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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

I'm finally feeling like I'm starting to heal, the brain dead lobotomized feeling in the forehead starting to fade.
5 days before 1 year.
But i also take a lot of vitamins and took a bit of nootropics, so i could easily see this stage would have taken 13-14 months if i didn't take a lot of supplementals.(Nad, Creatine,omega 3 and more)
 
I was well into recovery before I took some medication to combat muscle spasms that put me back into psychosis. I’m currently on Haldol Deconate having to rebegin the recovery process all over again but one injection of Haldol deconoate is no where near the levels of POSION Invega is.
 
Trueart2 said:
I was well into recovery before I took some medication to combat muscle spasms that put me back into psychosis. I’m currently on Haldol Deconate having to rebegin the recovery process all over again but one injection of Haldol deconoate is no where near the levels of POSION Invega is.
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Shit man thats crap to hear what happened during your psychosis? Are you alright
 
I’m still at my job teaching it begins soon I have crazy amounts of anxiety about going back while so soon off the injection but nevertheless I rather do this and try then be stuck working a dead end retail/fast food job right now. I’m operating at 45% of my usual capacity
 
Trueart2 said:
I was well into recovery before I took some medication to combat muscle spasms that put me back into psychosis. I’m currently on Haldol Deconate having to rebegin the recovery process all over again but one injection of Haldol deconoate is no where near the levels of POSION Invega is.
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I dont know I contest that, if I woulda forced myself to stay on that the akathisia woulda 100% drove me to jumping off a cliff. Man was that fucking awful actually almost the level of the abilify shot and the anhedonia is the worst with first generation ones.
 
blanch116 said:
Shit man thats crap to hear what happened during your psychosis? Are you alright
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Spiritual psychosis. I was only in it for maybe about a week( I was hearing voices for 8-9 months the first time I went into psychosis). Still that’s long enough time for them to shoot me up with medication, this time I know for a fact they cannot force me to take the medicine unlike how they attempted to steer me last time. I only have to go see the psychiatrist 3 times in 3 months and that’s the extent of my treatment plan. The only thing about this is now my entire circle around me aside from my therapist is convinced I’m a legit schizophrenic now, and I am too becoming more convinced by the day.
 
Id cut all those people out my life who want to make me endure that kinda torture. I wont even see mine again they traumatized me that badly I'll never walk in that place again.
 
fuckabout89 said:
Id cut all those people out my life who want to make me endure that kinda torture. I wont even see mine again they traumatized me that badly I'll never walk in that place again.
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Nobody knows how tortuous these injections actually are unless you’ve been on them. And it doesn’t help that the population they’re giving it to are legitimately people who without them are largely non-functional individuals at least in the context of how society is ran. The entire premise of these shots is to keep a person out of the hospital by any means necessary and the stats show that unfortunately for our fates the shots are effective at doing so.
 
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Trueart2 said:
Nobody knows how tortuous these injections actually are unless you’ve been on them. And it doesn’t help that the population they’re giving it to are legitimately people who without them are largely non-functional individuals at least in the context of how society is ran. The entire premise of these shots is to Peronist out of the hospital by any means necessary and the stats show that unfortunately for our fates the shots are effective at doing so.
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The psych ward was actually way more traumatic for me then invega shots. Fuck that place right off
 
Trueart2 said:
Nobody knows how tortuous these injections actually are unless you’ve been on them. And it doesn’t help that the population they’re giving it to are legitimately people who without them are largely non-functional individuals at least in the context of how society is ran. The entire premise of these shots is to keep a person out of the hospital by any means necessary and the stats show that unfortunately for our fates the shots are effective at doing so.
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I was actually a highly functioning person before the invega shots. The shots totally turned my life upside down and I genuinely don't know if I'll ever return to being that person again
 
Guys after 9 invega shots it feels like my life is ruined forever. I can't even sleep at night nor do I feel tired it's so weird. When you wake up you know how you normally get that satisfied feeling of having rested, well I don't have that anymore. My last dose was over a month ago on 30th June and that was the one that made things so much worse. I can't even begin to describe the horrors I'm going through. I've lost interest in everything I was passionate in, even my degree subjects. I have zero interest in anything except my faith now. Those who got less shots than me consider yourselves fortunate because there are different levels of invega suffering and I think mine is on the extreme end of the spectrum. I feel so hopeless just now. And there's nothing anyone can do to practically help me so I'm genuinely praying for a miracle. Everything in life was going well (there were problems here and there of course but nothing comparable to this) until I was forced against my will to take these shots. The whole world carries on with their lives not knowing what a blessing it is to have functioning dopamine, serotonin, and adrenaline receptors and here I am watching everyone and wishing I had a fraction of what they've got. Even to genuinely laugh once would mean something to me. Words can't describe my suffering. Nothing can do it justice. I feel like I'm not living anymore, but just breathing. What did I do to deserve this? The future looks so bleak for me, and I'm only 30. I can't even take a month of this, how am I going to survive a potential 60 years? Even one hour like this feels like torture. Nevermind an hour, one minute! Will I continue suffering like this forever? It's mind boggling how such a drug hasn't been banned by now, how the industry is just able to get away with poisoning people like this...I can't find many people to relate to in real life who've gone through this like I have, and this makes my experience even lonelier. If I had my emotions back I'd be crying everyday, but this drug has turned my heart into a heart of stone with no human emotions or feelings. This is what it means to be truly dehumanised.
 
Brendan Clark said:
Guys after 9 invega shots it feels like my life is ruined forever. I can't even sleep at night nor do I feel tired it's so weird. When you wake up you know how you normally get that satisfied feeling of having rested, well I don't have that anymore. My last dose was over a month ago on 30th June and that was the one that made things so much worse. I can't even begin to describe the horrors I'm going through. I've lost interest in everything I was passionate in, even my degree subjects. I have zero interest in anything except my faith now. Those who got less shots than me consider yourselves fortunate because there are different levels of invega suffering and I think mine is on the extreme end of the spectrum. I feel so hopeless just now. And there's nothing anyone can do to practically help me so I'm genuinely praying for a miracle. Everything in life was going well (there were problems here and there of course but nothing comparable to this) until I was forced against my will to take these shots. The whole world carries on with their lives not knowing what a blessing it is to have functioning dopamine, serotonin, and adrenaline receptors and here I am watching everyone and wishing I had a fraction of what they've got. Even to genuinely laugh once would mean something to me. Words can't describe my suffering. Nothing can do it justice. I feel like I'm not living anymore, but just breathing. What did I do to deserve this? The future looks so bleak for me, and I'm only 30. I can't even take a month of this, how am I going to survive a potential 60 years? Even one hour like this feels like torture. Nevermind an hour, one minute! Will I continue suffering like this forever? It's mind boggling how such a drug hasn't been banned by now, how the industry is just able to get away with poisoning people like this...I can't find many people to relate to in real life who've gone through this like I have, and this makes my experience even lonelier. If I had my emotions back I'd be crying everyday, but this drug has turned my heart into a heart of stone with no human emotions or feelings. This is what it means to be truly dehumanised.
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I dont want to lie so 2 years around you will have to wait to recover to good extent, @Serhat had similar amount as u and that's what he claimed, never give up, suicide is hell, we should aim to expose the abuse these monsters do, i want to but i'm still financialy dependant on abusers who dont want me to speak publicly how abused people are being misdiagnosed with mental ilness and forced max dose of antipsychotics in most of the time if im not mistaken
 
fuckabout89 said:
Id cut all those people out my life who want to make me endure that kinda torture. I wont even see mine again they traumatized me that badly I'll never walk in that place again.
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I believe in forgiveness but my my family is still abusive and cant admit they have flaws and send me there when i was not danger to myself and others so... "Those who love their parents more then me are not worthy of me" ~ Jesus
 
Brendan Clark said:
Guys after 9 invega shots it feels like my life is ruined forever. I can't even sleep at night nor do I feel tired it's so weird. When you wake up you know how you normally get that satisfied feeling of having rested, well I don't have that anymore. My last dose was over a month ago on 30th June and that was the one that made things so much worse. I can't even begin to describe the horrors I'm going through. I've lost interest in everything I was passionate in, even my degree subjects. I have zero interest in anything except my faith now. Those who got less shots than me consider yourselves fortunate because there are different levels of invega suffering and I think mine is on the extreme end of the spectrum. I feel so hopeless just now. And there's nothing anyone can do to practically help me so I'm genuinely praying for a miracle. Everything in life was going well (there were problems here and there of course but nothing comparable to this) until I was forced against my will to take these shots. The whole world carries on with their lives not knowing what a blessing it is to have functioning dopamine, serotonin, and adrenaline receptors and here I am watching everyone and wishing I had a fraction of what they've got. Even to genuinely laugh once would mean something to me. Words can't describe my suffering. Nothing can do it justice. I feel like I'm not living anymore, but just breathing. What did I do to deserve this? The future looks so bleak for me, and I'm only 30. I can't even take a month of this, how am I going to survive a potential 60 years? Even one hour like this feels like torture. Nevermind an hour, one minute! Will I continue suffering like this forever? It's mind boggling how such a drug hasn't been banned by now, how the industry is just able to get away with poisoning people like this...I can't find many people to relate to in real life who've gone through this like I have, and this makes my experience even lonelier. If I had my emotions back I'd be crying everyday, but this drug has turned my heart into a heart of stone with no human emotions or feelings. This is what it means to be truly dehumanised.
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Hey man, I feel what you’re going through i don’t know if it’s worth mentioning but I also had the same feeling as not being able to switch off or feel tired, even when I tried to nap it’s like I’d get jolted awake. I got out on mirtazapine and lamotragine and this turned that ‘constantly on’ feeling off and now I sleep I know you’ll not want more psyche meds as I also didn’t and still dont but i couldnt take it anymore.. however im not even sure if they helped it’s been 4.5 months and I started to be able to sleep more anyway.. maybe it’s just time until that feeling goes away
 
YogirisingKundalini said:
Meditate
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Bro, I can’t even sleep this happened to me last injection last year. Now all i do is tost and turn no deep sleep all night for like 10 hours the drug blocks serotonin and domaine which is crucial in sleep. I don’t know what to do, honestly - my entire body is in this mode now … how tf can a medication cause you not to sleep a blocked nose water on chest and restlessness - good news is my health care mental team seem to understand me and look like i’m going to be taken off the services - as i’ve been misdiagnosed but i swear to god i don’t know what tocdo
 
I can’t even sleep due to this medication paliperidone invega it’s got me going crazy 😭
 
flystr8 said:
Bro, I can’t even sleep this happened to me last injection last year. Now all i do is tost and turn no deep sleep all night for like 10 hours the drug blocks serotonin and domaine which is crucial in sleep. I don’t know what to do, honestly - my entire body is in this mode now … how tf can a medication cause you not to sleep a blocked nose water on chest and restlessness - good news is my health care mental team seem to understand me and look like i’m going to be taken off the services - as i’ve been misdiagnosed but i swear to god i don’t know what tocdo
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Dude using herb medicine is enormously beneficial, acupuncture, body has the ability to heal itself but still permament damage exist but doubt your received dose for it to happen
 
YogirisingKundalini said:
Dude using herb medicine is enormously beneficial, acupuncture, body has the ability to heal itself but still permament damage exist but doubt your received dose for it to happen
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Herb medicine yeah, like what … acupuncture not possible for me due to how its made me so restless last year I wasted 100£ on it i got up and let them take the needles out cause my body was like i wanted to jump out my skin, i get how useful it is. I just need to know what can possibly get me back to sleep, my blocked nose is one thing but I know this is one of the last symptoms before I return back to normal, from last time. I’m completely in a state right now cause i’m dealing with lots of things
 
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