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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Do people really recover they pre-injections-self or they just reach a point where they can compensate the loss and just live a functional life?
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I am looking for a solid answer to this as well. Some people have indicated that they gradually improve over 2 years.
I have improved but my cognitive abilities, creativity, and bodily functions are not what they used to be..atleast not yet.
One thing that may remain is the perpetual trauma and stress thes injections caused in our lives. I dont think i will look at people the same way again. I hope to heal this traumatic experience along with heal from invega.
 
Idk what to think honestly.. The best thing it’s to just relax and wait (but these injections prevent the relax to be found as the sympthoms are scary and the fact not knowing if it’s permanent it’s way more scary so i’am under a circle of axiety).. I cannot not-think about the sympthoms and stress the shit out of me as every second that passes i keep noticing these sympthoms.. How can you just accept it and wait? Not even sensei could relax with this constant worry and anxiety, and tinnitus.. idk. I once had hope, until i reached 13 months and tinnitus came out my hope started to fading and at 20 months idk if i’am still alive because i have hope or because i just don’t have the balls to kill myself and i don’t want to hurt my cat by ending myself and left him alone..

This is some serious scary shit, when you are considering your whole life and what you can expect from the future.. Guys at my age build a family, drive nice cars or bike, can enjoy life, i’am at gun point and every second that passes it’s starting to be heavy.. How I endured for that long i don’t know, but i’am starting to questioning if this is even worth anymore, what should happen? I will “wake up” from this nightmare near 24 months? Tinnitus will completely fade away? My blurry and foggy vision will came back as how it was before? Idk I’’am not enough stupid to belive in something like that.. If I will hit 24 months without recovering i have to step back from this forum..
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Idk what to think honestly.. The best thing it’s to just relax and wait (but these injections prevent the relax to be found as the sympthoms are scary and the fact not knowing if it’s permanent it’s way more scary so i’am under a circle of axiety).. I cannot not-think about the sympthoms and stress the shit out of me as every second that passes i keep noticing these sympthoms.. How can you just accept it and wait? Not even sensei could relax with this constant worry and anxiety, and tinnitus.. idk. I once had hope, until i reached 13 months and tinnitus came out my hope started to fading and at 20 months idk if i’am still alive because i have hope or because i just don’t have the balls to kill myself and i don’t want to hurt my cat by ending myself and left him alone..

This is some serious scary shit, when you are considering your whole life and what you can expect from the future.. Guys at my age build a family, drive nice cars or bike, can enjoy life, i’am at gun point and every second that passes it’s starting to be heavy.. How I endured for that long i don’t know, but i’am starting to questioning if this is even worth anymore, what should happen? I will “wake up” from this nightmare near 24 months? Tinnitus will completely fade away? My blurry and foggy vision will came back as how it was before? Idk I’’am not enough stupid to belive in something like that.. If I will hit 24 months without recovering i have to step back from this forum..
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What if you sit down for some time with your eyes closed and not think about anything? Does that help give you a break or relax for a bit?
 
The worst thing could happen to us was invega, I really decided to give up and not wait more than maximum 2 weeks to stay, I can’t live like an idiot and I know I won’t be a same person , witty and super happy so why not let’s just die
 
moerez said:
The worst thing could happen to us was invega, I really decided to give up and not wait more than maximum 2 weeks to stay, I can’t live like an idiot and I know I won’t be a same person , witty and super happy so why not let’s just die
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It only been 6 months hang in there
 
paranoid android said:
It only been 6 months hang in there
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I had a wet dream and guess what, for second time no orgasm or semen got out, I’m literally infertile now, I could have orgasm before those Prozac I took, but now nothing, I’m done seriously i can’t live like this no way I live like this
 
moerez said:
My pssd make my penis like noodle , like fuck this shit I don’t wanna live without sexuality , who wants to live without dick? And you still saying to not give up like fuck that
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Holding on for a few years is better than dying. I had it worse than you.
 
InvegaAnon said:
Holding on for a few years is better than dying. I had it worse than you.
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If I don’t become a same person that I was, what’s the point of living? Being handicapped and no dick and waiting for years to see if you can have sexuality? Some of you guys wanna live in any situation ? Like you don’t care if you have no emotion or sexuality or creativity or blank mind, insomnia, random tremors and etc? I don’t even remember what happend 2 days ago , my memory is fucked, living with this situation is worse than hell, death is way better in this case than living like a subhuman , after years you just forgot who you were , it doesn’t get better
 
moerez said:
If I don’t become a same person that I was, what’s the point of living? Being handicapped and no dick and waiting for years to see if you can have sexuality? Some of you guys wanna live in any situation ? Like you don’t care if you have no emotion or sexuality or creativity or blank mind, insomnia, random tremors and etc? I don’t even remember what happend 2 days ago , my memory is fucked, living with this situation is worse than hell, death is way better in this case than living like a subhuman , after years you just forgot who you were , it doesn’t get better
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Your memory is bad because you do the same thing everyday, you’re doing nothing that’s memorable. There’s people your age who are celibate or have never been in a relationship before, sex isn’t the only thing in life? InvegaAnon had PSSD and is telling you it gets better but you still tell everyone trying to help you it’s pointless. It hasn’t been that long for you, you can’t just throw away your life because things have gotten a little bit hard for once. You NEED to go and do something to stimulate yourself, and it has to be a consistent thing. You can’t just try once or twice and give up because it didn’t help instantly.
 
Your mental state affects your sexuality more than you realize. It’s not impossible that Prozac caused some symptoms, but if you’re sitting around all day thinking about suicide how are you going to feel aroused….
 
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