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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

lostsoulowen said:
Took you 18 months to heal from invega susstena?
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Yes. I was in the deepest state of sorrow & suffering, torment & misery imaginable, suicidal the entire time, even having bought a helium tank, oven bags, a plastic tube & duct tape. I was done,
I just couldn't muster the courage to go through with it. So, instead, I was on my way to a hospital & then some kind of home. Killing myself or going to God knows what nightmare facility. were the only two options I could see for me. Anyway, I was surely saved. LOVE found Her way into the cracks of my withered blood pumper. Broken Heart Awoken Heart, Bro! Amazing Grace, even for a wretch like me...

I had strong faith pre-Invega. It destroyed that & nearly everything else. In the throes of my woes, I railed on God, even cursed Him: How could You f**King let this HORROR happen to me?! Anyway, Christ came through, even for a wretch like me. Praise the Lord! Amen & Hallelujah! And I know, this may be difficult to hear or embrace. I'd understand people saying or thinking, f**k you, dude, and f**k God, dude. I get it. I was there, only two weeks ago, I was there. And I didn't really care. I was on my way out anyway, ready to give up & be left bereft in the filthy hands of the modern medical system. I'm so grateful I fell into the hands of the Living God instead. Wow, what a f**king difference! The generosity of Spirit He shows, Holy Moly, night & day from The Men of Industry: Big Business!

Anyway, I'll stop babbling. Sorry. Is your name truly Owen? Either way, I hope & pray this message finds You well & in good spirits. Let it Be, Lord! All the lost, I was, can be found! Receive & Believe!!!

Ciao & Shalom, Sincerely & Truly, a caring friend, Dan
 
KubiKook said:
Yes. I was in the deepest state of sorrow & suffering, torment & misery imaginable, suicidal the entire time, even having bought a helium tank, oven bags, a plastic tube & duct tape. I was done,
I just couldn't muster the courage to go through with it. So, instead, I was on my way to a hospital & then some kind of home. Killing myself or going to God knows what nightmare facility. were the only two options I could see for me. Anyway, I was surely saved. LOVE found Her way into the cracks of my withered blood pumper. Broken Heart Awoken Heart, Bro! Amazing Grace, even for a wretch like me...

I had strong faith pre-Invega. It destroyed that & nearly everything else. In the throes of my woes, I railed on God, even cursed Him: How could You f**King let this HORROR happen to me?! Anyway, Christ came through, even for a wretch like me. Praise the Lord! Amen & Hallelujah! And I know, this may be difficult to hear or embrace. I'd understand people saying or thinking, f**k you, dude, and f**k God, dude. I get it. I was there, only two weeks ago, I was there. And I didn't really care. I was on my way out anyway, ready to give up & be left bereft in the filthy hands of the modern medical system. I'm so grateful I fell into the hands of the Living God instead. Wow, what a f**king difference! The generosity of Spirit He shows, Holy Moly, night & day from The Men of Industry: Big Business!

Anyway, I'll stop babbling. Sorry. Is your name truly Owen? Either way, I hope & pray this message finds You well & in good spirits. Let it Be, Lord! All the lost, I was, can be found! Receive & Believe!!!

Ciao & Shalom, Sincerely & Truly, a caring friend, Dan
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You took another antipsychotic while recovering?
 
Is there anybody still here suffering, that started posting around same time as me? I think i started posting here 13-14-15 months ago, i just checked and most people already gone from that time.
It's like I'm waiting 2-3 generation of posters by the time i Heal.
 
lostsoulowen said:
Is there anybody still here suffering, that started posting around same time as me? I think i started posting here 13-14-15 months ago, i just checked and most people already gone from that time.
It's like I'm waiting 2-3 generation of posters by the time i Heal.
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Hey, RisperdalConsta50mg here, it’s been a while since i take a break from this forum.

I would share my 25.5 months update (2 years and 1 month and 2 week) After my last injection of risperdal consta 50mg (I only took two of them, back in July 2024).

Not recovered yet, not improved at all, things got worse, i now wake up into a shock state, like terror state with fear and 140bpm heart rate, and my heart rate very rarely drop below 100bpm even if i’am laying down.

Nothing much more happened since my last time here (if I remember right my last update here was like 6 months ago or something like that).

Teorichally i had to recover faster compared to someone who got invega due to the big difference in the half-life, but at this point i guess it’s more appropriate to talk about NIDS (Neuroleptic Induced Deficit Syndrome) or Post Neuroleptic Syndrome, as the drug itself it’s completely out of my body after such time but I have reported some sort of persistent downregulation or other kind of brain injury.
 
lostsoulowen said:
You took another antipsychotic while recovering?
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I had 100% insomnia & tried everything, first natural remedies, then OTC stuff, then milder Rx like Ambien & Sonata, then Benzos, then finally because nothing worked, I tried Zyprexa, which didn't work, then Seroquel, which gave me about 3 hours a night, then finally they added Caplyta, which gave me about 6-7 hours a night. Currently, I ditched both antipsychotics, I'm not sleeping well, but I'm doing a lot of lying down on the couch, doing deep breathing, getting restorative/refreshing rest & overall, I'm feeling good, a million times better than I was before.

Anyway, to answer your question, I did take antipsychotics, but I just went off both, the 25mgs of Seroquel I was down to & the 21mgs of Caplyta. Bye-Bye & good riddance. I'm in God's hands now; He's The Great Physician & He's SO much bigger than these awful meds. He can heal all that ails Us. We just have to receive & then we will assuredly believe in HIs miracle-working power.

I know it sounds crazy. I know it's not easy. I'm not saying God's personal prescription is the same for you as it is for me. How He works in You is your own relationship, your own dynamics, etc. This is profound spiritual sh*t. I've spent nearly a lifetime exploring the depths of the Unknown. I don't know what your story is, but you will surely be on my heart & in my mind, and whatever
I can do to assist you along the way, I'm around & I'm mostly available. I'll leave you with this, I know healing is possible in every case, no matter the cause, no matter the issues, faith or no faith.
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
Hey, RisperdalConsta50mg here, it’s been a while since i take a break from this forum.

I would share my 25.5 months update (2 years and 1 month and 2 week) After my last injection of risperdal consta 50mg (I only took two of them, back in July 2024).

Not recovered yet, not improved at all, things got worse, i now wake up into a shock state, like terror state with fear and 140bpm heart rate, and my heart rate very rarely drop below 100bpm even if i’am laying down.

Nothing much more happened since my last time here (if I remember right my last update here was like 6 months ago or something like that).

Teorichally i had to recover faster compared to someone who got invega due to the big difference in the half-life, but at this point i guess it’s more appropriate to talk about NIDS (Neuroleptic Induced Deficit Syndrome) or Post Neuroleptic Syndrome, as the drug itself it’s completely out of my body after such time but I have reported some sort of persistent downregulation or other kind of brain injury.
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That's tragic to hear bro, i'm sorry this happened to you. Your body obviously didn't handle the drug well at all, maybe because you were given the drug instantly with "cold blood" as you said.

It's good to hear from you again, I was wondering where you went.

Not much else to say other than I completely believe your experience mate, these injections are so dangerous and should be banned. Chemical lobotomy is not an exaggerated way to describe them.
 
Invegatorture said:
That's tragic to hear bro, i'm sorry this happened to you. Your body obviously didn't handle the drug well at all, maybe because you were given the drug instantly with "cold blood" as you said.

It's good to hear from you again, I was wondering where you went.

Not much else to say other than I completely believe your experience mate, these injections are so dangerous and should be banned. Chemical lobotomy is not an exaggerated way to describe them.
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Even people with psychosis or delusion report long lasting effects and disfunctions, even for years, and some of them never recover, so let alone someone completely normal injected twice cold blood.. That’s a free tiket to the lobotomy realm..

I probably already had very poor dopamine and serotonine due to severe panic attacks and i was into a very difficult moment of my life right before being injected, they hit me with all their strenght while i was completely vulnerable, it’s a miracle i din’t die, and it’s normal I don’t recovered after 2 years..

Thank you for your words, i’am waiting to get the TMS approved in order to try to force the brain to “restart”, i know that TMS promote neuroplasticity, new synapnses and connections, and can stimulate those areas obliterated by the injections.

If TMS will fail i will try with Solian 25 or 50mg, these are my best option rn, time was not enough to heal me, i need something else because i don’t want to livr like that for the rest of my life.

And what about you? How is your recovering going?
 
it’s unfair clearly it’s ruined everyone’s life here.

nervous system being wrecked dictates your entire reality will follow

body feels stiff

all sorts of pain

chest pains

etc

needs to stop and drug should be banned
 
i’m slowly dying sure we all are…

it’s death medicine

i hate it so much

my throat feels like concrete

nose blocks every 2 hours

chest hurts

everything about me is just pain

i can’t enjoy much
 
flystr8 said:
i’m slowly dying sure we all are…

it’s death medicine

i hate it so much

my throat feels like concrete

nose blocks every 2 hours

chest hurts

everything about me is just pain

i can’t enjoy much
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Invega is absolutely a diabolical drug, no doubt about it ~ Death Medicine. Let the doctors & the profession go (the abominable Psych Industry) & seek Life Medicine from the Great Physician.
I assure You, 'God' has all the remedies for the ills that ail Us. There's a personal prescription awaiting our reception. If only we choose LOVE! Receive & Believe & Everythng WILL change! Amen!
 
KubiKook said:
Invega is absolutely a diabolical drug, no doubt about it ~ Death Medicine. Let the doctors & the profession go (the abominable Psych Industry) & seek Life Medicine from the Great Physician.
I assure You, 'God' has all the remedies for the ills that ail Us. There's a personal prescription awaiting our reception. If only we choose LOVE! Receive & Believe & Everythng WILL change! Amen!
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I really wish I’ll use your philosophy this morning.
It’s got my partner and I distant I am living with her at the moment but when I get paid I can’t manage my money, so much years of these synthetic drugs it’s fried my nervous system and things, they say no money no honey. That’s a point cause she not even sleeping in the bed with me, fair enough she has reasons outside of the money. But it’s cruel cause I can barely help myself no money for 20 days is insane, same with her and I never used to be a guy to have a woman pay for me for stuff it’s even worse if she doesn’t even get money, anyway. I’m just here trying my best cause you get to see how dark life is and other people’s darkness too. I’m just trying to get my breathing back, my sleeping, my feeling of rest and ability to manage my money more.
 
flystr8 said:
I really wish I’ll use your philosophy this morning.
It’s got my partner and I distant I am living with her at the moment but when I get paid I can’t manage my money, so much years of these synthetic drugs it’s fried my nervous system and things, they say no money no honey. That’s a point cause she not even sleeping in the bed with me, fair enough she has reasons outside of the money. But it’s cruel cause I can barely help myself no money for 20 days is insane, same with her and I never used to be a guy to have a woman pay for me for stuff it’s even worse if she doesn’t even get money, anyway. I’m just here trying my best cause you get to see how dark life is and other people’s darkness too. I’m just trying to get my breathing back, my sleeping, my feeling of rest and ability to manage my money more.
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I hear you, brother. Me too, my friend Fly, my nervous system & my immune system, etc., has been under attack for 16+ years, first with chronic Lyme disease & then with Invega & the other neuroleptics I had to go on to help me sleep, because Invega Sustenna stole that from me, along with almost my entire life. So much money has been spent trying to ameliorate my many ills. I was all around this country, The US of A (Washington, California, Pennsylvania, Maryland, Arizona, New Mexico, North Carolina, New Jersey, New York City & farther north, Westchester, Putnam & Dutchess counties & also around the world, including Mexico, spending hundreds of thousands of dollars on hundreds of different clinics & treatments trying to get well. Nothing worked! Except Agape LOVE.

The Great Physician has the pure & perfect prescription for ALL that ails US!!! Everyone last One of US!!! I can't say what the specific design is for Your Life is. You have to take all your 'sicknesses'
to The Most-High Spirit of the Lord! Seek & You shall find!!! Expect answers to your deepest & most pressing questions & concerns. No matter who you are & where you are, why you are & how you are, The Light will burn the brightest in your darkest places. I had both feet in the grave & was buried six feet under. God still found me. Even amidst cursing & railing on Him for abandoning me, allowing the evil spirit of anti-Christ working in people & through people, to nearly destroy me completely. I was done! And then, a miracle came with His pure & perfect LOVE. I was healed!

Yes, even a wretch like me can receive God's Amazing Grace! Amen. And a Hallelujah too! Regardless of what you think of this message & me, I will be hoping & praying a miracle finds you well. Fly!
 
KubiKook said:
I hear you, brother. Me too, my friend Fly, my nervous system & my immune system, etc., has been under attack for 16+ years, first with chronic Lyme disease & then with Invega & the other neuroleptics I had to go on to help me sleep, because Invega Sustenna stole that from me, along with almost my entire life. So much money has been spent trying to ameliorate my many ills. I was all around this country, The US of A (Washington, California, Pennsylvania, Maryland, Arizona, New Mexico, North Carolina, New Jersey, New York City & farther north, Westchester, Putnam & Dutchess counties & also around the world, including Mexico, spending hundreds of thousands of dollars on hundreds of different clinics & treatments trying to get well. Nothing worked! Except Agape LOVE.

The Great Physician has the pure & perfect prescription for ALL that ails US!!! Everyone last One of US!!! I can't say what the specific design is for Your Life is. You have to take all your 'sicknesses'
to The Most-High Spirit of the Lord! Seek & You shall find!!! Expect answers to your deepest & most pressing questions & concerns. No matter who you are & where you are, why you are & how you are, The Light will burn the brightest in your darkest places. I had both feet in the grave & was buried six feet under. God still found me. Even amidst cursing & railing on Him for abandoning me, allowing the evil spirit of anti-Christ working in people & through people, to nearly destroy me completely. I was done! And then, a miracle came with His pure & perfect LOVE. I was healed!

Yes, even a wretch like me can receive God's Amazing Grace! Amen. And a Hallelujah too! Regardless of what you think of this message & me, I will be hoping & praying a miracle finds you well. Fly!
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I wish my issue is the holy spirit takes about a month to develop from experience i’m in early stages it take long
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
Even people with psychosis or delusion report long lasting effects and disfunctions, even for years, and some of them never recover, so let alone someone completely normal injected twice cold blood.. That’s a free tiket to the lobotomy realm..

I probably already had very poor dopamine and serotonine due to severe panic attacks and i was into a very difficult moment of my life right before being injected, they hit me with all their strenght while i was completely vulnerable, it’s a miracle i din’t die, and it’s normal I don’t recovered after 2 years..

Thank you for your words, i’am waiting to get the TMS approved in order to try to force the brain to “restart”, i know that TMS promote neuroplasticity, new synapnses and connections, and can stimulate those areas obliterated by the injections.

If TMS will fail i will try with Solian 25 or 50mg, these are my best option rn, time was not enough to heal me, i need something else because i don’t want to livr like that for the rest of my life.

And what about you? How is your recovering going?
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I’ve reached such an unbearable, stifling point—do you think suicide is really my only option? My situation is worse than anyone else's here; I was exactly 25, just about to launch my career and my life, when this curse known as antipsychotics struck me. It destroyed my intellect, drew a gray veil over my vision, and stripped away my soul—yet here I am, still alive; I think only my brainstem is functioning. I have no way out other than suicide, because I suffered an accident while building my career, and the pain of it is just too much to bear.
 
fuqrisperdal said:
I’ve reached such an unbearable, stifling point—do you think suicide is really my only option? My situation is worse than anyone else's here; I was exactly 25, just about to launch my career and my life, when this curse known as antipsychotics struck me. It destroyed my intellect, drew a gray veil over my vision, and stripped away my soul—yet here I am, still alive; I think only my brainstem is functioning. I have no way out other than suicide, because I suffered an accident while building my career, and the pain of it is just too much to bear.
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Well I don’t know.. I won’t keep living like that for the rest of my life, this is for sure.. I’am trying to get TMS, maybe reach 3 years and even try Solian, but if none of these things works, then I’am done.

I also have vision issue due to risperdal, tinnitus, my sense of touch is numbed at least by 50%, cognitive severe deficit, completely sexual castration, i can’t sleep, no strenght to even shaving or showering, brushing teeth..

And i constantly feel severe DPDR on top of everything..
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
Well I don’t know.. I won’t keep living like that for the rest of my life, this is for sure.. I’am trying to get TMS, maybe reach 3 years and even try Solian, but if none of these things works, then I’am done.

I also have vision issue due to risperdal, tinnitus, my sense of touch is numbed at least by 50%, cognitive severe deficit, completely sexual castration, i can’t sleep, no strenght to even shaving or showering, brushing teeth..

And i constantly feel severe DPDR on top of everything..
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Everything you said is same for me
 
RisperdalConsta50mg2 said:
Even people with psychosis or delusion report long lasting effects and disfunctions, even for years, and some of them never recover, so let alone someone completely normal injected twice cold blood.. That’s a free tiket to the lobotomy realm..

I probably already had very poor dopamine and serotonine due to severe panic attacks and i was into a very difficult moment of my life right before being injected, they hit me with all their strenght while i was completely vulnerable, it’s a miracle i din’t die, and it’s normal I don’t recovered after 2 years..

Thank you for your words, i’am waiting to get the TMS approved in order to try to force the brain to “restart”, i know that TMS promote neuroplasticity, new synapnses and connections, and can stimulate those areas obliterated by the injections.

If TMS will fail i will try with Solian 25 or 50mg, these are my best option rn, time was not enough to heal me, i need something else because i don’t want to livr like that for the rest of my life.

And what about you? How is your recovering going?
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I support TMS I hope you're able try it.

The pills they prescribe too us are poison.
 
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