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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

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rawbanana said:
Hey everyone-

I ended up in the psych ward for a suicide attempt two weeks ago. I was there for two weeks and I just got out. They have me on lithium I was taking it for two weeks I’m still on it but I don’t like the effects so I will probably stop taking it.

I saw some people tag me while I was gone so thank you to those of you who seem to care about me. I really appreciate you guys.

@YogirisingKundalini @Trueart2 @IOSIP love you guys!

As for improvement I think the anhedonia is better now but I still have a heavy feeling and a really tired feeling. And I’m still feeling suicidal and depressed. Just kinda feel like there’s no point.
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Thanks for the shout. Love you to mate.
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
I haven't gone mad since january, thinking back i was really crazy LOL. fucking parnate fooked me up bad I had crazy delusions but my obsession with psychiatry gave me pleasure actually sadly thats gone D:
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Man I gotta admit that whole sage was quite funny from an outsiders perspective we could all see you were obsessed and fixated. Ahahahaha. But you wouldn't listen. Lol.
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
I haven't gone mad since january, thinking back i was really crazy LOL. fucking parnate fooked me up bad I had crazy delusions but my obsession with psychiatry gave me pleasure actually sadly thats gone D:
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you say you got used to feeling like this but it's a slow death sentence considering before the injection i was happy and active in life and now i have nothing yet i keep going for no other reason then suicide is difficult and the unknown i guess.
 
Just got my last 2 injections lowered down to 117. I won’t have to take a 8th injection. Only have to take 7, and fo mundane 2!8 only have to take 117 mg, rather than 156 mg.

Really good news.
 
Trueart2 said:
@rawbanana

Glad you’re still here. You’re certainly one of the people on the forums who still has a chance. Glad you got out of the psychiatric ward on generally low level stuff and didn’t get forced onto injections again or anything of the sort.

I feel sorrowful about the medical bills inflicted and the possible trauma that comes from surviving a suicide attempt.

Glad you’re improving as well, keep us updated on your situation

Trueart2
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I am technically on AOT which is like CTO but they don’t force medications they just come to your house often and make you go to psychiatry appointments
 
brokenself said:
you say you got used to feeling like this but it's a slow death sentence considering before the injection i was happy and active in life and now i have nothing yet i keep going for no other reason then suicide is difficult and the unknown i guess.
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i got used to it, it bothers me a bit im not living life 100% like my friends and family. For example, my sister just got a PS5 , first time gamer. Watching her enjoy the shit out of gaming and get so much pleasure makes me jealous
 
rawbanana said:
I am technically on AOT which is like CTO but they don’t force medications they just come to your house often and make you go to psychiatry appointments
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Same, I don’t have anything to say but I’m gonna support thread activity, and say I’m on a court mandate which is neither CTO or AOT. But out of the 3 it seems like you have the best position to be in out of the 3
 
Invegatorture said:
It’s so hard talking to people who are not going through this who wanna talk about normal shit and not medication
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Would they send you to jail if you refused your injections? I am on AOT now and maybe it’s different in my area but they can’t legally force medication here.
 
rawbanana said:
I still don’t understand how they can legally force you to take injections. That’s nuts honestly.
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They legitimately think I’m a crazy person. They do this stuff to people they don’t want reproducing children or having any significant input on society. This is a tranquilizer meant to silence us.

Additionally my psychiatrist today told me every single person she’s coming into interaction who fell into psychosis once, fell into it again a second time without medicine. Even if she was exaggerating or bluffing, which presumably she wasn’t we might be in trouble. I’ve seen lots of people recover from Invega only to fall back into psychosis, we even see lots of people fall into psychosis while on Invega. Shit was the worst part about my meeting today
 
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