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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

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Invegatorture said:
YES YES THEY WANT TO EXTEND MY CTO FOR ANOTHER 6 MONTHS OMG I LOVE ABILIFY ITS A PARTIAL AGONIST I FEEL SO MUCH GOOD GOOD DOPAMINE 😭😭😂
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fkkkkk im sorry bruh , foook the psychiatrist for extending it. ask for lower dose if u can or complain about side effects but comply as much as u can i think thats the best way or run away if ur risky
 
Trueart2 said:
Finished V2,

37 good outcomes
12 negative outcomes

docs.google.com

Invega documentary

Credit TrueArt2: V1(19 good outcomes, 6 bad) Narshe81:Took invega for close to a year, no recovery. Paranoid Android: Recovered( 3 Months of Invevga + 18 months of abilify) starkid: Recovered but feels as if his brain will never be the same, speaks explicitly about emotions and motivation(2 Year...
docs.google.com docs.google.com
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Thanks for doing this its appreciated.
 
Invegatorture said:
Thanks for doing this its appreciated.
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Needed that, I was originally doing it to see the percentage of people who are recovering. I’ve gone past N>30 at this point(the number of stories needed to normalize, and thus get closer to validating a percentage of recovery). I may do V4 but it’s likely I stop at V3 and begin researching heavier into the smoking weed correlation, it seems like everyone who was able to get high SMOKING weed is able to recover. Additionally the supplementation masters/artists seem to do much better in their approach to dealing with their time on invega and report substantially better outcomes than people who do not take supplements in their recovery story. Potentially if we look at supplements at the building blocks of recovery(as they contain the nutrients/characteristics that embolden recovery) it’s possible that more people end up recovering while taking supplementation.

If we theorize people don’t recover because they’re missing some chemical component that stops them from recovery, supplements become the gateway to successfully recovering for those who are missing the chemical component. And they become a great aid to those who are recovering but could benefit from the extra help
 
Trueart2 said:
Is there a expiration date to when they cannot extend it anymore
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There isn’t. They can last indefinitely. But they need to prove you are a risk to yourself or others each time. They have less reason to extend it after each renewal if you stay compliant.
 
Invegatorture said:
There isn’t. They can last indefinitely. But they need to prove you are a risk to yourself or others each time. They have less reason to extend it after each renewal if you stay compliant.
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Sorry to hear about the extension as well. Personally I have “3” more months, but I’m probably gonna skip my last one because it’ll have been 180 days since I left the psychiatric ward. They want me to take shot number 8 on like day 187 of a 180 day court order.

Stay strong, and know you’ll recover.
 
Trueart2 said:
Sorry to hear about the extension as well. Personally I have “3” more months, but I’m probably gonna skip my last one because it’ll have been 180 days since I left the psychiatric ward. They want me to take shot number 8 on like day 187 of a 180 day court order.

Stay strong, and know you’ll recover.
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Thankyou. Hope so 🙏
 
Hey yall. Tonytonychopper said to me recently I've recovered why am I still here. That felt like a loaded question. I was still here because I hate to think about people going through what I went through when I first got these injections. It was truly horrific. I never thought I would recover.

The truth is "recovery" is a fucking spectrum. Did i get over the initial side effects that were so horrendous i never thought I'd be OK again? Yes , yes I did.

But Tony what I didnt have was my sense 9f self anymore. My sense of confidence that I had this world figured out.

I've spent the last year with a rope in my closet, I've tried to hang myself 9n numerous occasions. I haven't been able to clearly. I don't bring that energy to this forum because it's very much a pro life place.

I've spent a year in my bedroom playing videos games rotting away thinking my life is over. If I kill myself then I won't have to confront my life. I wontt have to confront bex9ming a functional member of society again. Because I am so fucking far from that. I'm a shell of who I used to be.

This past week though I put all my fears of rejection on the line and reached out to all my friends I've ignored for a year and I've started making plans to catch up over beers. Because it will help my social anxiety.

You know what? They all responded they all wrapped there arms around me.

I've been so scared to see them because this injection took soooo much of me away. That on top of the fact I was in psychosis for a m9nth and said and did the most embarrassing things imaginable ive lived the last year with the most insane shame, embarrassment and regret.

Am I OK? Not really. I'm far from who I used to be. Will I be OK? Maybe but s9mething had to change, I have to start engaging with the people that care about me most and I plan on doing that. In fact I'm fucking excited to that.

This forum is the only thing I had in my life when I got these injections. Some people on here were down right hostile. I see all these new profiles and I want to set the right example. I want this forum to be a 0lave where people suffering can come and find social contact. Because for me that's what this has been about. Your all fucked cunts. But I was accused cunt to.

Big shout outs to WBGA and MarjyJaneForever.

I'm writing this post so that future Invega Sufferers can see while REVOVERY is possible its nuanced. It's not black and white. I won't consider myself recovered until I have a job until I can sit down with friends and engage with conversations.

I'm blessed that im 38 years old and up until i really fucked up in life i have some amazing connections and some genuine friendships that despite me ignoring them all for over a year they are still here from me when I finally found the courage to reach out.

Which thank god, because like I say this forum can be so unbelievably hostile and fucked. It's pretty depressing knowing your friends are a text away yet you spend your time talking to a bunch of random but job's on an anti psychotic forum l. I'm proud of myself for taking these steps.

But despite my comments to the contrary this forum has been invaluable for me. When no one else could relate to the depths of despair I was in I would post here. Just remember that person who continues to post about there pain repeatedly. You can tell them to shut up. Or you can tell them it takes time and that you promise it will get better.

Invega has almost convinced me that this reality we live in is hell. Even at our lowest states seeing people on here.take the time to pick on other people disgusts me. And I say it because that was my experience to. I stuck around though and saw the good that this forum provides people. This forum saves lives no doubt about it.

@paranoidandroid your doing a good thing for people. @methyphenyl you to.

I'm excited to jot need this forum much anymore. To start spending my time with real humans that know me , love me and support me. The ones I've thought were lost to me.

So yes REVOVERY is possible but it's a fucking journey one that I'm still on. One that I hope will be a distant memory one day. And if and when that day comes I will cherish it.

Peace mother fuckers. I wish you all the best.
 
It's been two years since I got PSSD on top of invega effects. I'm feeling more like myself and I can orgasm again and feel it. I feel ok, I just have a little more to regain. I still have no reason to doubt it will come back, but sometimes I do anyway.
 
stolensoul said:
Hey guys, just dropping in to remind you all that recovery is in indeed possible. Feeling better than ever, compared to how terrible I felt after the injections. Stay strong, there is light at the end of the tunnel. Check my profile if you want to see how terribly I was doing a year ago.
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so u recovered faster even tho we took the same amount of shots and u took them later im scared
 
InvegaAnon said:
It's been two years since I got PSSD on top of invega effects. I'm feeling more like myself and I can orgasm again and feel it. I feel ok, I just have a little more to regain. I still have no reason to doubt it will come back, but sometimes I do anyway.
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Pssd from SSRI? Or invega
 
Finished invega documentary V3 total is 42-12

42 good outcomes of recovery
12 non recovery stories.

Going to look into supplementation next, it seems fairly straight forward what you should take, although some like Lion's mane have risks reported along with it

docs.google.com

Invega documentary

Credit TrueArt2: V1(19 good outcomes, 6 bad) Narshe81:Took invega for close to a year, no recovery. Paranoid Android: Recovered( 3 Months of Invevga + 18 months of abilify) starkid: Recovered but feels as if his brain will never be the same, speaks explicitly about emotions and motivation(2 Year...
docs.google.com docs.google.com
 
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