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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 8.0

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cmf77 said:
I think I'm gonna give up.I really don't think all this therapy is going to work.Im just fooling myself.There has been so much damage. I don't think even time will make me recover.Its been a tough ride for 12 months and I gave it everything I had. This is just a battle I can't win anymore.
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I feel you sadly. I am on a same boat
 
I wanted to tell you about myself
and the tragic life I've had.I grew up in an abusive New Jersey Household. Watching my mother get beat up tore my soul apart but I was too little to defend her.As a result I became a molester of other children.I also hurt other kids.When I got into my preteens I became an overweight kid and eater.I ate out of frustration and fear because my father would relentlessly verbally and physically abuse me. I felt so unloved.I got into relationships but never found it in me to be caring and compassionate.All I wanted to do was act out porn scenes and treat girls with no respect.In my 20s I stayed lonely because I felt ashamed of who I was.Eventually I met a very weak willed woman and married her.All that time I was addicted to pornography and little to no intimacy, despite fathering 4 children.Later into my 40s I grew more distant to my wife and homosexual urges were bothering.When my father died the homosexuality really started to bother me which landed me in the hospital twice with OCD about it. The 3rd time is where I got butchered by this scumbag doctor and today I have no sexuality at all.So, I'm gonna end up lonely man in 50s.Very sad ending to truly sweet guy that only wanted to be loved.
 
pricee said:
How do you feel after meth? From 1-10 scale of pleasure?
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Probably like a 6, I probably feel it less because of what the injections had done to my brain. It gave me the will to fight on though, and that's incredible.
 
Youwillrecover said:
Dude yall insane. Dont reccomend devil drugs here. Meth is poison. The only thing you want to take are shrooms and weed
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Shrooms and weed are good but I think that meth has it's place if it can be used responsibly, you can do it just once in the morning just to wake up and going and then stop.
 
Youwillrecover said:
it may be off topic but if he carries his life like that after what happened to him i dont think we have something to cry on
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You can argue that being chemically lobotomized is just as bad as some of the worst injuries and conditions that you can have.
 
trying to stay very hopeful and positive since 5 months off the poison of 2 very high doses i felt euphoric and pretty happy and pleasurable from medium decent dose of thc thank you god for giving me this experience it let me live longer it gave me a purpose in life! And hopefully this puts me in the category of ppl who have a very high chance of full recovery i bet even if i tried 3-4 months off i would still feel euphoric i think this is a very good sign
 
Maymay169 said:
How long has it been? What are your symptoms?
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its been ten months for me since my last injection. my symptoms.... I have no thoughts or feelings, no emotions, i cant think or feel. no love , care, anythings. i cant concentrate on anything eg read ( i use to read two books a week) , i cant write, watch tv, paint . i cant retain any information, its like a 3 second memory, get lost very easy, i struggle to have conversations, i just find it hard to understand what people are saying even though i give a answer i forget it in a second. I have no motavation to do anything or care. I struggle to wash or care for myself, its so hard, you know you want to do something but you just cant move. I struggle to even walk. . I have no hunger or thirst. I have lost all my personality, everything is dead, everything i enjoyed gone. And to top it all off i cant sleep, i havent slept since november 2022 that was before i had my first injection.
 
Dre87 said:
Shrooms and weed are good but I think that meth has it's place if it can be used responsibly, you can do it just once in the morning just to wake up and going and then stop.
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Any drug can be used responsibly, the recreational ones that is. Shrooms and weed are great substances, and can be therapeutic. I personally prefer LSD, it just has an ornamental vibe to it unlike shrooms. Though I did enjoy my shroomies before this injection. Wonderful experiences which had helped me beyond wonders, opposite of what invega does LOL. Luckily I'm definitely feeling like the recovery process is playing out. Great to have emotions back again (somehow).
 
Music gives me high sexual function i feel aaaa lot of pleasure all remaining hell is effect of trauma and ptsd from forced hospitalization. Im 100% i will recover.
 
nohope said:
its been ten months for me since my last injection. my symptoms.... I have no thoughts or feelings, no emotions, i cant think or feel. no love , care, anythings. i cant concentrate on anything eg read ( i use to read two books a week) , i cant write, watch tv, paint . i cant retain any information, its like a 3 second memory, get lost very easy, i struggle to have conversations, i just find it hard to understand what people are saying even though i give a answer i forget it in a second. I have no motavation to do anything or care. I struggle to wash or care for myself, its so hard, you know you want to do something but you just cant move. I struggle to even walk. . I have no hunger or thirst. I have lost all my personality, everything is dead, everything i enjoyed gone. And to top it all off i cant sleep, i havent slept since november 2022 that was before i had my first injection.
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Hello honey
You say Everything is dead at every forum. I had 3 invega shots. Now I am improving. But your “everything is dead” message scares the hell out of me. I wonder is this your spirit that is telling everything’s dead or are you a ghost residing in digital world as virus. Please stop scaring people.
 
ZainShah said:
Hello honey
You say Everything is dead at every forum. I had 3 invega shots. Now I am improving. But your “everything is dead” message scares the hell out of me. I wonder is this your spirit that is telling everything’s dead or are you a ghost residing in digital world as virus. Please stop scaring people.
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They mistake they underlying misery with invega
 
yesterday i took shrooms and im not sure if it really helped it was kinda fun and i did trip but i noticed a very strong smell of invega in my sweat the whole time hopefully it pushed some off of my receptors
 
Hey can anyone link me to stories of recovery? I don’t care as much about sexual recovery; all I care about is recovery of creative and intellectual capabilities. Recovery of personality and charm too.

If anyone could help me, I’d appreciate it. I’ve spent days scouring this thread (and past versions) for stories but I haven’t seen any.

Thanks in advance. I know it can take years. I just want to see if it’s possible and maybe reach out to the authors.
 
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