I think the disassociation is finally over for real this time. I almost felt like myself today, I felt more empathy and almost felt happy. I cried less. I did drink a third of a liter of coke zero so maybe the caffeine has something to do with that.
I opened up my art program and set up for a drawing idea I've had for a while, didn't really draw yet though, just colored/textured a background.
PSSD- I've had a tiny amount of erogenous sensation this week again, it feels like my last window except it's on my whole clit, not just one spot.

It keeps wavering, however. I impulsively tried a Wellbutrin I still had from a failed trial for new ADHD meds thinking it could somehow give me a boost, and I'm scared that messed me up a little. I have resolved to not experiment and let time and my brain do its thing.
Update: I got really mad over something dumb, totally in character for old me.