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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

iridescentblack said:
In these last few waves of Invega, these dissociative states are finally reducing down to an absolute zero. There's no longer this confusion about being in states of unrelenting daydreams, telepathy, and such. Though the last 8 years have left me feeling like "having my mind read" and "thought broadcasting", amidst what has now become silence, there's this peace that I am once again alone.

Obviously you're confused reading this. Often doctors will fake a sort of sense of empathy to seduce their patients, getting them to confess about their strange delusions, hallucinations, and patterns. At the same time, though, they project a sense of solipsism. I don't care that my "symptoms" sounded strange to people. Even doctors coming out about the dangers of long-term antipsychotic use... don't care.

But these are the last few waves and not even you reading this believe me.

I just felt like posting it
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How long were you taking Invega injections?
 
Im not on this site anywhere near as much anymore. My anhedonia has fully gone away and so did the akathisia that I suffered with horribly for 3 months.

If your in the initial stages of this thing just know those major side effects do get better.

The only caviat to the above is i dont think I will ever truly be the same again. I dont know what it is but I've lost my personality. I have nothing to say anymore and I really struggle with small talk etc.

I take anti depressant have done for all my life it used to be the case prior to invega that if I missed a day of my antidepressants I would start to get these brain zaps. Since invega now when I miss a day the brain zaps dont occur anymore. Brain zaps are a common side effect of missing anti depressant doses.

I find it highly concerning that I longer get these. It makes me feel like my brain has changed permanently and not for the better.

I dont want to be on here giving people less hope. But I also do want to share my story.

I truly think im not going to recover my bubbly personality. And it breaks my heart.

I hope everyone is doing ok.
 
Reporting that I'm high as fuck after work and I'm watching Ru Paul's Drag Race.

I really missed my libido today. I still have one, it's not the same as before. It's like I aged 10 years or something.
 
IOSIP said:
Im not on this site anywhere near as much anymore. My anhedonia has fully gone away and so did the akathisia that I suffered with horribly for 3 months.

If your in the initial stages of this thing just know those major side effects do get better.

The only caviat to the above is i dont think I will ever truly be the same again. I dont know what it is but I've lost my personality. I have nothing to say anymore and I really struggle with small talk etc.

I take anti depressant have done for all my life it used to be the case prior to invega that if I missed a day of my antidepressants I would start to get these brain zaps. Since invega now when I miss a day the brain zaps dont occur anymore. Brain zaps are a common side effect of missing anti depressant doses.

I find it highly concerning that I longer get these. It makes me feel like my brain has changed permanently and not for the better.

I dont want to be on here giving people less hope. But I also do want to share my story.

I truly think im not going to recover my bubbly personality. And it breaks my heart.

I hope everyone is doing ok.
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how many shots how many months
 
IOSIP said:
Im not on this site anywhere near as much anymore. My anhedonia has fully gone away and so did the akathisia that I suffered with horribly for 3 months.

If your in the initial stages of this thing just know those major side effects do get better.

The only caviat to the above is i dont think I will ever truly be the same again. I dont know what it is but I've lost my personality. I have nothing to say anymore and I really struggle with small talk etc.

I take anti depressant have done for all my life it used to be the case prior to invega that if I missed a day of my antidepressants I would start to get these brain zaps. Since invega now when I miss a day the brain zaps dont occur anymore. Brain zaps are a common side effect of missing anti depressant doses.

I find it highly concerning that I longer get these. It makes me feel like my brain has changed permanently and not for the better.

I dont want to be on here giving people less hope. But I also do want to share my story.

I truly think im not going to recover my bubbly personality. And it breaks my heart.

I hope everyone is doing ok.
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Don’t give up 💜 I believe your personality will come back with time…

I think for me the trauma of this experience has taken away my quirkiness and desire to say things. With 4 injections I’m still deep in the weeds. It’s been 6 months and my anhedonia hasn’t really gone away. I also have decreased alertness and coordination issues. Used to be very sharp and quick and feel very human. I guess that’s the bottom line that I feel like something that made me inherently human is gone.
 
Has anyone experienced feeling their pulse in their head when recovering? I don’t know how much longer I can do this for. 9 months now
 
Invegatorture said:
Anyone know how likely it is I can come off meds while on a CTO? They’re making me suicidal. Ive been compliant for 3 months so far
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unless they trust you with pills it is highly unlikely. Your best bet would be to cooperate with injections so that when the next cto hearing comes they can smoothly let u off or switch u to pills. It took me 8 months but other places its shorter.
 
Hello, it has been about 4 months since I stopped using xeplion and I have not seen any change. I have no inner monologue, no dreams, I have muscle stiffness and parkinsonism. I used to do yoga, my body was very flexible, now I can't use my body anymore, I just sleep at home, I gained about ten kilos, I need to hear recovery stories, otherwise I will really commit suicide. By the way, I'm writing it in translation, most likely it was translated wrong.
 
My family and friends and everyone in my life is pushing me to take medication (mood stabilizer & antidepressant) in order to feel better and they don’t understand that those are the problem.

It’s really hard going through this when no one in your life understands the pain and you’re just completely alone.
 
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