I was here I think around one year and half years ago, I felt I ruined all my life.
Since then I regained confidence and sexual ability as well.
But my personality kinda changed after having severe nightmare like experiences that this drug gave me.
I was such a bright person with bright future plan and hope but now I became unrealistically reasonable person who think about how reality really sucks and is harsh.
I was dating for three years thinking even about marriage with this girl before this invega thing happened, but now since this happened I had to break up because she thought she doesn't feel like a woman anymore as I lost all the emotional ability and sexual ability etc.
I became older and reached 31 years old and it hits really different for me as I turn over 30s it feels like the way people treat me has shifted to bad.
I have to figure out how to survive now at this age state, and was primarily focusing on studying new license and writing novel. but I found out human can't live healthly without human interaction and I decided to meet some new people.
It is good that there are still people who are interested in me but the problem is my sexual ability didn't come back as the past. It is better of course but it doesn't heal completely, I am not sure if I can have such intense experiences like I had before.
I can feel love and happiness again but not sure how I can satisfy woman like before.
This is quite challenging actually, trying to make my life get back to the normal line and having to worry about my sexual ability. Everything else is fine, I am back to normal. Libido is fine but just it doesn't have the power like before and it is very depressing if I think about it.
I met a new girl who I really liked and it seems she also enjoys talking and spending time with me but I am very worried about the future.
I hope I had more money to keep this girl beside me longer. My future is so vague right now. I hope it goes well.