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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

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Littana said:
gotta hop in here and say, well.. i know multiple people who has gone psychotic on pregab wd´s ... also tolerance to it rises REALLY fast.... pls dont tell people to take random drugs just cos u got high from them....
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Psychotic from pregabaline 😂 u are nuts
 
Gotta hope this blank mind goes away once I stop Invega… three more shots I’m willing to skip my last one(8th) my 180 days will be up/ close to up by then
 
demileigh said:
No worries.

Many people still manage to live beautiful lives even after losing years to things like trauma, abuse and mental health so don’t get down on yourself. You never know what the future holds unless you’re here to find out. You could totally still be an artist, just because you don’t have the passion right now, that doesn’t mean it won’t come back… maybe that’s something you could do as a part of your recovery journey, find ways to express yourself through art and let it be your outlet… no doubt this level of struggle and pain could be a driving force behind creating some amazing art 🙂
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Yeah but once again trauma, abuse, and mental health doesn't quite literally destroy the functioning of the receptors in the brain. A chemical lobotomy isn't really a way to live a beautiful life. Most of life is just chasing pleasure (dopamine) and when you can no longer do that it slowly destroys your body as well. Forcing yourself to do things will never be as good as a natural functioning brain.
 
brokenself said:
Yeah but once again trauma, abuse, and mental health doesn't quite literally destroy the functioning of the receptors in the brain. A chemical lobotomy isn't really a way to live a beautiful life. Most of life is just chasing pleasure (dopamine) and when you can no longer do that it slowly destroys your body as well. Forcing yourself to do things will never be as good as a natural functioning brain.
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How about you try do something to help yourself like go for a walk instead of hanging around here with your toxic mindset. Trauma and abuse can cause actual brain damage, what invega does to the brain isn’t necessarily permanent as many people here have said they’ve recovered… if you haven’t recovered maybe that’s because you have a condition that’s returned and needs to be treated and that’s really the problem🤷‍♀️ people don’t just get shot up with invega for no reason, clearly something wasn’t quite right yeah… no offence. You’re on such a low vibe and that’s exactly why I stopped replying to you. Btw life isn’t all about chasing pleasure… life is full of things you don’t want to do but you just get on with it.
 
This time last year I would wake up and smoke weed and immediately go on a walk with my headphones in feeling amazing. Hikes every day. Tuning out the world. I was experiencing “hallucinations” where it felt like my music or radio was talking to me but I honestly really enjoyed that feeling it made life feel purposeful and special. It was incredibly spiritual.

I was also having delusions that I couldn’t control I was just confused about what was happening to me. But I wasn’t hurting anyone. I can’t help but feel that I was mistreated by these doctors.
 
rawbanana said:
I really want to heal and get better… I’m just afraid after getting so many shots that I won’t get back to normal
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I’m having the same thoughts as to whether I can heal from so many shots. The doubts are natural with such a long recovery time. I can say i have healed twice and both times i felt permanently fucked. This gives me hope this time round but the negative thoughts still creep in.
 
rawbanana said:
This time last year I would wake up and smoke weed and immediately go on a walk with my headphones in feeling amazing. Hikes every day. Tuning out the world. I was experiencing “hallucinations” where it felt like my music or radio was talking to me but I honestly really enjoyed that feeling it made life feel purposeful and special. It was incredibly spiritual.

I was also having delusions that I couldn’t control I was just confused about what was happening to me. But I wasn’t hurting anyone. I can’t help but feel that I was mistreated by these doctors.
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I miss feeling connected with nature and my body. Now I feel souless. This is a hell that strips every enjoyable experience from you which no one can understand truly unless they have been through it as well.

When you heal you will appreciate music, weed and nature that much more I promise. My life felt more colourful after healing from these meds than it did prior.
 
Invegatorture said:
I miss feeling connected with nature and my body. Now I feel souless. This is a hell that strips every enjoyable experience from you which no one can understand truly unless they have been through it as well.

When you heal you will appreciate music, weed and nature that much more I promise. My life felt more colourful after healing from these meds than it did prior.
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I’m going to try and hang on. It’s just hard filling up my time. I don’t work. I don’t do really anything! Life feels very purposeless. I keep craving weed but im afraid to smoke it because of all the complications going on chemically in my body I just feel it’s best to avoid it… really rough. I miss the sensitivity in my body. Like you said- that primal connection to all things
 
rawbanana said:
I’m going to try and hang on. It’s just hard filling up my time. I don’t work. I don’t do really anything! Life feels very purposeless. I keep craving weed but im afraid to smoke it because of all the complications going on chemically in my body I just feel it’s best to avoid it… really rough. I miss the sensitivity in my body. Like you said- that primal connection to all things
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Time goes so slowly in this state. I also struggle to fill up my time as I am also not working. That’s why I’m on this site so much. Probably best to avoid the weed, for me it’s not enjoyable for the most part. And yeah I also miss having a sensitive body, it feels like a prison I can’t escape. Euphoria from music and caffeine is something I miss dearly.
 
I wish I could game all day but I have zero motivation because it gives me no enjoyment when I feel like this.
 
Invegatorture said:
Time goes so slowly in this state. I also struggle to fill up my time as I am also not working. That’s why I’m on this site so much. Probably best to avoid the weed, for me it’s not enjoyable for the most part. And yeah I also miss having a sensitive body, it feels like a prison I can’t escape. Euphoria from music and caffeine is something I miss dearly.
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Sometimes I think I’m getting better like I feel a little lighter like my personality is coming back but the changes are sooooo small and sooo slow that I feel like I can’t tell if it’s really even happening. It’s so horrible.
 
I really don’t like my family and I don’t have a job or a means to move out and start a life anywhere else which is another reason for my suicidal thoughts. Sometimes it just feels like the best choice for me.

I don’t really have any prospects.
 
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