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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

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TonyTonyChopper said:
I'm now 18 months or 550 days since my last invega injection and I feel a little better but its not what you think. For 17 months I felt brain dead from the 10 invega shots + 3 haldol shots I had . Anhedonia, black mind, loss of motivation , the whole 9 yards. Getting hospitlized for psychosis again early this year on my 1 year off date didn't help my recovery either. Anyway I started taking this new medication 1 month ago which is abilify or aripiprazole at 2 mg. Why did I take another antipsychotic even after I been so damaged by another antipsychotic? well I wanted to try something whatever it was. My psychiatrist told me verbatim " Giving you stims or MAOI is not appropriate in your case" so I didn't have much option. Anyway, abilify is much better than invega at low doses. I don't feel any negative side effects and it gives me energy and motivation. Sadly It's lacking in anhedonia but maybe i need to take it longer or maybe its not meant for anhedonia. either way I'm making good progress from abilify and go to the gym, eat clean, even planning on going back to school for masters in january if i secure funding. The most annoying symptom anhedonia still remains if that alone goes away ill consider myself 90% recovered 😩
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So your cognitive issues including blank mind, lower iq went away? Just a couple days ago you were complaining about how our iq is lowered by invega
 
Today I drank 2 monster energy drinks back to back and I felt very good. Anhedonia improved 10-15%. Enjoying music still hours later. I was so fucking depressed before it. Dopamine is everything when it comes to mental health.
 
YogirisingKundalini said:
You are totally right. That's why i said low dose THC cause weed is divine herb but they made it too psychoactive. Low THC strains high cbd are ultra helpful in healing the ptsd from it and the brain. Good weed is medicine. There is just to much shitty weed on streets and ppl end up psychotic.
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haha that autor you mentioned @jrsteez literally said the same about THC percentage hahaha
 
YogirisingKundalini said:
You are totally right. That's why i said low dose THC cause weed is divine herb but they made it too psychoactive. Low THC strains high cbd are ultra helpful in healing the ptsd from it and the brain. Good weed is medicine. There is just to much shitty weed on streets and ppl end up psychotic.
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Yes, exactly. I was getting it from the dispensary though. But like I said, high potency probably got me. I would intentionally get higher % THC every time I went because my tolerance was so high.

Everyone is different. I don’t hate weed or judge others for smoking. I just personally can’t do it because that’s what set of my psychosis. I also sort of have PTSD from weed, so I’m afraid to smoke it. I did really miss it in the first couple of months, but after a while the craving went away.
 
Trueart2 said:
So your cognitive issues including blank mind, lower iq went away? Just a couple days ago you were complaining about how our iq is lowered by invega
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nope still have blank mind , my cognition did get better a bit and i dont feel mentally slow its faster now but not like pre invega . I complained about iq few days ago when i really meant our attention span is so fked up atleast it is for me. That still is bad sadly . only improvements is mood , motivation so far
 
I have hope in recovery but I fear I may be deluding myself this time round. I’ve recovered from two shots of invega but thats very different to the 15+ shots of abilify i’m going to take.

Knowing my life could be over now has had me very depressed recently. The struggle is real. You lose your soul on these meds and no one can understand that unless they have been through it as well.

I’m addicted to caffeine because thats all that gives me a slight lift. Damn I miss the highs of life and good feelings. Just simple tiredness and hunger. Which you take for granted when you are normal.

I appreciate everyone on here. Makes me feel less alone.
 
Invegatorture said:
I have hope in recovery but I fear I may be deluding myself this time round. I’ve recovered from two shots of invega but thats very different to the 15+ shots of abilify i’m going to take.

Knowing my life could be over now has had me very depressed recently. The struggle is real. You lose your soul on these meds and no one can understand that unless they have been through it as well.

I’m addicted to caffeine because thats all that gives me a slight lift. Damn I miss the highs of life and good feelings. Just simple tiredness and hunger. Which you take for granted when you are normal.

I appreciate everyone on here. Makes me feel less alone.
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We love you bro. I still think collecting some cash and going to some poor country where dollar is much more worthy is the best way to cut the CTO. They will leave u alone even if you comeback. I saw such cases. 2 months could be enough
 
YogirisingKundalini said:
We love you bro. I still think collecting some cash and going to some poor country where dollar is much more worthy is the best way to cut the CTO. They will leave u alone even if you comeback. I saw such cases. 2 months could be enough
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bro if i was in a cto like him here in ontario , id literlly move to another family living 2 hours away who would happily let me stay with them or few months then come back and life back to normal. Obviously not everyone can do that but its an option
 
brokenself said:
I'm still doing terrible over a year later, what a joke this life is all this suffering just to die eventually anyways.
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Keep hanging on, it gets better. Go psychotic/manic again, just dont get injections. Im on low dosage risperdal and it helps when my delusions become too much
 
iraistired said:
so u recovered faster even tho we took the same amount of shots and u took them later im scared
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I started feeling better but then had another manic/psychotic episode, so, its hard to say that Im back to normal. Maybe being psychotic/manic is my normal state, so I take a low dosage of risperdal (liquid form), and it helps keep my delusions in check. If I take too high a dose I just get back side effects
 
Invegatorture said:
When you heal music feels so fucking good after not having it so long. After healing I was glad I went through the hell of antipsychotics, it made me stronger and more grateful.

It does feel permanent and that’s one of the hardest things to deal with when recovering.
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Invegatorture said:
I understand its terrible losing your character. Mine came back after invega. I’m sure yours will too.

How strong is your anhedonia btw? My dopamine was completely blocked by invega for at least 6 months. Couldn’t feel anything.
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Brother can we talk please ? I’m in a similar situation please reply I’m feeling bad
 
Trueart2 said:
Welcome to bluelight man
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I’m currently going through this. Total severe anhedonia. Nothing is enjoyable. Can’t distract myself. No dopamine at all. It has been 25 days and I get cortisol surges from hell. You know how ? One pill. Amisulpride 400mg most likely. I’m not even schizo. I was told it’s a sleeping pill by some irresponsible person. It was just one pill never took AP‘s before. I am hanging on by a thread ? Is recovery really possible ?
 
Invegatorture said:
I have hope in recovery but I fear I may be deluding myself this time round. I’ve recovered from two shots of invega but thats very different to the 15+ shots of abilify i’m going to take.

Knowing my life could be over now has had me very depressed recently. The struggle is real. You lose your soul on these meds and no one can understand that unless they have been through it as well.

I’m addicted to caffeine because thats all that gives me a slight lift. Damn I miss the highs of life and good feelings. Just simple tiredness and hunger. Which you take for granted when you are normal.

I appreciate everyone on here. Makes me feel less alone.
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I got severe anhedonia from a single pill. Can I recover ?
 
confusedanduncertain said:
I’m currently going through this. Total severe anhedonia. Nothing is enjoyable. Can’t distract myself. No dopamine at all. It has been 25 days and I get cortisol surges from hell. You know how ? One pill. Amisulpride 400mg most likely. I’m not even schizo. I was told it’s a sleeping pill by some irresponsible person. It was just one pill never took AP‘s before. I am hanging on by a thread ? Is recovery really possible ?
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25 days seems like a long time.

Most of us in here have been served a injectable antipsychotic which persists in the body much longer than a pill version. Long story short, it's extremely unlikely you won't recover from a single pill. If nothing changes within the coming days, start taking some supplements to help your body recover. The half-life of the drug is 12 hours, it should be out of your system by now; 25 days later.
 
Trueart2 said:
25 days seems like a long time.

Most of us in here have been served a injectable antipsychotic which persists in the body much longer than a pill version. Long story short, it's extremely unlikely you won't recover from a single pill. If nothing changes within the coming days, start taking some supplements to help your body recover. The half-life of the drug is 12 hours, it should be out of your system by now; 25 days later.
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I don’t know my brain reacted very badly and was probably sensitive. The intensity is very bad. I have had a glimpse of myself for a few hours. But that feeling didn’t come back. I don’t know how this happens from a single pill. What supplements could I take ?
 
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