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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v 12

anonymoususer777 said:
He sent a message to some users on fb saying he had swallowed poison, i dont know if he was rescued in time.
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That is so fucked up, i told him at least wait until 8 months then im down to do it too, fuck i guess i will be the next:( the only good thing is i started exercising to see if any changes gonna occur or no, because i cant take this shit anymore its getting so hard and on top of that i have pssd as well which is the worst thing for 25 years old guy,
 
demileigh said:
My bad for the late reply! Haven’t been on BL for a while but am checking in now.
I’ve lost a few kilos but haven’t lost all the weight gained on invega though I am on weight loss medication.
Empathy is back to normal now.
Emotions back to normal though every now and then I feel numb. Haven’t done much creative stuff but will let you know how I go when I do. Imagination is same as pre-invega. All is well with me, I just miss smoking weed like I did before invega
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How is your drive/ ambition?
 
anonymoususer777 said:
How is your drive/ ambition?
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Yeah it’s all good. Like the only thing stopping me from going back to my studies that I had to take a break from because of invega is that the intake isn’t until July so I’m sort of just kicking rocks bored out of my mind waiting tho i have been applying for some jobs hoping to find something casual to kill time between now and then. There was times where I wondered if I was ever going to be okay enough to go back to my studies or work and now I’m more than confident to get back to it.
I do feel like the bupropion in the weight loss medication has helped me, the whole experience of being injected w invega and the hell of coming off it is depressing as fuck so the best advice I have is take supplements, look into nootropics, focus on self care, eat healthy and exercise as much as you’re able to but more than anything be positive! Brain plasticity is real so the moment anything negative enters your mind, replace it with positive thoughts and positive affirmations to build new neural pathways… the last thing you need when you’re healing from anything is negativity so make sure you’re not being your own worst enemy and avoid people who are negative and are trying to spread their disease.
 
demileigh said:
Yeah it’s all good. Like the only thing stopping me from going back to my studies that I had to take a break from because of invega is that the intake isn’t until July so I’m sort of just kicking rocks bored out of my mind waiting tho i have been applying for some jobs hoping to find something casual to kill time between now and then. There was times where I wondered if I was ever going to be okay enough to go back to my studies or work and now I’m more than confident to get back to it.
I do feel like the bupropion in the weight loss medication has helped me, the whole experience of being injected w invega and the hell of coming off it is depressing as fuck so the best advice I have is take supplements, look into nootropics, focus on self care, eat healthy and exercise as much as you’re able to but more than anything be positive! Brain plasticity is real so the moment anything negative enters your mind, replace it with positive thoughts and positive affirmations to build new neural pathways… the last thing you need when you’re healing from anything is negativity so make sure you’re not being your own worst enemy and avoid people who are negative and are trying to spread their disease.
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you had a lucky recovery i envy you :( i wish my recovery was like u, but im trying to exercise to see if it makes any difference
 
moerez said:
you had a lucky recovery i envy you :( i wish my recovery was like u, but im trying to exercise to see if it makes any difference
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Maybe it’s luck but I also worked hard for it, in so many way’s I tried to help myself and never let giving up be an option. Exercise can only do good for you and as with anything you can’t expect instant results, you have to stay consistent and be resilient through the process.
 
demileigh said:
Maybe it’s luck but I also worked hard for it, in so many way’s I tried to help myself and never let giving up be an option. Exercise can only do good for you and as with anything you can’t expect instant results, you have to stay consistent and be resilient through the process.
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The worst thing you can go through is anhedonia, its like you dont know what to do with your day and everyday is shitty , that makes me crazy
 
demileigh said:
Everything is sweet here 😊 hope you have a speedy recovery @Trueart2 ✨
Can you recommend me some anime plz 🙏 I have Netflix and crunchyroll
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Spy X Family: Continuous but episodic in nature, good for 1-2 episodes a night. Doesn’t require a high commitment, tailored towards Girls + family setting. A tier show

Demon slayer: Dude slays demons with his demon sister. Generic, but has beautiful animation. It’s an extremely popular anime that has been comin out since 2020, it’s wrapping up with 2 more movies. B tier show(48+ EPS)

Black Lagoon: Heavy action, Lots of gun blazing. Criminal organization ran by this black guy with a crew of misfits taking on odd jobs(criminal ones) to make money. B tier show(24 EPS)

Code Geass: Great show about a fallen prince trying to reclaim the throne through revolution(50~ EPS). A tier show

Solo leveling: World with dungeons and mobs. People go in, it’s a story about a due leveling up his powers. Generic tailored for boys, B tier show.

Welcome to NHK: Absolute shut in going through life, B tier show
 
moerez said:
The worst thing you can go through is anhedonia, its like you dont know what to do with your day and everyday is shitty , that makes me crazy
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Yeah I went through it too, there was many days that I was numb and spent most the day in bed pretty much staring at the ceiling… didn’t even have interest in watching tv or playing games to kill time, sex drive was dead, listening to music felt overwhelming to my senses and was far from enjoyable. During that time I was routinely pushing myself out the door at the same time every morning to go for a 30-40minute walk after sending my son to school, only ate healthy food, took supplements and used a free self care app called Finch to keep my self care in check so at the very least, even if I was in bed most the day I still got some sunlight from the walk and had showered and teeth brushed (cold showers are really good as it burns cortisol and helps you to feel a bit better)
You should download Finch, you get a checklist on the app that will give you some things to do with your day… there’s positive affirmations when you open the app and if you log being in a bad mood it gives you a first aid kit with breathing exercises, journalling exercises, the 5 to 1 technique to help you slow down racing thoughts etc.
Some days the best you can do is just survive the day and that’s more than enough.
 
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Trueart2 said:
@demileigh Let me know if you need more recommendations in the future
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Thank-you! 😊 I appreciate that list and will definitely get some more recommendations in the future.
I recently got my son watching one punch man though i’ve been re-watching Rick and Morty but its more so just background noise as I play pokemon go or scroll social media for memes.
Have you watched the Record of Ragnarok? I’ve heard it’s good
 
demileigh said:
Yeah I went through it too, there was many days that I was numb and spent most the day in bed pretty much staring at the ceiling… didn’t even have interest in watching tv or playing games to kill time, sex drive was dead, listening to music felt overwhelming to my senses and was far from enjoyable. During that time I was routinely pushing myself out the door at the same time every morning to go for a 30-40minute walk after sending my son to school, only ate healthy food, took supplements and used a free self care app called Finch to keep my self care in check so at the very least, even if I was in bed most the day I still got some sunlight from the walk and had showered and teeth brushed (cold showers are really good as it burns cortisol and helps you to feel a bit better)
You should download Finch, you get a checklist on the app that will give you some things to do with your day… there’s positive affirmations when you open the app and if you log being in a bad mood it gives you a first aid kit with breathing exercises, journalling exercises, the 5 to 1 technique to help you slow down racing thoughts etc.
Some days the best you can do is just survive the day and that’s more than enough.
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Im only scared that this anhedonia stays forever on me , i cant live like this with boredom and at least you had improvement after 5 months , im suffering all 5 months with same symptoms unfortunately:(
 
moerez said:
Im only scared that this anhedonia stays forever on me , i cant live like this with boredom and at least you had improvement after 5 months , im suffering all 5 months with same symptoms unfortunately:(
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Nothing lasts forever so when your mind is freaking you out worrying it’s permanent just tell yourself “this shall pass”
For now the best thing you can do is just accept it, refuse to give up and just give in to it… if forcing yourself to get some exercise in just to come home and vege out on the couch is the most you can do than so be it. What were your dosages and for how long? Please consider that my last doses were only 75mg which is the second lowest dose there is
 
demileigh said:
Thank-you! 😊 I appreciate that list and will definitely get some more recommendations in the future.
I recently got my son watching one punch man though i’ve been re-watching Rick and Morty but its more so just background noise as I play pokemon go or scroll social media for memes.
Have you watched the Record of Ragnarok? I’ve heard it’s good
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Never seen the Record of Ragnarok. One punch man S1 is a great show too. Changed the anime scene back in 2015/2016. The later seasons are infamously worse than S1 but I still watched
 
demileigh said:
Nothing lasts forever so when your mind is freaking you out worrying it’s permanent just tell yourself “this shall pass”
For now the best thing you can do is just accept it, refuse to give up and just give in to it… if forcing yourself to get some exercise in just to come home and vege out on the couch is the most you can do than so be it. What were your dosages and for how long? Please consider that my last doses were only 75mg which is the second lowest dose there is
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I only took two doses 100 and 150, basically one loading shot only, i tried acupuncture i think thats kinda helping too, but i see many people dont improve after a year and 2 years and that freaks me out because i still haven’t seen any improvements
 
moerez said:
I only took two doses 100 and 150, basically one loading shot only, i tried acupuncture i think thats kinda helping too, but i see many people dont improve after a year and 2 years and that freaks me out because i still haven’t seen any improvements
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How long have you been off now? By the time I came off the depot my body was probably somewhat used to it and I do think being on a lower dose worked in my favour when stopping though the lower dose wasn’t necessarily tapering, it was lowered because of severe akathisia.
Acupuncture worked wonders for me so if it’s something you’re covered for or can afford definitely keep at it, I wouldn’t say it’s a magic fix but I do believe it helped to bring me back to baseline faster.
Don’t let the horror stories of people not recovering or even the worst case scenarios of people unaliving themselves have you in fear, everyone is different and will return back to baseline at different rates due to different doses, different injection sites, the duration of their injections, genetics, lifestyle choices and probably many other factors. I do wonder if people who supposedly don’t recover are just severely depressed after the experience or have a return of the condition that had them injected in the first place because I know for sure that if I was in psychosis again there’s a high chance I wouldn’t even realize it as it would take a hell of a lot of experience with psychosis to actually be self aware of it… that’s my opinion anyway.
 
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