Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 10

[kazanova]

Ailem, arkadaşlarım ve hayatımdaki herkes daha iyi hissetmem için ilaç (ruh hali dengeleyici ve antidepresan) almam konusunda beni zorluyor ve sorunun bu olduğunu anlamıyorlar.

Hayatınızdaki hiç kimse acınızı anlamıyorsa ve tamamen yalnızsanız, bunu yaşamak gerçekten çok zor.

Beni de aynı şekilde zorladılar, kabul ettim ama bana yaptıklarının farkında değiller, gerçekten cehennemi yaşıyoruz

 

[rawbanana]

Hello, it has been about 4 months since I stopped using xeplion and I have not seen any change. I have no inner monologue, no dreams, I have muscle stiffness and parkinsonism. I used to do yoga, my body was very flexible, now I can't use my body anymore, I just sleep at home, I gained about ten kilos, I need to hear recovery stories, otherwise I will really commit suicide. By the way, I'm writing it in translation, most likely it was translated wrong.

It’s been 6 months for me and I have those same symptoms still. They say it will get better around the 9 month mark.

I feel the same way as you. It makes me sad when people talk about suicide but I completely understand. I have attempted to take my own life three times since being on this injection. It’s a completely inhumane practice that should be illegal.

 

[kazanova]

Benim için 6 ay oldu ve hala aynı semptomlar var. 9 ay civarında düzeleceğini söylüyorlar.

Ben de seninle aynı şekilde hissediyorum. İnsanların intihardan bahsetmesi beni üzüyor ama seni tamamen anlıyorum. Bu enjeksiyonu aldığımdan beri üç kez kendi hayatıma son vermeye çalıştım. Bu tamamen insanlık dışı bir uygulama ve yasadışı olmalı.

Kendimi asmaya çalıştım ve bunun Tanrı mı yoksa bir melek mi olduğunu bilmiyorum ama bir ses, "Öldüğünde huzur bulacağını sanıyorsun ama öldüğünde sonsuz cehennem var, şimdi benden kurtul" dedi ve kendimi astığım ipten kurtuldum. Bu yaklaşık 3 ay önce oldu ama şu anda keşke ölmüş olsaydım

 

[rawbanana]

Kendimi asmaya çalıştım ve bunun Tanrı mı yoksa bir melek mi olduğunu bilmiyorum ama bir ses, "Öldüğünde huzur bulacağını sanıyorsun ama öldüğünde sonsuz cehennem var, şimdi benden kurtul" dedi ve kendimi astığım ipten kurtuldum. Bu yaklaşık 3 ay önce oldu ama şu anda keşke ölmüş olsaydım

Yes the afterlife scares me as well. In my religion we are not supposed to commit suicide. But it’s very hard to exist day to day. I used to listen to music all day every day. I was so passionate about it. Now I feel nothing from music.

 

[kazanova]

Evet, ahiret beni de korkutuyor. Benim dinimde intihar etmemiz beklenmiyor. Ama günlük hayatta var olmak çok zor. Eskiden her gün, her gün müzik dinlerdim. Çok tutkuluydum. Şimdi müzikten hiçbir şey hissetmiyorum.

Korkarım ki kalıcı olacak

 

[rawbanana]

Korkarım ki kalıcı olacak

I know that feeling. Me too. It’s cruel that we have to live through this. It’s not a life worth living.

 

[fenec]

Hi team, it will soon be 22 months since I stopped the 4 Haldol Decanoas injections of 150 mg for 4 months and 1 month or 2 of Haldol medication that I did everything to spit out in the toilet, I feel alive again everything comes back physical libido emotion alcohol gets me high THC gets me high, before the start of withdrawal my brain didn't tell me when I was hungry thirsty go to the toilet I was disconnected, with the cigar I felt like I was smoking air, my libido has returned sperm very white before it was water my sperm with disgusting lumps it disgusts me weak orgasm before the start of withdrawal, and now sperm very white voluminous strong orgasm, I am no longer a zombie in bed 24 hours a day I have found my personality my character at the start of withdrawal I was transformed a tomb, everything is going in the right direction So please don't discourage and don't listen to people who don't get better, who take antidepressants during their withdrawal and who don't get better, that's normal, right? I didn't take any medication during my withdrawal, not even Doliprane, for 22 months and I'm back to my old self, I just have a few kilos to lose but I'm living again, I'm enjoying life and sorry for my absence, hang in there! ️

 

[fenec]

Endure simply and you will be rewarded do not take any chemical drugs with side effects be patient, it is necessary to occupy itself to the maximum with video games reading to recover intellectual, walk it is necessary to fight the brother not let this poison of the devil win, it is who the strongest say to you that, there is no have will 0as arrive there it is 9n will arrive there understand the mental the brother important

 

[fenec]

Endure simply and you will be rewarded do not take any chemical drugs with side effects be patient, it is necessary to occupy itself to the maximum with video games reading to recover intellectual, walk it is necessary to fight the brother not let this poison of the devil win, it is who the strongest say to you that, there is no have will 0as arrive there it is 9n will arrive there understand the mental the brother important

Sorry, the translator mistranslated courage

 

[Katanya]

Got my Vyvanse back, my Psychiatric Provider said I could restart it.

That will help with the focus and lack of energy (which has been getting better due to more protein but still is not at pre-Invega levels).

I am going to be on a Zio Heart Monitor that you stick on your chest so that they can look at my heart rate. My Cardiologist said he thought the results would be normal.

My Psychiatric Provider told me to start the monitor on day one without the Vyvanse and then do the next two days with.

I read Invega can cause heart problems and I already have a family history of heart problems so I don’t need that.

They upped my Caplyta to 42 mg which is the maintenance dose, I didn’t experience side effects with Caplyta when I was last on it so fingers crossed. The pharmacy is ordering it now.

 

[Katanya]

Anyone know how likely it is I can come off meds while on a CTO? They’re making me suicidal. Ive been compliant for 3 months so far

I personally don’t think it’s very likely.

I assume you mean you are on something like a civil commitment where you are being forcibly treated though…

They seem to be very about staying on your meds when you are committed.

 

[Katanya]

Got my Vyvanse back, my Psychiatric Provider said I could restart it.

That will help with the focus and lack of energy (which has been getting better due to more protein but still is not at pre-Invega levels).

I am going to be on a Zio Heart Monitor that you stick on your chest so that they can look at my heart rate. My Cardiologist said he thought the results would be normal.

My Psychiatric Provider told me to start the monitor on day one without the Vyvanse and then do the next two days with.

I read Invega can cause heart problems and I already have a family history of heart problems so I don’t need that.

They upped my Caplyta to 42 mg which is the maintenance dose, I didn’t experience side effects with Caplyta when I was last on it so fingers crossed. The pharmacy is ordering it now.

I also hope my updates on my Invega journey are okay!

I don’t want to annoy anyone!

 

[rawbanana]

I also hope my updates on my Invega journey are okay!

I don’t want to annoy anyone!

That’s what this place is for. You should continue sharing

 

[paranoid android]

I also hope my updates on my Invega journey are okay!

I don’t want to annoy anyone!

Thats what this thread is for

 

[Trueart2]

Blank mind is effecting me, scheduled for 5 more injections. Wish I didn't have to take it, seemingly no escape from the injections for now although

 

[rawbanana]

Feel like I’m covered in concrete with just my face free

 

[Katanya]

That’s what this place is for. You should continue sharing

Thank you!

 

[rawbanana]

I used to be music artist and a songwriter and I used to have a good physical healthy body full of energy and life.

I’ve gained over 20 lbs and music sounds like noise to me… I can’t feel it

My life is over. I’m $4000 in debt and it’s increasing because I can’t pay it off. My parents put me in this hole.

 

[Gdvffh]

Hey guys. What kinda voices were you hearing when off medication. I was hearing God Mary and Jesus and angels and all. What about the rest of you.

 

[fenec]

Hey guys. What kinda voices were you hearing when off medication. I was hearing God Mary and Jesus and angels and all. What about the rest of you.

As for me, I never heard any voices, I'd just become paranoid due to lack of sleep and cannabis use.