I feel a surge of motivation. Unsure if due to hypersensitivity of dopamine/withdrawarls coming off the drug. I’m just over a month and a few days since my last injection- but feeling motivated; talking a lot more. Im doubting this because everything I have read on blue light mentions you don’t see any effects till around 6 months. I’m being cautious of these “optimistic” feelings as I don’t trust what’s happening. I can say I feel a surge of energy I haven’t in the past 6 months. I feel my sex drive is starting to come back. I had three wanks today (sorry for being explicit) I’m just speaking facts all us men on this drug has experienced.
I feel my anhedonia has lifted by about 30% judging by how I’m somewhat motivated to go to the gym.
Please don’t mistake this as me saying I’m improving because I could be just manic.
Big desire to go to the gym and get on my supplements. I used to be a natural bodybuilder before my episode and haven’t trained in 6 months and now have some fat to get rid of. Lucky I didn’t eat too much because this fucking poison puts on weight even if you are at a calorie deficit!
I had 6 injections total until I stopped.
last injection was 18th of August.
I think all our trauma is coming from having a “injection”
Taking the pills seems to actually stabilise people.
Most women I’m seeing they take it because it helps them and it cured their sleep problems when they started taking it again, the pill that is.
For me I stopped cause I developed nose block after injections which maybe could of been extremely unlucky god knows how it happened,
But now I can’t sleep
So it’s looking like I’m going to start taking the tablets every now and then so I can sleep,
I used to be able to sleep without these meds
But life changed and somehow I ended up on these meds
And now I can’t sleep without then.
I don’t want to break to societies normals and not take it cause people say it’s bad to take or look at you like you’re unwell,
And I have to say doctors and scientist must have studied this shit for years on end in a lab, so I don’t know how bad it could potentially be… I’m trying to find light in the end of me taking these tablets again which I don’t necessarily want to do after the nose block trauma (which apparently came from a chest infection) so either nose block came from chest infection (and I’m really mentally ill) or the meds caused the nose block and insomnia
Hmm