at moment? You’re not taking other APs?

Edit: also @dontGiveUp is 38 and he recovered after 9 injections and it took him almost a year or two to fully recover. He isn’t in his 40s yet but he’s close. There’s still a chance for you.
 
LookingforHope1 said:
Honestly I do understand and I deeply fear that to be the case for me as well. I just have to believe and hold on because what else is there.

I did not get injections but had 9 months of pills. I didn’t need them and they made me actively worse.

A friend of mine who works in pharmacy said it’s actively known to be considered unsafe to continue these drugs past 2 weeks. So an injection is truly criminal, not to mention several.

There’s got to be something to hold onto man. Some kind of goal. Are you med free at moment? You’re not taking other APs?

Edit: also @dontGiveUp is 38 and he recovered after 9 injections and it took him almost a year or two to fully recover. He isn’t in his 40s yet but he’s close. There’s still a chance for you.
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sorry for what you experienced. Was it invega pills that you had. I think the injections are my potent than the pills, you still might have a high chance of recovering.
Thats crazy that you got told that about the pills, and yet the carry on giving them to people esp in an injection for, now i have more fear that i wont recover
i wish i had something to live for, but my life has been a mess for a long time, this drug has us ended it all before ihad a chance to really start my life,

i am med free now, my last injection was 10 months ago. i had four all together.

i just cant see it happening to me, my body is in a bad condition due to other problems and my past not looking after myself... its over for me... i cant carry on, i really cant, its been to long for me now.
 
LookingforHope1 said:
Yes that is awful. I was never tied to a bed but I lived with abusive people who used my diagnosis against me too. You definitely can get PTSD from this. I have been officially diagnosed with PTSD several times, with trauma from this incident and other family stuff.

Trauma probably caused a lot of our problems, tbh.

Edit: I’m so sorry you’re going through this though. Is there anyone safe you can call or talk to?
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Yea only online friends. Parents constantly threat me with mental hospital again knowing the schizophrenia diagnosis is wrong
 
Nina2021 said:
Medical experts deny the damage caused by Invenga.
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true i have been to many doctors and they dont get it, they say it has nothing to do with the drug. esp when i told the doctor what i was experiencing after the first injection i had, they ignored what i was telling them what i was feeling and still carried on giving me more .It had nothing to with the drug they told me.
 
nohope said:
sorry for what you experienced. Was it invega pills that you had. I think the injections are my potent than the pills, you still might have a high chance of recovering.
Thats crazy that you got told that about the pills, and yet the carry on giving them to people esp in an injection for, now i have more fear that i wont recover
i wish i had something to live for, but my life has been a mess for a long time, this drug has us ended it all before ihad a chance to really start my life,

i am med free now, my last injection was 10 months ago. i had four all together.

i just cant see it happening to me, my body is in a bad condition due to other problems and my past not looking after myself... its over for me... i cant carry on, i really cant, its been to long for me now.
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Keep holding on man so many people here said they started to see recovery after a year or more but it took that long for any significant improvements. It’s good you stopped and are med free.

I’m sorry I didn’t mean to cause you alarm when I said that it’s damaging I was just trying to assess the damage. Even though I was on the pills we’re both in the same boat. I’ve sat here for a whole year already I don’t want to take another year or more just to recover from something that never even helped.

I was on Risperidone and Geodon but they did the same thing to my brain and I am highly sensitive to APs. I think all APs are poison.

Give it another 3 months and see if there’s any improvement. There’s at least a few people here who said it took them two years to see signs of recovery. It’s stupid and unfair and awful and traumatic in every way but what if we make it man. Maybe we can save so many more people. Idk dude I just know there’s still hope for you.

But I definitely feel you. 10 months is a long time without improvement. It’s torture to live like we’re trapped in a white room in our own minds.
 
Youwillrecover said:
Yea only online friends. Parents constantly threat me with mental hospital again knowing the schizophrenia diagnosis is wrong
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That’s awful. I’m glad you have friends, even if they’re online. Can I ask your age? Depending on your age there will be various resources you could take advantage of if you’re unsafe. But when this happened to me I just bided my time until I was well enough to get a job and move out. Keep your head down and do what you can to survive in that environment until you get find somewhere safe to stay.
 
nohope said:
thank you
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LookingforHope1 said:
Me either dude I am in my 30s and I knew these drugs were toxic but I thought I had no other options. I live with regret but what can you do but keep moving.

But @Kaatrina said it took her 1.5 - 2 years to recover and she’s 100% now. She had 6 Invega shots.

I can’t imagine it taking this long either but what if we get better year 2 or 3? If we throw our lives away we’ll never know how sweet it is and we’ll never get to enjoy apple pie again or laughter or appreciate the sparkle of the sun on the water or those small things that bring us joy. We gotta keep going bro I know we can do it. We owe it to our future selves to survive.
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I got 6 injections too and I am now on Clozapine because I can't sleep anymore. I had 2 suicide attemps. It is hell.
 
LookingforHope1 said:
Keep holding on man so many people here said they started to see recovery after a year or more but it took that long for any significant improvements. It’s good you stopped and are med free.

I’m sorry I didn’t mean to cause you alarm when I said that it’s damaging I was just trying to assess the damage. Even though I was on the pills we’re both in the same boat. I’ve sat here for a whole year already I don’t want to take another year or more just to recover from something that never even helped.

I was on Risperidone and Geodon but they did the same thing to my brain and I am highly sensitive to APs. I think all APs are poison.

Give it another 3 months and see if there’s any improvement. There’s at least a few people here who said it took them two years to see signs of recovery. It’s stupid and unfair and awful and traumatic in every way but what if we make it man. Maybe we can save so many more people. Idk dude I just know there’s still hope for you.

But I definitely feel you. 10 months is a long time without improvement. It’s torture to live like we’re trapped in a white room in our own minds.
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I dont think i can. I really cant.
I wasted 20 years of my life already i have unwell for a long time. But i got by and pulled through on my own, i feel them giving me the drug was their way of getting rid of me and deciding they didnt want to help me anymore. It wasnt schizophrenic or bi polar or anything like that, i had an eating disorder and had been in and out of ED wards for a while struggling with it, (still am) it was just this time they decided to inject me with a AP. It has ruined my life completely , everything about me has gone.

I dont know how long i am going to give it, its driving me crazy that some people have said they started to notice improvement by the 10 month mark ect, i havent noticed anything i am just more suicidal and angry. It getting worse for me.

Sorry, I just feel strong enough, esp having no feelings, no thoughts, no concentration, no personality, no motivation everything is empty and dead. I havent slept in a year
 
nohope said:
I dont think i can. I really cant.
I wasted 20 years of my life already i have unwell for a long time. But i got by and pulled through on my own, i feel them giving me the drug was their way of getting rid of me and deciding they didnt want to help me anymore. It wasnt schizophrenic or bi polar or anything like that, i had an eating disorder and had been in and out of ED wards for a while struggling with it, (still am) it was just this time they decided to inject me with a AP. It has ruined my life completely , everything about me has gone.

I dont know how long i am going to give it, its driving me crazy that some people have said they started to notice improvement by the 10 month mark ect, i havent noticed anything i am just more suicidal and angry. It getting worse for me.

Sorry, I just feel strong enough, esp having no feelings, no thoughts, no concentration, no personality, no motivation everything is empty and dead. I havent slept in a year
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I’m so sorry dude I wish I knew how to help. I’m on your side of the fence myself. My life was ruined too by this shit and I’m angry and sad and I don’t know what to do with those feelings.

If there’s anything positive in your life just please hang on to that. If anything I need to know if you ever improve because I’m scared too.

I used to write professionally and now I can hardly read or type a sentence. These drugs are fucked. But if we can improve we can help others not take the drugs.

Even if we don’t maybe we can live for that somehow. Idk dude. There’s gotta be purpose even now.

I’m just so sorry you’re going through this. I’m sad for both of us. We deserve better.
 
LookingforHope1 said:
That’s awful. I’m glad you have friends, even if they’re online. Can I ask your age? Depending on your age there will be various resources you could take advantage of if you’re unsafe. But when this happened to me I just bided my time until I was well enough to get a job and move out. Keep your head down and do what you can to survive in that environment until you get find somewhere safe to stay.
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Im 25 but cant work now due to ptsd.
 
This thread is really negative, sorry to say. We all struglle, and stories of recovery give me hope. Aydan is the best example that you can and will get better. Just keep moving forward. Im taking this battle alone, and hope to make a full recovery. Will get out of BL..
 
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