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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

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paranoid android said:
As bad as what they have done to some people n this thread i saw people in the psych ward that where being treated even worse then us. Namely the people getting ECT. My heart really goes out to all the victims of that barbaric practice. My friend in the psych ward was getting ECT and he couldnt remember anything once he had a few sessions of it. What barbarian thought lets shock people with electricity and give them seizures and see if that helps their depression. Fucking butchers!

I have alot of hate for modern psychiatry. I am however lucky to have a good shrink at the moment.. He actually listens to me and gives me the meds i need
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Harrowing
 
jackhennessy120 said:
That shows your dopamine receptors still work!
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They still work alright cause i still get a rush from IV coke and morphine. Fuck coke though glad i gave that up

anonymoususer777 said:
HOw do you know they still work?
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I still get a rush from IV coke and opiates, still like dopamine releasing things like watching porn and what not

jackhennessy120 said:
Harrowing
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It was really harrowing. I saw some scary shit in that psych ward. Every night there would be people getting hauled off and taken to solitary for not taking meds. I was thrown in there 6 times myself for fighting with security guards mostly. Your locked in there for 24 hours with no fod, maybe a bottle of water, no bathroom and ya nothing else just a mat on the floor. How the fuck thats legal i dont know
 
paranoid android said:
They still work alright cause i still get a rush from IV coke and morphine. Fuck coke though glad i gave that up



I still get a rush from IV coke and opiates, still like dopamine releasing things like watching porn and what not



It was really harrowing. I saw some scary shit in that psych ward. Every night there would be people getting hauled off and taken to solitary for not taking meds. I was thrown in there 6 times myself for fighting with security guards mostly. Your locked in there for 24 hours with no fod, maybe a bottle of water, no bathroom and ya nothing else just a mat on the floor. How the fuck thats legal i dont know
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I spent 5 days in solitary. Drives you mad.
 
paranoid android said:
They still work alright cause i still get a rush from IV coke and morphine. Fuck coke though glad i gave that up



I still get a rush from IV coke and opiates, still like dopamine releasing things like watching porn and what not



It was really harrowing. I saw some scary shit in that psych ward. Every night there would be people getting hauled off and taken to solitary for not taking meds. I was thrown in there 6 times myself for fighting with security guards mostly. Your locked in there for 24 hours with no fod, maybe a bottle of water, no bathroom and ya nothing else just a mat on the floor. How the fuck thats legal i dont know
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Paranoid Android, i am confused, You told me you were fully recovered after 12 months right, how are you doing now?
 
paranoid android said:
They still work alright cause i still get a rush from IV coke and morphine. Fuck coke though glad i gave that up



I still get a rush from IV coke and opiates, still like dopamine releasing things like watching porn and what not



It was really harrowing. I saw some scary shit in that psych ward. Every night there would be people getting hauled off and taken to solitary for not taking meds. I was thrown in there 6 times myself for fighting with security guards mostly. Your locked in there for 24 hours with no fod, maybe a bottle of water, no bathroom and ya nothing else just a mat on the floor. How the fuck thats legal i dont know
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Jealous you’ve got access to morphine! Meths my go to tbh it brings back some of my cognitive abilities and personality which does give me hope. I’m scarred by my time under section it’s really left me in such a vulnerable spot and I feel like that combined with the injections has made me a complete shell of myself but I’m battling day by day. It’s like our brain is working against me now. Very isolating experience :/
 
anonymoususer777 said:
Paranoid Android, i am confused, You told me you were fully recovered after 12 months right, how are you doing now?
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I am recovered now yes. I am doing great now. I started lifting weights about 2 years ago and i am now in the best shape of my life. I started taking testosterone about a year ago because my levels where low which i think the antipsychotics where largely to blame for. I wasent taking much morphine at the time and when i had the blood test done i dont think i had taken it that day. Ever since going on testosterone i feel fantastic! I have the sex drive of a teenager again and i can put on muscle now better then i could when i was 20 and doing bricklaying.

I not only recovered but im in far far better shape now then just before i was on invega. I was pretty skinny pre invega as i was psychotic and not eating. I dont miss pre invega me really except the me then didnt know exactly how bad human beings could treat each other. The shit i saw in the psych ward will likely stay with me for life.

RisperdalConsta50mg said:
Under the human right convention, solitary treatment for more than 24 hours is torture
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Ya i think they get around this by pulling you out after a day. I wasent in there for 6 days in a row i was in there for times total for what im guessing was 24 hours at a time. I have no idea how long they actually keep you in solitary here for as there is no way to tell time in there.
 
jackhennessy120 said:
Jealous you’ve got access to morphine! Meths my go to tbh it brings back some of my cognitive abilities and personality which does give me hope. I’m scarred by my time under section it’s really left me in such a vulnerable spot and I feel like that combined with the injections has made me a complete shell of myself but I’m battling day by day. It’s like our brain is working against me now. Very isolating experience :/
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Well i have trigeminal neuralgia thats why i have access to strong opiates. The shit is supposedly more painful then cancer. Hopefully i never find out if that is true or not. I do like abusing my opiates though but not as much as before i was in the psych ward. Now i dont take them for longer then 2 or 3 weeks in a row and i take a break then. I like ot beng addicted to opiates cause cold turkey wd's fucking suck. Especially when your locked up in the psych ward with no access to basic meds like paracetamol or loperamide. I was extremely lucky to have my mom bring me in clonazepam now and again as i was also coming off 6mg's of clonazepam a day. They literally took me off every med i was on without giving me even a tylenol lol. Now you can maybe understand why i became violent towards hem

Do you get psychosis? Meth makes alot of pre exesting conditions worse. Ive never had meth though ive only had dextroamphetamine which i like quite abit. From what i understand meth is becoming more of a thing here which is weird because previously the only guy i knew in my area that took meth was another bler lol. We used to take Dexedrine together and go walk all over the city and stuff. He was a cool guy but occasionally he went psychotic because of the meth. One time he was convinced he had shot his cat but no his cat was very much alive so it was all in his head.

Meth i can do without finding out how good it is. I already found out how good IV coke is so i can do without meth. I gave up coke 3 years ago though as i said i would give it up if i got my morphine script back and i am a man of my word. That and i had a seizure from shooting to much coke lol. It was ridiculous i was shooting a 1/3rd of a gram of pretty decent coke at a time there lol. I dont know wtf i thought i was doing. I was just chasing that bell ringer and that weird dissociative feeling that coke has at really high doses. I dont know how to explain it.
 
paranoid android said:
I am recovered now yes. I am doing great now. I started lifting weights about 2 years ago and i am now in the best shape of my life. I started taking testosterone about a year ago because my levels where low which i think the antipsychotics where largely to blame for. I wasent taking much morphine at the time and when i had the blood test done i dont think i had taken it that day. Ever since going on testosterone i feel fantastic! I have the sex drive of a teenager again and i can put on muscle now better then i could when i was 20 and doing bricklaying.

I not only recovered but im in far far better shape now then just before i was on invega. I was pretty skinny pre invega as i was psychotic and not eating. I dont miss pre invega me really except the me then didnt know exactly how bad human beings could treat each other. The shit i saw in the psych ward will likely stay with me for life.



Ya i think they get around this by pulling you out after a day. I wasent in there for 6 days in a row i was in there for times total for what im guessing was 24 hours at a time. I have no idea how long they actually keep you in solitary here for as there is no way to tell time in there.
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Are you fully recovered? Your emotions, thoughts, empathy, imagination are all back? Your stamina is back?
 
anonymoususer777 said:
Are you fully recovered? Your emotions, thoughts, empathy, imagination are all back? Your stamina is back?
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I am more then fully recovered really if anything i recovered 110%. Im 43 but in better shape now then i was at 20. Alot of this may be do to the testosterone i am prescribed but i dont care i feel great and am getting no side effects from it.

My emotions all came back thats not a problem. I no longer have intrusive thoughts so thats a plus. My imagination has come back i guess. My stamina has come back with a vengeance. I can work out now like crazy and i recover much more quickly then before i started taking testosterone. I honestly feel the best i have in a long ass time
 
paranoid android said:
I am more then fully recovered really if anything i recovered 110%. Im 43 but in better shape now then i was at 20. Alot of this may be do to the testosterone i am prescribed but i dont care i feel great and am getting no side effects from it.

My emotions all came back thats not a problem. I no longer have intrusive thoughts so thats a plus. My imagination has come back i guess. My stamina has come back with a vengeance. I can work out now like crazy and i recover much more quickly then before i started taking testosterone. I honestly feel the best i have in a long ass time
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What testosterone do you take?
 
Some people recover but others don’t. That’s the reality. Personally I’ve lost so much of myself and at 9 months I can’t imagine it will all just magically come back after a year or so. It’s hard coming to terms with this, but I have to. Living like this is painful.

Looking at brokenself it’s just heartbreaking. I see myself in him. Nobody deserves to go through this
 
paranoid android said:
I am more then fully recovered really if anything i recovered 110%. Im 43 but in better shape now then i was at 20. Alot of this may be do to the testosterone i am prescribed but i dont care i feel great and am getting no side effects from it.

My emotions all came back thats not a problem. I no longer have intrusive thoughts so thats a plus. My imagination has come back i guess. My stamina has come back with a vengeance. I can work out now like crazy and i recover much more quickly then before i started taking testosterone. I honestly feel the best i have in a long ass time
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How was your stamina doing prior to testosterone?
 
Is it true that most people on this forum recover? Are people with fewer injections more likely to recover? I was told that people who recover dont post here much.
 
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