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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

My OCD is hitting me harder than it ever has before, I hate it.

HEY IF YOU THINK NOBODY HEALS FROM THIS, GO FUCK YOURSELF. INSISTING NO ONE CAN POSSIBLY GO BACK TO NORMAL IS KILLING PEOPLE. IT. IS. KILLING. PEOPLE. STOP IT. STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT. FUCK OFF.
 
Abilify2mg said:
canadian , my sister makes 80k and barley gets by with 3 kids but I make 50k single so its enough for me tbh i was already living just fine at 1200 a month i spent 300 on bills and the rest on food but now i will be able to save up more , pay off debt and possibly travel later on. I just wish my anhedonia goes away this year 😞
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Just keep praying babe.
 
Worst thing is we never know why some people react really good to the poison and some so severe , I gotta hang on 6 more months with shitty sleep and condition, pray for me to not lose my mind because I’m really suicidal because of akathesia and anhedonia together. I just gotta keep up 3 more months
 
Since the injections, my ability to see clearly in dimly lit environments has been compromised. Since then, in dimly lit environments, I have blurry vision and can't distinguish things as clearly as before the injections. For the past four days, this phenomenon has extended to darker shades of objects (black, dark blue, dark gray, etc.). Is it possible that I'm experiencing vision loss?
 
Guys, I think I finally found something that helps.

For the past 13 months I’ve been dealing with severe anhedonia. I tried many different substances, but none of them really worked. The only thing that had a slight effect was ecstasy, which gave me a mild anxiolytic feeling.

Recently, I learned that some people microdose ketamine to cope with intense anhedonia. I decided to try it, and honestly — it actually helped.

After more than a year of feeling nothing, it was the first time something noticeably alleviated the feeling. At first I kept redosing because I wanted to maximize the effect, but I realized that was a mistake. Much smaller amounts, spaced out, seem to work better.
For now, it feels like I finally found something that can help me cope with the anhedonia.
(I come from 4 injections of xeplion)
 
squoshy said:
Guys, I think I finally found something that helps.

For the past 13 months I’ve been dealing with severe anhedonia. I tried many different substances, but none of them really worked. The only thing that had a slight effect was ecstasy, which gave me a mild anxiolytic feeling.

Recently, I learned that some people microdose ketamine to cope with intense anhedonia. I decided to try it, and honestly — it actually helped.

After more than a year of feeling nothing, it was the first time something noticeably alleviated the feeling. At first I kept redosing because I wanted to maximize the effect, but I realized that was a mistake. Much smaller amounts, spaced out, seem to work better.
For now, it feels like I finally found something that can help me cope with the anhedonia.
(I come from 4 injections of xeplion)
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Did you try stimulant and dopamine agonist like cabergoline and vyvanse?
 
squoshy said:
Guys, I think I finally found something that helps.

For the past 13 months I’ve been dealing with severe anhedonia. I tried many different substances, but none of them really worked. The only thing that had a slight effect was ecstasy, which gave me a mild anxiolytic feeling.

Recently, I learned that some people microdose ketamine to cope with intense anhedonia. I decided to try it, and honestly — it actually helped.

After more than a year of feeling nothing, it was the first time something noticeably alleviated the feeling. At first I kept redosing because I wanted to maximize the effect, but I realized that was a mistake. Much smaller amounts, spaced out, seem to work better.
For now, it feels like I finally found something that can help me cope with the anhedonia.
(I come from 4 injections of xeplion)
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is this street ketamine or legal ketamine and where did u get it?

no chance im touching anything from the streets and OD on fent or some shit
 
street ketamine is usually pure, and it’s very rare for it to be mixed with fentanyl. I know the risks, but at this point, I’d rather take the chance than continue living with this anhedonia
 
squoshy said:
street ketamine is usually pure, and it’s very rare for it to be mixed with fentanyl. I know the risks, but at this point, I’d rather take the chance than continue living with this anhedonia
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In my experience ket is usually not cut. HOWEVER a word of caution that anything can be cut with fent these days so id suggest getting a test kit from the needle exchange if they have any in your area.

I took s ket about a year ago and it really helped my PTSD alot. S ket s so much better then regular ket to way more psychedelic and you go right down the k hole. I thought i was the only person on the planet for awile and that was weird. It's a very primitive feeling high thats the only way i can eplain t.

Dont ovreruse ket though or you will piss blood
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
The pressure feels like if a machine is crushing the skull to the outside from the inside in both right and left direction and also in the upper head, just awesome.. How they managed to did all this at once it’s a miracle of biochemical.
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I have it right now maybe those fucking poisons caused idiopathic intracranial hipertension basically it is If you have increased cerebrospinal fluid and brain edema, which is very likely, it causes pressure on the membranes under your skull. You can use Diamox, but it has quite a few side effects.
 
squoshy said:
Guys, I think I finally found something that helps.

For the past 13 months I’ve been dealing with severe anhedonia. I tried many different substances, but none of them really worked. The only thing that had a slight effect was ecstasy, which gave me a mild anxiolytic feeling.

Recently, I learned that some people microdose ketamine to cope with intense anhedonia. I decided to try it, and honestly — it actually helped.

After more than a year of feeling nothing, it was the first time something noticeably alleviated the feeling. At first I kept redosing because I wanted to maximize the effect, but I realized that was a mistake. Much smaller amounts, spaced out, seem to work better.
For now, it feels like I finally found something that can help me cope with the anhedonia.
(I come from 4 injections of xeplion)
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You still have anhedonia after 13 months? Holy shit, I barely can fucking survive with anhedonia for next months, fuck me my faith is dying for god sake, I cant believe how easily I have to die, and I dont know how people can live a year with anhedonia but im really not that strong to be like this for 13months
Anhedonia,pssd,akathesia,emotional blunting, there are many reasons for me to finish it idk why am i still here and why this happend to me
 
moerez said:
You still have anhedonia after 13 months? Holy shit, I barely can fucking survive with anhedonia for next months, fuck me my faith is dying for god sake, I cant believe how easily I have to die, and I dont know how people can live a year with anhedonia but im really not that strong to be like this for 13months
Anhedonia,pssd,akathesia,emotional blunting, there are many reasons for me to finish it idk why am i still here and why this happend to me
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Dude i took a year to recover hang in there
 
Abilify2mg said:
is this street ketamine or legal ketamine and where did u get it?

no chance im touching anything from the streets and OD on fent or some shit
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You can get it in clinics and there are some mail order therapy kits. You can have esketamine nasal spray for depression.
 
InvegaAnon said:
You can get it in clinics and there are some mail order therapy kits. You can have esketamine nasal spray for depression.
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Ya esketamine or s ketamine is what i had. I would never go back to regular k after trying that its so much better. Def improves mood and helped my PTSD
 
paranoid android said:
Dude i took a year to recover hang in there
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You already had signs of recovery at month 3, it’s so fucking hard dude to cope with this anhedonia sexual dysfunction emotional blunting and all that shit together without improvement, like am I robot? How can I deal with all of these problems at the same time ffs
 
moerez said:
You already had signs of recovery at month 3, it’s so fucking hard dude to cope with this anhedonia sexual dysfunction emotional blunting and all that shit together without improvement, like am I robot? How can I deal with all of these problems at the same time ffs
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Yes i did but i was still getting symptoms a year later. How many months are you off now? Just hang in there dude youl be ok
 
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