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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

Invegatorture said:
I doing okay mate thanks for asking! I still have some issues caused by the 9 abilify injections, my last injection was about 11 months ago I think.

I still have muscle weakness, bad general/working memory, some genital numbness, sometimes I struggle to pronounce certain words and speak clearly. I forget what I am saying or want to say mid sentence often too. Defo have a few screws loose in my brain.

But over all I still believe I can improve, and I am doing so much better than I was a year ago. I am no longer totally miserable. No longer restless, I have interest in things again and can feel enjoyment and feelings of relaxation.

On abilify I would literally pace all night on my own staring at bluelight, not knowing when I would get off the shots. Absolutely fucked.

I am grateful that's over now.
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Your brain doesn't feel blocked anymore?
I'm 1 year and 4 days i feel still 50-60 precent of my brain is lobotomized
 
Invegatorture said:
It's possible it can come back, I lost the ability to feel caffeine and it returned eventually. It was so bad no matter how strong I made a coffee I would feel nothing or almost nothing.
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That's great to hear, I tried searching for info on this and all that came up were horror stories from people who lost it for years or forever. Hopefully that's rare and we're more likely to regain that ability.

It's the exact same for me at the moment after 4 months; coffee just goes down like water and doesn't get me buzzed at all. Combined with the insomnia it's like it just makes no difference whether I drink it or not.
 
I'm doing fine, mostly. Friends still haven't started talking to me again yet, but I think they will eventually when they somehow see that I have gotten a better job and I'm stable.

I am going to try to quit smoking weed, I just ordered and ounce of CBD flower. Wish me luck on having no psychosis from quitting THC.
 
InvegaAnon said:
I'm doing fine, mostly. Friends still haven't started talking to me again yet, but I think they will eventually when they somehow see that I have gotten a better job and I'm stable.

I am going to try to quit smoking weed, I just ordered and ounce of CBD flower. Wish me luck on having no psychosis from quitting THC.
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LGBT is demonic
 
InvegaAnon said:
I'm doing fine, mostly. Friends still haven't started talking to me again yet, but I think they will eventually when they somehow see that I have gotten a better job and I'm stable.

I am going to try to quit smoking weed, I just ordered and ounce of CBD flower. Wish me luck on having no psychosis from quitting THC.
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Wishing you luck ! Personally I love CBD flower and will be getting my hands on some when I get a chance. I hope everything agrees with you and you don't have any issues with positive symptoms. And fingers crossed your friends start talking to you again, I know that pain of isolation all too well. Wishing you the best of luck with everything :)
 
Invegatorment said:
That's great to hear, I tried searching for info on this and all that came up were horror stories from people who lost it for years or forever. Hopefully that's rare and we're more likely to regain that ability.

It's the exact same for me at the moment after 4 months; coffee just goes down like water and doesn't get me buzzed at all. Combined with the insomnia it's like it just makes no difference whether I drink it or not.
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Some positive news here, it was very slight but I did feel a bit of a buzz from green tea and coffee today. Going to continue drinking it (not every day as not to desensitize my receptors so I can assess accurately) and see how things improve. But all hope is not lost!
 
blanch116 said:
*drops mic*
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I don't know if our friend is Buddhist or Hindu or what so-called 'spiritual' path he's on, but sadly the language sounds reminiscent of a radical Jihadist.
Anyway, here's a little ditty dedicated to you. It's a bit playful. Let go & be free from the false light guiding you into godlessness. Peace & Much Love, Dan

 
They made my life hell 😭 didnt even apologised yet for misdiagnosis and force drugging 3 times, dw demonic psychiatrist you will have the chance in court, i will try to invite tv there. Inshallah
 
If those psychiatrist who did this to me or any other like them would create na advertisement that runs in tv it would be like: "you beat your kid when he was innocent and now you scared of him saying the truth to people? Call us and we gonna chemically lobotomise him so your demonic intentions of control can go to the rest of ur life"
 
Narcissistic parents sometimes weaponize psychiatry and therapy, using medical labels, forced evaluations, and diagnostic gaslighting to discredit their child's autonomy, control their behavior, and project their own pathology onto the victim (a severe form of proxy Munchausen or diagnostic manipulation).
Common Tactics of Psychiatric Control
Pathologizing Normal Reactions:
Labeling a child’s normal anger, boundaries, or independence as "mental illness," "hysteria," or "defiance."
Medical Gaslighting:
Convincing the child and others that their perception of reality is a symptom of a disorder rather than a response to abuse.
Weaponized Therapy:
Forcing a child into counseling not to heal, but to enlist the therapist as an authority figure who will enforce compliance with the parent's...
 
YogirisingKundalini said:
Narcissistic parents sometimes weaponize psychiatry and therapy, using medical labels, forced evaluations, and diagnostic gaslighting to discredit their child's autonomy, control their behavior, and project their own pathology onto the victim (a severe form of proxy Munchausen or diagnostic manipulation).
Common Tactics of Psychiatric Control
Pathologizing Normal Reactions:
Labeling a child’s normal anger, boundaries, or independence as "mental illness," "hysteria," or "defiance."
Medical Gaslighting:
Convincing the child and others that their perception of reality is a symptom of a disorder rather than a response to abuse.
Weaponized Therapy:
Forcing a child into counseling not to heal, but to enlist the therapist as an authority figure who will enforce compliance with the parent's...
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@flystr8 for real narcissistic controlling parents and fake diagnosis of mental ilness is well known story
 
115 days since injection . Today I could feel my anger and outburst more. I was able to tear up much quickly than the months before . Before I would need much more sad thoughts to push me to tears now I only need a normal amount and I can start feeling sad . I had more rage today . I feel the injection getting weaker . I think by November I should be good . Only thing left is nicotine buzz and weed high feeling the same . Right now they are blunted
 
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